Sometimes I like to watch her, her inner struggle taking over her face and she frowns slightly. I like to see her face not so perfect, I enjoy her that way. No one knows my feelings for her, my secret obsession, my lust. I hide it well and I should, if she knew we would never be the same. And so I sit, a small distance between us, staring. She's chatting, something random. Something less important then our mission, and I think one day I'll tell her how I feel, I'll confess my love before our time here is over. My last words screaming at the top of my lungs, without fear, without holding back I love you. I dream of that day, I long for it, long for the courage to admit it. I see the others, comfortable in their feelings, honest to the debt. I wish I could be like that. I wish I could face my inner conflict take her hand look into her eyes and say it. She's looking at me now and I change my view, glancing out the window at the freedom of the clouds. Freedom, a luxury we don't know now. A luxury I cling to as an excuse preventing me from jumping into my feelings. A blessing and a curse.
They're calling me now, dragging me willingly from my thoughts, she's smiling at me, honest and pure, and unaware what her smile does to me. She asks me to walk with her, she doesn't live far but she enjoys my company and when we talk it's never dreary. I nod, I'd go any where with her, and I fear I will. She entwines her arm with mine, a friendly gesture that sends me to another world. We walk, she's chatting about our friends and I listen to the sweet sound of her voice with ease. She stops strangely; she's looking at me, our arms no longer connected. I look her over, my eyes meeting hers; she takes my hand and holds it gently. 'We're getting closer to fighting our last battle.' She says to me, her eyes are dancing with tears. 'I don't' want to leave this world without telling you this.' My heart grows so much it won't fit into my chest. 'I love you.' She says and her soft lips brush mine. My mind goes blank and I'm sure I'm living another one of my dreams. I shake my head shock and joy mixing into my body. 'I love you too.' I manage taking her into my arms. We walk closer together now, our hands locked, unaware of anything in this world but our love, us.