A little summary: Kensi, Deeks and Jack. Three lifelong friends. Deeks and Jack both fell in love with Kensi. How will it affect their friendship?

Disclaimer: NCIS Los Angeles and its characters aren't mine.

'She looks beautiful.' Deeks thought on the woman who caught his eyes as soon as he entered.

In a room filled with people, she was standing out in her white satin halter evening dress. Her black hair was in a French twist pinned with several crystals, some hair stands were meticulously put to frame her face. She was wearing little to none make up. She looked like a goddess, he noticed. Not that he never saw her as such. Deeks knew ever since he laid his eyes on her 20 years ago, she'll grow up to be the prettiest woman he will ever see. Silly thought of an 8 year old boy back then to a girl 2 years his junior.

"Isn't she remarkable?"

A voice broke him out of his reverie. He looked back and saw a dark haired man, taller than him, standing, staring at the same woman who had his attention.

His face brightened. "Jack!"

"Deeks!"

They shared a brotherly hug, the way they used to do since they were young because that was what they were, brothers. It wasn't because they were of the same blood or genes. They did not have that kind of connection but they were brothers at heart.

"How's the flight?" Jack asked him.

He shrugged his shoulders to answer, dismissing the question.

Jack laughed a little, not offended with him in any way. "I'm glad you made it given the short notice."

A week ago, Deeks got a call from his mother telling him of the good news. Finally, his two best friends were getting married and a party will be held in celebration of their engagement. Of course, his presence was required. Thinking of his lifelong friends, he wasn't surprised to learn that the two were about to tie the knot. He knew the couple very well, he was a witness when they began their relationship.

"Congratulations!" He offered in an excited tone, hiding the little insincerity he was feeling at the moment.

Jack patted his shoulder. "Thanks man. Does she know you are here? She'll be happy to see you."

He shook his head. "I haven't had a chance to greet her yet." Deeks answered truthfully. Since he arrived late last night, he never had a time to see her.

Jack eyed him curiously. It was unusual for his friend not to see his fiancée after being gone for years. The two were close, very close.

"Now you do."

It wasn't Jack's voice. It was hers. Deeks need not to see who she was. He had not heard or seen her for 4 years but it didn't mean that he had forgotten everything about her. Her voice, the softest he had ever heard. Her smile, the sweetest smile for him. Her eyes, the most expressive hazels he will not tire looking at.

Turning to her, Deeks was welcomed with a beaming Kensi, the woman who just seconds ago was the subject of his attention.

"Kensalina." He greeted the woman using his nickname for her. He took a step forward and enclosed her in a hug.

"Deeks." She whispered his name.

Gently, he let her go.

They just stood there, staring at each other, barely aware of their surroundings.

Kensi felt that she was being watched. Roaming her eyes around, she saw Deeks on the corner. His baby blues were staring at her intently, his face was unreadable.

"Are you alright?"

Startled at the voice, she turned to the man standing next to her, giving him a small smile. "Yeah."

"I'm sorry."

"For what?"

"I insisted on having this. I know you never wanted a party and are probably tired from work. I thought-"

"Jack." She placed a finger on his lips, stopping him from rambling. "I love you and I'm marrying you. I want the people to know that. Thank you for this. It's perfect."

Her fiancé's face brightened at her words.

"Oh!" She cried in surprise when Jack pulled her closer to him, his one arm hugged her waist tighter while the other cupped her face.

"I love you, Kensi." He mumbled.

Before Kensi can reply, his lips landed on hers.

Their kiss went on, deeply and passionately. The guests were cheering at them, obviously happy for the newly engaged couple.

Deeks turned his back to them. He needed to get out of there. His knees were weakening. His eyes were burning. His chest was tightening. He thought he can do it but he knew now that he can't. Afraid that someone might notice his indifference, he began stepping away from them and made his way outside. As he passed through the door, he didn't see Kensi's eyes following his movement, trace of grief passed her face.

Opening another can of beer, Deeks quickly swallowed its content.

'Since when seeing your two best friends making out becomes unbearable?' He questioned himself.

They were a couple, kissing was part of every relationship. And this was not the first time he had seen them doing it and he was pretty sure they do more than lip locking. He shook his head trying to get rid of the unwarranted image of Kensi and Jack in his mind. He didn't want to go there. But it hurt. It hurt so badly. He threw the empty can on the center table, hoping he can drove his misery away with it too.

After he left the restaurant, where the party was being held, without so much of a word to anyone, Deeks went home. He couldn't think of a place to go. All his closest friends were with Kensi and Jack, celebrating with them.

He settled himself on the living room, with six packs within an arm's reach, TV opened and playing some movie.

"Son?"

He turned to see his mother sitting beside him, he didn't realize she could still be awake given this time of night.

"I'm sorry. Did I disturb you?" He asked in concern.

She shook her head and gave her an understanding smile. Opening her arms wide, she comprehended what her son badly needed. Deeks fell on his mother's embrace, his head on her shoulder. A small sob escaped his lips.

"It's okay." She said in a hushed tone, her hand was caressing his hair gently. Roberta's heart ached for her son, knowing what he was going through.

"M-mom, I love her. I love her so much." He whispered as endless tears fell from his eyes.