Shameless

TpolTucker

This is a song fic of course, centerin around the pairin of Rogue/Cyclops, song is Shameless by Garth Brooks, of course Garth Brooks and Capitol Records owns rights to the song and I am not makin anythin from it, especially not from X-Men and Marvel Comics or 20th Century Fox for that matter, even though I would love to have Cyclops for myself. Please R/R if you like. I would really love to have ideas of where I can go with this. This is a R/C fic, with some C/J and R/L in it for obvious reasons. This is told in second person, and in Scott's point of view. Enjoy.

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Scott, fearless leader of the X-Men, Mr. Stick-up-my-ass Summers has an obsession.

Rogue.

As he was at his desk in his classroom working on grading papers while the class was doing their work, he made occasional glances at her while she was working on a problem. She asked Bobby if he could help her, and Bobby scooted his chair over to her desk to assist her. Scott felt a pang of jealousy course through him, wondering why she didn't ask him for help. He would have gladly gotten out of his chair to go over and help her. He wasn't afraid of touching her, he was the only other one, other than Logan who ever touched her to show her that people cared about her and she wasn't an outcast because of her mutation. He gradually started a friendship with her. When Logan took off the first time after establishing The Mansion as his home, Scott took it upon himself to make Marie feel welcome here. Everybody was cordial to her, but never took the time to get to know her. He teased with her, and bantered. He included her in everything, Whether it was going out to the movies with other students, or asking her if she wanted to go with him when he was building a replacement bike to see if she was good enough to be "his baby," like the first one. He even started to personally train her to be a full blown X-Men, to be an asset to the crew. It was during these times that he started to feel more for her then the friendship that they shared. Sure he is with Jean and he loves her, but not like these feelings that he is getting with Marie. With Marie it's wonderful. She doesn't require him to be aristocratic like. He can be himself and not have to worry about saying the wrong thing around her.

Well I'm shamemeless when it comes to loving you
I'll do anything you want me to
I'll do anything at all

He is glad that his shades and visor keep his eyes hidden from her and everybody else. Jean would be furious if she knew of his carnal thoughts where Marie is concerned. It pains him to not be able to confront Marie and tell her that he loves her and would gladly break things off with Jean and take her anywhere she wants, finally take her to Alaska, where she was headed when they first met. He would even convince Jean and Xavier to work on getting it so she can touch, so she can control her power.

And I'm standing here for all the world to see
Oh baby, that's what's left of me
Don't have very far to fall

Even with his love for Jean, it was never enough to sustain him after the loss of his parents and his brother Alex to that horrible plane crash that caused his mutation to manifest.Now he has to live his life not seeing in colors. He is working with Jean and the Professor on being able to finally control his mutation, but so far, everything tried hasn't worked.

You know now I'm not a man who's ever been
Insecure about the world I've been living in
I don't break easy, I have my pride
But if you need to be satisfied

Well, he lied. He is insecure with the politicians trying to pass The Mutant Registration Act. He doesn't want to live in a world where he is, and always will be pegged as a "Mutie," or a "freak." He wants to go through life just being normal like everybody else at the mansion wants.

I'm shameless, oh honey, I don't have a prayer
Every time I see you standin' there
I go down upon my knees

And I'm changing, swore I'd never compromise
Oh, but you convinced me otherwise
I'll do anything you please

He wishes beyond anything that he could tell her how he feels, and show her how much she can be loved, can be touched without panicking and causing harm. Every time he sees her, he feels his legs go wobbly, and he has to grab hold of things to keep from falling. He started to do things out of the ordinary to get her to notice him. He started wearing clothes that were befitting a farmer, but with the sophistication of what he was before Marie.


You see in all my life I've never found

What I couldn't resist, what I couldn't turn down
I could walk away from anyone I ever knew
But I can't walk away from you

If he had to, he would leave The Institution and take her with him.If only he could get her to think of him in the way she thinks of Logan. I know that Logan has a thing for Jean, and would gladly give her up to him to be with Marie. She shares his love of life, and the finer things, like late night chats, eating ice cream from the carton, even going out to clubs and seedy bars to get away from everything for a while.

I have never let anything have this much control over me
I work too hard to call my life my own
And I've made myself a world and it's worked so perfectly
But it's your world now, I can't refuse
I've never had so much to lose
Oh, I'm shameless

Of course, he had his life on track, had a teaching position at the school, and being leader of The X-Men. Everything was perfect. That was until he met Marie, this angel brought down to teach him what real love is and to also teach him that life isn't all bad when one was different from everybody else. She has a power she never knows she has. She has the ability to make any guy she befriends fall for her, hard. Bobby, Logan, Xavier, and himself are under her spell. All she has to do is crook her finger and all of us are running.

You know it should be easy for a man who's strong
To say he's sorry or admit when he's wrong
I've never lost anything I've ever missed
But I've never been in love like this

It's out of my hands

I'm shameless, I don't have the power now
I don't want it anyhow
So I got to let it go

I can never be strong in her presence, well can't really say that. I could be strong for her, if she knew of my feelings. He really needs to get rid of this obsession with her, but he can't, and never will be able to.

Oh, I'm shameless, shameless as a man can be
You make a total fool of me
I just wanted to you to know

That is why he has to confront her about his feelings, and hope, beyond a shadow of a doubt that she feels the same way towards him. He has to do it tonight or he will loose the strength in him to do it later. When he knows that Jean is sleeping soundly, he will go to her room and ask her if he can have a word with her. Ask her point blank if there can be anything between them that is more than friendship. He needs to know.

Oh, I'm shameless, I just wanted you to know
Oh, I'm shameless, Oh, I'm down on my knees...shameless

I may or may not continue this, depending on the reviews I get. Thank you for reading this is my first ever fan fic, and would love to know what you all think of it.

TT

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