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Spoilers: small reference to Hydro.
HOME IS A WOUNDED HEART
CHAPTER 1: Grief
SMALLVILLE 2007
It was an unusually bleak morning of July. It seemed the weather had changed to fit the mood that had seized Luthor Mansion of late. It was the morning she decided to pack and leave despite what she felt deep in her heart. She needed him, needed to share with him the tragedy that had befallen them but he had closed up emotionally. She had tried to break down the walls he had erected around his heart, but she didn´t have the strength to fight any longer.
The day it had happened he had locked himself up in the room, denying her access. He had stopped eating and sleeping; and it had taken Martha Kent two hours to convince him to open the door and let her in. Martha Kent, the mother of the young man whose ghost had stood between them for so long; the woman who had managed to put some humanity back into Lionel Luthor and who had been the closest thing to a mother Lex had had since he came to Smallville, was the only female whose comfort he accepted.
Three months had gone by. Three months of agony. Ninety days of missing him and his warmth. It seemed the man she had come to love after so many years had died that day. He who was the only constant in her life, her rock, had shut her out and it hurt like hell- if anything, it tripled her grief. She was sure he blamed her, and she dreaded to think what would happen if he awoke from his trance and decided to come out and face her, for she didn´t know if she´d survive the look of those blue-grey eyes.
Lana climbed down the stairs of the mansion with her suitcases and got into the taxi that was already waiting for her on the driveway. She shut the door firmly and told the driver her destination before her resolve disappeared. She got away from Lex´s life but left her heart behind.