Disclaimer: I don't own Teen Titans :(

Dear Beastboy,

Wow. That sounds so stupid… well anyways, I just wanted to write you a letter, explaining some things.

First off, I am so sorry. I wish I could go back and change what I did, but I cant. And I really hate myself for what I did, I cant believe I betrayed you guys the way I did. I hope you forgive me.

Im sorry I pretended like I didn't know you that day. But it would just be too painful for me to go back to the team. I know everyone there hates me, so what's the point of me going back? And BeastBoy, if you don't hate me, you should. I don't want you to hate me necessarily, but you should because of the nasty, terrible things I have done.

My real name isn't Terra obviously, it's Tara. Tara Markov, or to be more official Princess Tara Markov of Markovia. Although im not really the princess. See, my mother was a servant in the castle and my father is the king of Markovia. Well, they hooked up and then when I was born I was left in care of my father after my mother committed suicide. He loved me I guess. He always protected me. But I could take care of myself! I wasn't some sad little girl who needed protection! He and my brother Brion both were protective. Then one day, me and Brion were taking by scientists.

We were tested on and when we were released we had our powers. That's how I got my powers BeastBoy.

I should also let you know that in all the time we knew each other, we never once got our first kiss. We never even told each other out first name. You know I guess it just would've been too hard to have a super hero relationship anyways.

Its been months since I lied to you and said I wasn't Terra. I saw in the newspaper today you and Raven were dating. God, that just breaks my heart. I know you have moved on, and I know for a fact no one would let you date me now.

Not after what I have done. I could apologize all I wanted but no one would ever believe me.

So BeastBoy, I wrote you this so you knew more about me. Go to Markovia in England if you want to know more. Just ask for Brion and tell him you were a friend of mine. He will tell you everything.

I can almost hear your voice now, BeastBoy. Telling me I was beautiful, I was perfect in every way. Telling me such sweet things. Things Cyborg would tease you to no end about. But they were so sweet; I didn't think you had it in you. I would give anything to hear your voice one last time. But that won't happen.

You see BeastBoy; I just swallowed an entire bottle of pills. I won't be alive when you read this. I tried just cutting myself, but I knew that I wouldn't be happy unless I was with you. When I saw the picture of you and Raven kissing, I knew you found happiness without me. So I knew it would be best if I just died, because I can't ever be happy. I didn't write this for you to pity me, I wrote it so you knew you won't be able to find me.

I also wrote this to say goodbye. I love you BeastBoy. I have many regrets, but my biggest one was hurting you, and betraying the closest thing I ever had to a family.

I wish I had heard you tell me you loved me before I died.

My vision is graying; I better hurry and get this in the mailbox. Goodbye BeastBoy.

I won't ever forget you.

Love forever and always,

Terra

R&R please(: