I've always wanted to write a song fic but never really knew how to go about it. So I got this idea after I read zeza-66 's story Gravity.
The song this is If I can't have you from MeatLoaf's new CD. (I LOVE MEAT LOAF!) I've always wanted to do a Supernatural song fic from one of his songs because a lot of them can tie into Supernatural! If you like the classic rock, go look him up~
The lyrics are after the " ~ " and are also in bold.
I do not own the Song or Supernatural.
Enjoy~
~ To say it's love would be too simple
Too obvious
It's more like a calling, a vocation
Something I was
Put on this earth to do
Now I'm shooting with the stars
And I'm flying with the angels
And my heartbeat is a symphony the
Closer I get to you
Hey Cass, I think you might know why I brought you here but... You know it's strange. I never thought the one I would fall for would be someone like you. I mean an angel? Seriously what the hell was I thinking! What am I thinking! Plus you're a fricken guy. A GUY. I guess that's what I get for fucking all of those girls isn't it? Thanks God, I really appreciate it. But anyway, here I am, telling you all of this in Bobby's fricken safe room.
But I can't get you out of my head. It's like your chewing on my brain and nothing can get you off.
When we kiss, it's as if I'm flying with you and your wings are our guide.
And when we fuck… Heh, well that's a different story...
when I get near you, it feels like my heart is going to explode and burst inside my chest. I'm sure even you can hear the heart beat of my soul right now.
~ I never saw you comin' till you
Came and here you are
I never thought someone
Would ever dare
To come this far
You're up for the resistance
And I'm strong in my persistence
And I've never known
A remedy like oursDean…
I'm flattered you are telling me this for I feel the same way and I was not expecting this from you. I should tell you that, when I fell, it was for you. Everything was for you. I never saw this coming. When I pulled you out of Hell, something sparked inside your eyes, like a remedy and it sparked inside of me.
An electric current zapped through both of us and for some reason and I couldn't be to far from you after that. And every time we look into each others eyes, that spark seems to flow between us once again without us even realizing it. It's something I never expected, never even imagined, and you've never backed out of it. Out of us.
Don't worry, I will always be with you, because I can't bear to be parted from you for long.
~If I can't have you
I would be a river dried up
Into dust
I would be imprisoned
For ever having loved
If I can't have you
I don't wanna be me
Then I would be the same man
You scraped off the ground
I'd have to go back bein'
That broken soul you found
Those days are in the darkness
I buried them with hardness
And I'd have to dig those
Demons out
Cass... I don't know what or where I would be without you. If I can't have you, I would rather be back in Hell. You pulled me out of that hole and put my soul back together before I even realized it. If something ever happened to us, I would be back to that broken mangled man you pulled from hell. Those days are in the darkness now, forever to be buried in my grave.
~ Your life is like anchor that puts
Me in my place
No you won't let me sink when
I'm off losin' my way
Dean.
You always seem to know how to pull me back into your arms, even when I'm mad at you and even confused with the emotions that rattle on inside me.
~ Thank God for your virtue
And the wisdom in your eye
Cause somehow you
Get through on
All that crazy in my mind
Jesus Cass, If it wasn't for you pitting up with everything that goes on inside MY mind I think I would have blown up by now! Thank God for that smartness of yours. You know how I tick somehow and you always get through to me. I don't know what would happen if we ever parted again... You remember that? That was...
~If I can't have you
I would be a river
Dried up into dust
I would be imprisoned for never
Having loved
If I can't have you
I don't wanna be me
I remember that well... I was afraid Dean, they beat me until I promised to obey them to the fullest. Saying those words to you, that I don't follow a humans orders, I was lying. Because that human was you and I would rather be in prison than not have you.
~Why did it take you so long to
Finally see
That we had love
That you don't find easily
You broke my heart and the price
To pay for that
Is you'll have to live the misery of
Losing what you had
You broke my heart that day Cass. I almost didn't know what to with myself and I tried to keep it from Sammy. But he's to smart for that... It wasn't easy to not let you back in, I needed to hurt you as you did me.
~ If I can't have you
My words have come to late
I've already turned that page
Don't you look at me back and
That's the part I hate
Dean. You should know that after that... I didn't love you for awhile. But that spark between us, do I hate it so, kept bringing me back to you and that's the part I hate It seems… yet, do I love it so.
~ I'll stay trapped inside my hell
Where it's so hot
That my walls melt
And I can hear a promise
In every lie you said
You'd never tell
If I had only told the truth
Oh I could never trust you to
Castiel as I said before I would rather be trapped inside my own hell where everything just burns to no end if you weren't here with me on this cold Earth we call home. And all of those lies you told me because of what 'higher power' told you to say, I knew there was promise behind them. If only you told the truth... But I know you wouldn't tell the truth back then.
~ You'll survive
You would have survived Dean.
~ No I will die
I would have died without you and still would if you left.
~ If I can't have you
If I can't have you
Then I'm sorry for the things I
Cost you in the end
My punishment is more than any
Man can stand
I need you in my life
I can't let go
Cass listen to me! Don't leave me again I can see something cooking up in your eyes, im sorry for everything that I caused you. The fall, becoming human, everything! It more than any man could bear, could stand! And I'm willing to take that punishment for you because... Because I need you in my life and I can't just let us go!
~ Why don't you stay with me
Tonight
I feel alone
Turn off all the lights
Take me home
If I can't have you
If I can't have you
Then I would be a river
Dried up into dust
Cass! Look at me, let me see those eyes of yours that I can't ever seem to take my own eyes off of! Please, I feel so alone without you. Cass stay with me tonight. Well turn off the lights and go back home to where we won't ever feel alone... Did I just rhyme? Jesus I think I did...
Cass, without you, I would be like a raging river who suddenly burst into flames and shriveled into dust.
~ I would be imprisoned
For ever having loved
If I can't have you
I don't wanna be me
Dean... That last statement doesn't make any sense. Yes I know it doesn't have to I just thought I would say it... Dean I won't leave you again why are you even thinking that? Cause I simply can't. I too would rather be in prison for ever having loved you and I still would for that matter. If I can't have you, I would rather be Michael or even Lucifer. But I'm not, and this is me. Castiel, telling you that... I love you Dean Winchester.
~ To say it's love would be too simple
It took you this long to admit it huh? Heh... You crazy angel. But if you're crazy then I'm crazy to huh? Nothing is simple with a Winchester is it?
Cass...
I love you too
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