Preface:

'You know what Sam I'm fed up of this. I'm fed up of this life. Sometimes I feel as though you are stifling me. I need time can you give me that?'

She looked up at him. His big hazel eyes showed hurt and confusion but he nodded. 'I'll call you when I'm back at home.'

He nodded as he stood aside letting her go. She was angry how could he just stand aside and not fight or ask her to stay.

She shook her head "No" she wasn't going to cry in front of him. She kissed his hand as she passed by feeling him respond as she took a deep breath and left. She knew what she had to do and telling Sam the truth wouldn't work.

Chapter 1:

Trin stared at the small bundle wrapped up in the incubator. As soon as they had taken her into the premature baby unit she hadn't slept for twenty four hours after she had been born.

Sam was asleep next to her. His long body stretched out and his arms folded. She always smiled because although he slept he never really looked comfortable.

Her contractions had started early and their daughter had been born two months premature but she was getting bigger and was now breathing by herself.

The Doctors said it wouldn't be long till she could come home with them. Turning her head away from her daughter she watched Sam sleeping.

He'd been a rock during the birth and had held her hand and coaxed her on. She smiled as she touched his head which was drooping down towards her shoulder and felt him stir, 'Wakey wakey sleepy head.'

He jumped and instantly was on his feet, 'Sam she's fine. She's doing good.'

He rubbed a hand across his face. Like her they both were shattered. He felt like he hadn't slept for a month.

He ran his hands through his hair and took a deep breath.

'I thought something had happened then.'

He sat down and stared at Trin she looked tired and her hair was pulled back loosely into a pony tail and some stray ends fluttered around her face but she still looked beautiful, 'Do we have a name yet?' Trin smiled.

They had not decided for definite on a name before she was born but whilst Trin had sat there watching her daughter she realised they could only call her one name.

'I'm still all for Mary like we suggested. I think she suits the name.' Sam smiled and pulled her into a hug.

'Are you sure?' She nodded, 'Mary Winchester unless we are going for a double barrelled name.' She laughed.

'No you're not getting rid of me that easy Winchester.'

They had gotten married. Trin had enjoyed the day just close family and she was still reasonably slim on the wedding photographs.

She wanted their child to be a fully fledged Winchester nothing more and nothing less so the wedding had happened not long after she had announced the pregnancy. She took a deep breath, 'Do you think we should leave?' Sam shrugged.

'I think we need a shower and a change of clothes at least.' Standing they both said goodbye to their daughter. Trin blew a final kiss as they closed the door behind her.

'Dean you aren't helping grrrr.' Tess grabbed his shirt from the floor, 'You know I've just done a large wash.'

She threw the shirt into the basket, 'God damn men!'

Dean was outside messing with the Impala she knew he was worried about Sam and there was nothing exactly wrong with the car.

The baby arriving early had surprised them all. Tess thought that Dean blamed himself for it. He'd shocked Trin by mentioning a hunt that Sam and him were about to take. Trin hadn't expected Sam to leave so early and a few hours after them discussing it her contractions had started.

Sighing she threw the basket on the floor next to the washing machine. John stared up at her from his high chair his face puckered in a frown of confusion, 'It's ok baby mummy's just a little fed up that's all.' She kissed his face and he smiled and laughed as her hair tickled him.

Dean pushed open the screen door his face was smeared with grease and so were his hands. He pulled off his boots and began to wash his hands in the sink, 'It's a good job I went and took a look.'

'Why's that?' Tess asked her hands on her hips.

Dean noticed she was wearing a tight black t shirt and her tight blue jeans. Her hair was still the same length as before to her chin and her big blue eyes showed interest as she took him in.

'Well she was leaking oil.' He smiled at her and she couldn't help but smile back he was so beautiful it still hurt when he stared at her the way he was right then.

'You couldn't have that then could you.' He shook his head.

She loved it when he was like a big kid all excited especially when it had taken his mind off of Sam. She watched him as he peeled off his tight grey shirt.

He stood with his back to her she smiled as she stared at the beautiful muscular back and his tight ass. She could watch him for ages she felt the desire burn for him. Her panties were soaked through and crossing her legs didn't help so she stood up and moved into the lounge picking up some of John's toys to calm her down.

Dean shouted from the kitchen, 'I've had a call from Bobby. Someone else has taken the hunt in Arizona so I don't need to worry about going alone or waiting for Sam.'

Tess nodded and as she moved back into the kitchen.

'I could have come with you but what about John.' He smiled at their son sat chewing on some fruit in his chair.

'Well baby its ok I'd rather be here for Sam and Trin.' He threw the cloth into the wash basket and pulled Tess into a hug.

She could smell the oil on his skin as well the deep intoxicating smell of Dean. He looked down into her big blue eyes and smiled.

'They will be fine Dean don't worry.' He kissed her softly.