I look around and I see a bunch of red faces with tears streaming down. Why are they crying? They barely knew them, I for one, should be the one crying. But I won't let myself, not in front of them. It takes me everything that I have inside to hold back the tears that are threatening to spill. I look everywhere except for the coffins, but I couldn't stop myself, staring at it. I try to forget where I am; I try to forget everyone around me. But, it proves harder than what I can handle. I just can't forget. No matter how hard I try, there's always something that brings me back to where I am. The funeral.
After the horrible, long, and exhausting service, I just wanted to go home. Go lie down on my queen size bed and just let everything go. Let all the tears I've been holding back spill. To just be alone. But I couldn't leave, it would seem rude. These people took time out of their day to come here, so I have to stay. Since I have no choice but to stay, I do my best to avoid everyone. I can't talk to them, it's too much effort.
"Hermione, how are you?"
"I'm fine, thank you"
I don't know how many times I had to say those lines. So many people who came up and asked how I was. And I always respond with I'm fine, thank you. When they ask you how you're doing, they don't really want to know how you're really doing. They just ask you because it's the right thing to do; it's the part of our human nature, to ask someone how they are at the sad moment of their lives. So it went on like this, everybody asking how I am, and I always respond with I'm fine.
It feels like it's been eternity when I finally hear the words I've been waiting for all day.
"Hermione, it's over, you can go home now."
"Okay, thank you Ginny."
"Mione, you okay?"
"I'm fine Harry."
"You don't have to be, it's okay to be sad, especially after what you've been through."
"I said I'm fine, I'm tired and I just want to be alone. I'll see you guys tomorrow."
The last thing I saw before I flashed away was two pairs of sad eyes looking at me.
The moment I arrived at my flat, I went straight for my bed, I didn't even bother to change. I've been waiting for this moment all day, and it's finally here. My body hit my mattress and in that moment, everything that I've been holding back came out. Every raw emotion just came pouring out, hard and fast.