Randy was sitting on the bench in the locker room. His head down and his eyes close.

"Hey man." John said walking over to his locker. "What's going on?"

Randy sighed and looked up at John. "Eve and I had another fight."

"About what?" John said going through his locker.

"Everything." Randy said "My job, the kids and everything else in between. I don't want to go back there tonight because I know we're just going to fight again."

"You guys have been fighting a lot lately." John turned to Randy. "Hey you want to hang out tonight. We can get some drinks, just us."

"I don't know." Randy said.

"Come on." John sat next to him. "It will be just like it use to. It will make you feel better I promise."

Randy smiled "Alright."

"Good" John said closing his locker. "Come on we better head out."

"I'll be there in a minute." Randy said waving him off. He watched him go then buried his face in his hands, thinking about John. John was a major part in why he and his wife fought. She thought he spent too much time with him, which was true. He spent more time with John then he did with his own family. He loves his family more than anything but when he was with John he felt complete. Getting up he headed out of the locker room. He walked up to John who was sitting on a desk talking to another officer. "Hey ready to go?"

"Yeah." John got up. "Later."

OOO

"Are you alright?" John asked once they were outside. He opened the car door and stared at him. "You still seem like something is bugging you."

Randy looked around at the officers and leant against the police car. "It's just for a while I've been having these feelings."

"For what?" John asked leaning in closer.

Randy looked John in the eyes and shook his head. "Never mind." He said stepping back and opening the door. "It doesn't matter anyway because nothing will ever happen." He got into the car.

John sighed and got in next to him. He looked over at Randy who was staring out the window. "Randy come on I know when something is bothering you and whatever it is I know it's something big by the way you're acting."

"Just drop it." Randy almost yelled looking over at him. "Nothing is wrong so will you please just drive."

John shook his head but started the car and drove off. They drove around the city not speaking. John gripped the steering wheel and focused on the road.

The silence finally got to Randy and he looked over at John. "I'm sorry." He said. "These past few months haven't been all that good for me. I know you mean well and you just want to help but I just don't want to talk about it, okay."

John nodded "Sorry for pushing you but I'm just worried."

Randy smiled "I know but if I ever do want to talk about it I know where to find you."

John smiled "So do you still want to hang out tonight?"

"Of course." Randy said." I could use a night out."

OOO

Later that night

John watched as Randy danced around on the dance floor of the club with different men and women. He got up and went over to him. "Randy it's late and we should go." He helped Randy out to his car. "I'm going to take you home."

Randy shook his head. "No I don't want them to see me like this. Just take me to your place and I'll crash there."

OOO

John stumbled into his apartment, Randy hanging on his shoulder. "Okay let's get you to bed."

Randy stopped him. "Wait I have to tell you something." He said moving away from John. "For the past few months I've been having these sexual and romantic feeling for you. A feeling that two men should never feel for each other, especially seeing that I'm a married man with kids."

"Randy you're drunk." John said. "You don't know what you're saying."

"Yes I do!" Randy cried out. "I feel something for you that I've never felt with anyone, not even Eve." He walked up to John and grabbed his face with both of his hands. "I love you Johnny. I've loved you for as long as I can remember and I've wanted to do this since the day I met you."

"Randy-" John was cut off by Randy's lips on his own.

Randy pulled back and smiled. "Man that felt amazing." He kissed John again.

John pulled back. "You're not thinking." He said. "Come on."

OOO

John sat Randy in his bed and took off his shoes. He pushed him down and covered him up. "Just sleep."

"I don't want to sleep." Randy said pulling John into another kiss.

"Randy stop." John pulled back. "Just get some sleep."

Randy moaned and turned onto his stomach. "Night." He said and soon fell asleep.

John sat on the edge of the bed just watching Randy sleep. He couldn't believe what just happened. This was something he's wanted since the day they met and know that he knew for sure that Randy felt the same way about him it scared him. He got up and went to the living room and after calling Eve he fall asleep on the couch.

OOO

Around 5:30 the next morning

Randy rolled over onto his back in a big soft bed that didn't feel like his own. Cracking his eyes open he looked around and realized that it was John's room. He rolled over again and hit the floor with a loud thud. Groaning he slowly got up and headed out of the room, using the wall as leverage. "John?" he said walking into the living room.

John smiled. "Are you okay, it sounded like you hit the floor pretty hard?" He was in the kitchen making them breakfast.

Randy sat at the table and dropped his head on the table. "Man my head hurts."

John placed a hot cup of coffee in front of Randy, along with two aspirins. "Are you hungry?"

"Starving." Randy said talking the pills. "What the hell happened last night?"

John sighed "You had a little too much to drink at the club and you didn't want Eve to see you like this so I brought you here."

Randy groaned "I don't remember anything." He looked over at John. "Did anything else happen?"

John looked at Randy and shook his head. "Nothing else happened." He walked over to Randy and placed the plate of food on the table. "Eat up, then shower and get dressed, we leave in two hours."

Randy watched him walk off and couldn't help but feel that there was something John wasn't telling him. Decided to let it go he started eating.

OOO

Two hours later they left.

On the way to the station Randy noticed how quiet and jumpy John was. "Okay something seriously happened last night and you need to tell me what."

"Okay fine." John said. "Last night when you were wasted you…you…you danced with some girls but mostly guys and you seemed really into it." He didn't tell Randy what happened when they got to John's place because he didn't feel like it was the right thing to do.

"Oh" Randy looked down.

John shrugged. "It's not a big deal."

"I'm not gay." Randy said looking back up at him.

"I know." John said pulling into the police station parking lot. "We don't have to talk about last night because as far as I'm concerned nothing happened."

Randy nodded "Thanks." He said. "Come on."

"I'll be there in a minute." John said. He dropped his head on the steering wheel. He couldn't stop thinking about last night. Between the kiss and Randy's confession he couldn't think straight. He wanted nothing more than to be with Randy last night but he didn't want to take advantage of him seeing that he was drunk and it didn't seem right. So he decided to forget it ever happened which would soon be the hardest thing he's ever had to do.

A/N Next chapter will be up soon and please review.