Darren Criss had always been gifted. He had wonderful parents, music flowed from his fingers like magic, he had amazing friends and he had an great character to play on a great TV show. He thought he knew knew himself. He did know himself. But, he was missing something. He didn't know what, but there was definitely something missing in his life. Darren definitely had enough money. Numerous people loved him. He missed his Starkid Productions friends. But he was still a part of them. Always would be.
"the time we have to spend apart will keep us in each other's hearts"Joey. Joey Richter. Maybe he could talk to Joey about his unknown problem. He called Joey on his Iphone at 8:03 . He waited... Waited... Waited... Joey's mom picked up.
"Oh, hey Mama Richter, is Joey there?" Darren asked politely. The hot sun of Las Angeles was beating down on his overly-gelled head.
"Hello, Darren. Sorry, Dare, he isn't. He's out with Dylan and Joe. I'll get him to call when he's back. It's nice to hear from you, Darren. You're doing so well!" She said. Darren could feel her warm smile through the phone.
"Okay, great. Thank you, I miss you guys so much. I have to go. Get Joey to call me later." Darren said shortly.
"Okay, bye, Darren. I love you. Have fun on TV" she giggled. Darren said goodbye and hung up. He cursed under bis breath.
A typical day at Glee began at 5 AM and lasted about 16 hours. Today was no different. Except today he and Chris were shooting a kissing scene. Darren had hated kissing scenes ever since The First Time. The first scene with him was fine, it was adorably fluffy. But the second, he had to talk about masturbating. And ripping off clothes. And having sex. He even had to moan into a kiss. The kiss on the stage? Hell, that was totally awkward because he tried to cry but couldn't. Then he had to kiss Chris. Again. He was so short compared to Chris! It was almost embarrassing for him. During the sex scene, he go a boner. Try explaining that to your crew, costar and director. It was supposed to be cute, adorable, fluffy sex. Not hot and thrusty at all. Chris just laughed through the awkwardness of the strange moment.
Because Chris still hadn't forgiven Darren for the Dublin Kiss, he figured it was karma. But Chris was just as embarrassed as Darren. For the sex scene was supposed to be kind, sweet, heart melting. Not like it would be later in their fandom's dirty mind. Chris would never willingly admit it, but he was still a virgin. His loving parents knew he was, but none of his co-stars did. In The First Time, he felt like he was losing hi virginity. Especially with Darren's erection and all.
They were shooting the kiss at nine o'clock and it was 9:27. It didn't normally take this long but Darren kept messing it up. In Darren's mind, he was giving it his all, being sexy. According to Ryan Murphy, Darren looked like a crocodile. "Darren, don't eat Chris. He is not a burrito. And Chris, Kiss back!" he yelled.
"But Kurt is caught by surprise." Chris reasoned.
Ryan rolled his eyes. "Look, I don't care if you're in the shower or on a cliff, Kurt is going to kiss his boyfriend back. You do the same!" he said lazily. Ryan sighed a deep sigh. "Take 23," he shouted.
Chris thought for a second. Was Ryan implying that he and Darren were dating? Chris never thought of Darren as anything more than a best friend. But come to think of it, Darren had become uncomfortable around Chris. Ever since the start of the Glee Tour. He thought that since Darren was a regular, he was taking his work more seriously. According to Chris, he and Darren were just the best of friends. Chris thought Darren felt the same way.
"How could you? You kissed him!" Chris yelled, being Kurt.
"I didn't kiss him! He kissed me!" Darren yelled, being Blaine.
"I saw you two. You kissed back." Chris paced the floor.
"No I didn't! You saw things wrong! Sebastian means nothing to me!" Darren grabbed Chris's shoulders, making them look at each other.
Chris tore from Darren and looked in the full-body mirror. "The fact is, Blaine, I just don't feel as close as we used to." he looked down into Darren's hazel eyes. "I mean.. before you met Sebastian."
When everyone was taking a break and a scene as taking a long time, the other costars would come sit down, read their lines and watch. Lea, Diana, Cory, Naya and Chord came to watch.
"Is this close enough for you?" Darren pulled Chris from the waste into a deep kiss, tongue and all. Chris brought his had up to Darren's face, feeling Darren's gelled hair.
"Cut" yelled Ryan.
The kiss lasted three seconds after he yelled cut.
Three seconds.
The five guest's mouth's dropped. Lea was the most surprised. She'd have something to bug them about later.
Chris and Darren broke away. Darren tried to hide his proud smirk and Chris tried not to smile. He smiled when he was nervous or embarrassed.
"Take five. No, make it ten. You guys will turn it into ten if I give you five so I'm giving you ten. Break!" Ryan shouted.
Chris walked off the set. He ran to his trailer. He kinda wanted to cry. He was so confused. What as that, anyway? Caught in the acting? Or was it he and Darren's true colours coming out? He texted Lea.
