Thoughts of Truth
Chapter 1: The False Brother
Knightmares, both Britannian and Japanese, flew past me, but I paid them no mind. Instead, I destroyed them. Methodically and precisely, just as I had been trained to do. I knew that Big Brother probably wouldn't approve what I was doing, but this is for his own good. After all, these are the people who tried to have him killed. For that, they deserve to be punished. They deserve death.
But not now, I reminded myself. Right now, what mattered the most was getting Lelouch to safety. Their punishment could wait until later, but I have a duty to do right now. Speaking of Big Brother, I could tell that he was too shocked and upset to even talk right now. It's understandable, I suppose, when you are betrayed by the very people you led and by someone who only seeks to find peace with war. It's all their fault. Schneizel and the Black Knights.
I knew that the Black Knights were only going to drag Lelouch down. After all, they were willing to betray him, even after all he had done for their cause. They weren't loyal like me. In the end, it was I who saved him. It was I who was risking my life to make sure that my brother was okay.
I love him. While Lelouch may have snapped at me, and said such horrible things to me, I knew he didn't mean it. He loves me, after all. That's why we shared such amazing memories before he woke up as Zero. That's why he let me on board this mission. He knew that I could get the job done. He had faith in me. In the end, he only said those horrible things so he could protect me. He just didn't want me around so I could save myself, but I saw right through him. Unlike that ungrateful redhead girl.
All of a sudden, my heart felt as if it was being twisted. I guided my Knightmare downwards while I grasped at my chest, eager to distract myself from the pain. The pain that was slowly getting worse. First it was only a small tug, but with every usage of my Geass, the pain slowly increased until I was gasping for breath and clawing at my shirt. I knew that I couldn't survive all of these enemies by myself, even with my training, so I was forced to rely on my Geass. However, it would all be worth it. As long as Lelouch was safe.
But I also knew that I might not be able to survive. For every enemy I shot down, more seemed to take its place. I needed to escape quickly before I was cornered and shot down. Before my heart fails me. Before I fail my brother. I needed to escape, and everything would be alright. While the enemies had numbers, I had skill and the power of my Geass. So, even while a tiny amount of doubt resided in my heart, I knew that everything was going to be alright.
In order to escape, I needed to use my Geass even more than I already had. In order to escape, I needed to risk my life until I was on the verge of death. However, the sight of my Big Brother calmed my fears. I would do it because I love him. I needed to protect him, just like what happened with that orange haired girl. I need to make sure that he's alright because of all that he had done for me.
I need to protect Lelouch.
We traveled quickly in to the distance, putting miles between us and our pursuers. I did it. I protect us both. I was so happy. Now, all we needed to do was lan—No! Nonononononono! The pain had returned in full force. My chest was burning, and I allowed one hand to clutch at my shirt in a desperate attempt to ease my pain.
"Big Brother!" I cried, "I need to land right now!" He grunted in response, and I placed my hand back at the controls, ready to perform an emergency landing. My breaths were growing ragged, each one shorter than the last. My sweaty palms gripped tightly on the controls as I attempted to guide us to a safe area for landing.
"Quickly, buckle yourself in somewhere! You need to hold on tight!" I called to Lelouch desperately. I heard the click of a buckle behind me, and I quickly went to lower our flight path. The ground was coming quickly, and I needed to slow us down but my vision was slowly fading.
Just as we reached the first trees, the pain stopped. I was confused for a second, but then my vision went black. The last image I had in my head was that of Lelouch. As soon as I saw them, I knew that everything was going to be fine. This vision of my brother smiled at me, that caring and gentle smile that he only used for me, his little brother. I smiled back at him, but it seemed to take forever to do so.
Everything is going to be alright. My Big Brother will save me. He always has a plan.
And then I knew no more.
Author's Note:
Hello everyone! If you've been following me, no, I am not dead. In fact, I have been very much alive. I have been quite busy for the past couple of months as I have finished high school, done exams, and graduated. Very exciting stuff, and I'm glad to be moving on to the next chapter in my life.
I've also been very uninspired to write until very recently, as you can see from my activity. Writing is simply just a hobby to me, and while I would like to improve, there is a lot of things going on in my life as I am about to make that transition in to post-secondary education. I can't exactly promise regular updates, but I have planned further chapters in this series. Hopefully that'll keep me inspired enough to keep writing for the time being.
Now, about this series. After seeing a ton of stories about time travel and realization of truths in the Code Geass universe, I decided to make something different. While it isn't exactly a unique idea, I wanted to have a take on what the characters were thinking during their most important moments. And that's what this series will be. What goes on in their heads when stuff is going down? I have more characters planned for this series, so look forward to that.
Sorry that this chapter was short, but I think that the coming chapters will be longer. Also, thank you to the wonderful guest review on Zero Emotion that inspired me to keep writing. Your words are very much appreciated.
That's all for now, and thank you very much for reading this new story. I wish you all the best.
DYFM out!