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Fifteen
Bright leaves descended from the great oak trees as I stepped closer and closer to the ledge, closer and closer to my already forseen death. I wondered to myself; when he saw this happening, did he already realize that he was the reason behind it all? That now, even years after the tragedy had befallen me, I was still thinking of the whole incident, that I was still thinking of him?
Another step. Rocks crumbled down, slowly falling down into that deep and dark abyss. Did he already know? Had he seen it again? Or was this all a joke to him...a cruel little joke..? Oh, sure, he could sit around all he wanted, sitting there and pretending that nothing had ever happened. Pretending that he and I had never gotten together. Pretending that he hadn't completely ruined what little of a life I had begun to get.
But, no, I suppose, at the time, none of it seemed wrong at all. In fact, it had all happened so fast..the champagne..the soft little kisses quickly turning into desperately passionate touches, all resulting in the final note: Kae.
Now, don't get me wrong, I love Kae, I love her with all of my heart. I know that in all my life, in all of my twenty years of life, I had never, not ever dreamed that I would have been able to love someone as much as I loved her. I would never had thought that I even withheld the emotional capacity to love someone that much. But Kae, oh my Kae, even after birth, she was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen, with her dark little locks clumping on the top of her head, her cheeks bright and red, her eyes round and full and bright with life...oh, how I fell in love that day.
And now, even five years later she is still the most beautiful little thing ever, I have still never seen anything quite like her. And, right now, right at this very moment, I don't quite understand my motives for leaving such a small and delicate creature all alone in this cruel, cruel world. Although I already know now that this is the right choice, that this is what I have to do.
Another step; barely even a step left. This was it. This was goodbye. Goodbye to my sweet and precious little Kae...my sweet, sweet baby girl. Sighing softly to myself, I looked over the ledge, looking down into the deep and dark, seemingly endless ocean. I already knew it would be over soon, I mean, he had told me as much. That it would be quick and painless, that I would be second-guessing this decision as I fell towards my demise. I chuckled softly to myself, thinking of what he would think when he found out this had really actually happened, that five short years after he had predicted this 'tragedy', it had really happened.
I sucked in a deep breath, closing my eyes softly, a serene feeling taking over my body. Breathing out slowly, I outstretched my arms, letting myself slip over the edge and down into the deep and dark oceanic abyss that would quickly take my last breath away from me forever.
Goodbye, my world. Goodbye, my Kae, I love you, forever.