Chapter 1

"Ah fuck oh god so good. Keep going so close…" Juice panted and huffed as he pulled and twisted at his hard dick. He thrust up into his hand chasing after his orgasm as he felt the soft fizzing in his stomach starting to intensify. "Oh fuck I'm coming ah I'm coming… Tiggy." His whole body tensed as the first rope of thick white come shot out of his dick landing across his stomach. He kept thrusting and writhing as rope after rope coated his body. As the pulsing pleasure slowly subsided he gave one last tug and moaned contentedly feeling his body finally relax. He laid huffing out deep breaths trying to slow his frantically beating heart when suddenly there was a loud knock on his door making him jump and scramble for his trousers. He grabbed a dirty t-shirt and wiped off his stomach making sure he was completely clean before shouting out, "Yep come in." The door slowly opened revealing a smiling Chibs. "What's up?"

"Nothing brother just coming to get you, there's a party going on out there and you're in here all on your own. It aint right come and join the fun." Chibs explained wrapping his arm around Juice's shoulder. Juice smiled at him and nodded his head. "Good now grab a shirt and let's get moving." Juice moved away and grabbed the shirt he had been wearing earlier sliding it on. Chibs grinned and grabbed him again pulling him towards the door. They stepped out and walked down the corridor to the bar immediately being hit by a wall of loud voices and even louder music. Juice looked around the room smiling as his eyes fell on each of his brothers. "You've been missing out."

"I'm sure I can make up for it." Chibs laughed and clapped him on the back with a grin. Juice smiled back and looked around the room again subconsciously scanning every face until he found the one he was looking for. Tig. His face brightened even more when he found the man grinning and chatting. He watched him for a few seconds smiling every time he laughed but his face fell and he felt a harsh twisting in his heart as a crow eater wrapped her arms around Tig's waist gently kissing his neck. He could feel bile rising up his throat as Tig turned to the woman and kissed her. He watched as Tig weaved his fingers through her cheap blond extensions pulling her closer, feeling jealousy and pain warring in his heart.

"Juicy look away bud, come on come get a drink with me." Chibs said sadly. He slid his arm around Juice's waist pulling him close to his side. Juice turned to him and looked up tears building in his eyes. Chibs pulled him closer and kissed his temple trying to soothe him. Juice clung to his cut fighting back the tears that threatened to fall. "Come on brother you've got to forget about him."

"I can't Chibby I love him. I know I shouldn't and that it's wrong but I can't help it. Every time I see him I just want to grab him and tell him but I can't because he'll hate me and I'll lose the club. I've just got to sit back and watch as he fucks his way through the whole female population of Charming." Juice said bitterly. Chibs stepped away and held Juice at arm's length staring at him intently.

"You won't lose the club over this, sure it's not the best situation but were your brothers no matter what. As long as it doesn't affect the club you can do what you want." Juice stared back at him unsure what to do or say. "Don't look at me like that you should know this shit by now." Juice laughed at the harsh words and lunged forward pulling Chibs into a tight hug. Chibs hugged him for a second patting him on the back encouragingly. Juice pulled away smiling but it quickly fell from his face as Tig laughed behind them.

"I'm doing this now before I change my mind. I'm a fucking son I don't hide from anything especially another brother." Juice said aggressively, pumping himself up. Chibs clapped him on the back again and handed him a shot that seemed to have materialized from nowhere. "Thanks, wish me luck. Oh and get the first aid kit ready I think I might need it."

"Aye we'll be here waiting along with the best bottle of scotch I can find in this place." Juice smiled and took a deep breath before walking away. He slowly walked over to Tig grimacing when the crow eater started tugging at his jeans trying to open them. He huffed again and stopped in front of them coughing to get their attention.

"What's up Juicy?" Tig asked drunkenly as he palmed at the crow eaters tits. Juice averted his eyes and pulled at the hem of his t-shirt uncomfortably. "Come on Juice speak I'm busy here."

"Yeah umm… sorry I need to speak to you." Juice mumbled nervously. Tig shot up out of his seat knocking the girl out of the way. She gave an indignant squeak and opened her mouth to speak but quickly shut up when Tig glared at her.

"Is it something to do with the club, what's going on?" Tig asked frantically. Juice could see the guilt written on Tig's face at the thought of having been enjoying himself when his club and brothers needed him. Juice smiled and reached over squeezing his shoulder.

"It's not the club. I need to talk to you… please."

"Fuck sake Juicy can't it wait like I said I'm busy." Tig said; worry quickly being overrun by anger. He reached out for the crow eater and pulled her close once again grabbing at her tits. Juice cringed at the sight and shook his head.

"No it needs to be now it's important. Come out side with me and I'll explain everything." Tig shook his head but begrudgingly lightly kissed the blond and sat her back down with a cheeky smirk. Juice scowled as she ran a hand up Tig's thigh with her own cheeky smile. He grunted and turned away expecting Tig to follow. Once he was finally outside away from all the people and noise he took in a refreshing breath calming himself down. He jumped at the thud of the door as Tig came charging out frowning angrily.

"What do you want then? It better be fucking important Juice I could be in there fucking her but instead I'm out here talking to you, what's going on?" Juice fidgeted on the spot for a few seconds staring down at the floor his breathing slowly getting faster as he began to panic. "Juice you have three seconds then I'm going back in." Juice's head shot up at the words, panic clear in his eyes.

"Don't do that I don't want you to do that. This is going to sound crazy and wrong and I know that but I need you to know that I don't expect anything from you and that I understand if you need to go to the club with this but… I love you like properly love you like in love with you…" Juice trailed off as Tig just stood staring at him in wide eyed shock. "Speak please Tig anything I don't care what just say something."

"Are you high or drunk or something, what the fuck are you even saying? Why are you saying this shit?" Tig demanded harshly. Juice flinched at the harsh tone and took a step back. "Answer me for fuck sake Juice, what the fuck is going on?"

"I… I love you. I know I shouldn't but I can't help it and I needed you to know." Tig sank against the wall and pulled out a cigarette quickly lighting it and taking a long drag. "Tiggy say something please I know you don't want to hear this but I just… I don't know I needed to tell you."

"Juicy I don't… fuck I'm sorry but I'm not like that I don't want that. I'm sorry." Juice's face fell for a second but he quickly covered it with a sad smile.

"Its fine Tig honestly I knew you wouldn't feel the same I just wanted to tell you to get it off my chest, you know. I'm gunna go back in there and get really drunk so I can forget that this ever happened. I'll catch you later." Without waiting for a reply Juice sped away making sure to keep his head down so nobody could see the tears trailing down his face. He rushed back into the clubhouse and found Chibs, wrapping his arms around him the second he was close enough. "He said that he's not like that and that he doesn't want me." He whimpered quietly. Chibs squeezed him tight and rubbed his back soothingly.

"I'm sorry Juicy. He's a dick anyway doesn't know what he's missing." Juice nodded his head and stepped back wiping at his eyes.

"You promised me a bottle of scotch, let's get this party started." Chibs nodded and slapped him on the back.

Tig walked back into the clubhouse frowning as he tried to figure out what the fuck was going on with him. His head was spinning with Juice's words playing over and over again; he couldn't understand why suddenly it was so important for him to know. He'd seen Juice watching him over the last few months he knew what had been going on but he was choosing to ignore it. It was perfect, if he ignored Juice's stupid feelings and longing looks he could do the same for his own. He gave a growl of frustration when he sat down and was immediately stuck to by the blond from earlier. He wracked his brain for her name but couldn't think of it so gave up and just pushed her away.

"Take a hike princess I'm not in the mood, maybe later." She stood up sullenly but walked away without a word. Tig watched her go; once she was out of sight he transferred his gaze to Juice watching him as he sipped at his drink. He felt the familiar stirring in his dick at the sight of him and subconsciously palmed at himself. He watched as Juice laughed and leaned into Chibs' side both of them grinning from ear to ear.

"What's with the face Tiggy this is meant to be a party." Tig looked over as Jax collapsed down on the sofa next to him smiling brightly.

"I'm not in the mood."

"Just go over to him… don't give me that look I saw the two of you go outside then five minutes later he comes back in in tears and you come in miserable as fuck. Go and talk to him figure your shit out." Tig shook his head uncertainly.

"He said he loves me. I fuck that up and he'll end up hating me, I don't want that for me or the club. This way he'll get over me and everything will go back to normal. He's just a kid he doesn't know what he's feeling. Everything will be fine." Tig said warily.

"Who are you trying to convince Tiggy, me or you? Just go and talk to him put him out of his misery and explain what the fuck is going on." Tig shook his head again frowning as Chibs and Juice walked away from the bar towards the dorm rooms. He watched them feeling a lead weight settle in his stomach. He felt sick as they disappeared around a corner laughing and joking with each other. He turned back to Jax with a deep angry frown marring his face.

"He's just told me he's in love with me and now he's in his room with Chibs. See he doesn't know shit about his feelings he's just looking for a dick to suck." Tig shouted angrily. Jax looked around making sure nobody had heard relieved to find everybody still engrossed in their own conversations. "He doesn't give a fuck and that's fine neither do I."

"Tig you know that's bullshit. He wouldn't have said that if he didn't mean it and Chibs wouldn't do that to either of you. I get that you're scared about all this but if you don't tell him soon he's going to find someone else and you'll be left on your own. Just go and sort things out with him." Jax patted Tig's shoulder and stood up not waiting for him to reply. Tig looked around the room smiling when his eyes landed on the blond from earlier. He whistled loudly and beckoned her over when she turned around. She strutted over swaying her hips from side to side stopping when she was just a step away from him.

"What can I get you darlin'?" Tig reached up and grabbed her hips pulling her close and leaning into her stomach taking a deep breath in enjoying her sweet smell.

"I need a distraction you think you can help with that..." Tig looked up with pleading eyes trying desperately to remember her name with a guilty smile.

"Cheryl my names Cheryl and of course I can help, where do you want me?" Tig stood up grabbing Cheryl's hand giving it a squeeze as he led her to his bedroom.