Chris: Lea, I'm warning you. You have a very bad habit of tweeting more than you should. If you say anything about this I am getting a restraining order on you! And I'm unfollowing you!Lea: Don't worry, Chris. This is important and private. I know better. The sexy kiss is safe with me ;-)
Chris rolled his eyes at the text. Seriously. I will hunt you down, Michele.
Lea chuckled. Go ahead, Colfer. :-)Chris drank water and took a minute to feed his sea monkeys. Darren came in. "Hey, Chris, can we talk?" he asked. He looked so gleeful. He was beaming.
"Not now." said Chris. Darren looked confused. "I have to feed my sea monkeys! And I promised to do questions and answers on twitter. " Chris grabbed his IPhone and sat down. "God, I hate these jeans! They're way too tight! I can barely walk and breath" he complained.
Darren glanced at Chris's butt. "I think they look great." Darren said. Chris looked at Darren, almost in disgust. "Hey, I forgot my phone at home, can I use yours for a second?" Darren asked.
"Sure, go ahead." Chris handed him the phone. "The pass word is 3211." he said.
"any particular reason?" Darren asked.
"It all adds up to seven. The magic number. Did you know that if you put 7 evens on top of each other you get a lightening bolt?" Chris said logically.
"Yup, you'd be a Ravenclaw. You're so smart, all those numbers." Darren smiled. He went onto Twitter.
"I know, right. I'm Cho-Chang, Y'all. You'd be a Hufflepuff. You don't really hate. You always FIND the way out of mazes. The only time I've seen you lose it is when you were on Potions Master. You were either drunk, really irritable or it was a skit" Chris said honestly. He sipped a can of diet coke. "Oh, by the way, how's Mia?" Chris asked.
"She -uh- she's good." Chris could tell something was on Darren's mind.
"I won't tell her about the kiss. I don't want anyone knowing about it." Chris said.
"Thats what I wanted to talk to you about." Darren said.
"What do you mean? Can I have my phone back?" Chris asked. He was slightly confused. He went on twitter and saw that Darren had said "DarrenCriss 's in my trailer! Time to ppaarrttyyy" Chris rolled his eyes. "Darren!" he squealed. He didn't even bother changing the password.
Darren smirked. "Hey, you learned. Anyways, how old were you when you found out you were gay?" Darren asked.
Chris furrowed his eyeborows. "I, uh, I was 15 when I came out to my parents, but I was bullied in school for being gay and my high voice practically all my life." he said. He answered some questions to his eager fans.
"how did you know you were – er are?" Darren asked.
"I think I was about 13 when I realized I wasn't like the other boys in my school. I had a crush on this guy named Paul." Chris said. "Why are you asking me all these questions?" Chris said. He was really confused.
"I.. I don't know. I'm having trouble finding myself." Darren aid quietly.
"Well.. lets go before we Kurt moves to New York and Blaine dies." said Chris shortly.
He stepped outside the trailer in front of Darren. Darren put on his pink sunglasses and shamelessly stared at Chris's ass. His ass in those tight jeans, oh. Super hot.
They moved on to a choir room scene. Chris and Darren sat next to each other, holding hands. Darren looked lovingly at Chris, and vice versa. Lea sang a song with Cory on the drums. It was a love song. Darren made definite eye contact with Chris. Darren eyes, not Blaine eyes.
After work, Chris and Darren went to Darren's for a bit. They had some tea, watched 'The Voice' and got their dork on in the living room. Talking and talking about Harry Potter, Starkid's new musical 'Holy Musical BMan'. Suddenly, Darren got a look on his face that Chris couldn't read. "You know how earlier you said you don't know who you are anymore?" Chris asked. Darren nodded. "Well, I'll tell you who you are. You are a talented man who has a degree in acting, you can play the guitar, piano, violin, mandolin,"
"And the harmonica" Darren boasted.
"That doesn't count. Anyone can play that." Chris smiled. "You have millions of fans. But you're not just Darren Criss. You're Toby Phillips, Harry Freakin' Potter, Blaine Anderson. You are this amazing person and everyone loves you. Even Kermit The Frog loves you. I think you could give Miss Piggie a run for her money. And you were on Broadway." Chris giggled awkwardly. Darren sat there emotionless. "I.. I should go. See you tomorrow, Dare." Chris smiled.
"Bye, Chris. See you in the morning." Darren walked Chris to the door. Chris went downstairs, into his car and drove home. What did he do? Did he just make working with his co-star awkward? Was he leading Darren on? No. No. Just, no. Darren was straight. They were just playing. Darren felt lost, and it's Chris's job to help Darren find himself. That's what good friends do, right?
When Chris got home, he didn't even bother taking a shower. He just got undressed and went straight to bed. Was he getting feelings for Darren? Was Darren getting feeling for Chris? He was very confused. He walked int the door at 11 and didn't fall asleep till 1:30. Extra coffee in the morning.
When Chris got to work, Lea was waiting for him with coffee in her hand. One for Chris, one for herself. Darren was awake and ready to act and sing.
"I heard you went to Darren's last night." Lea had a disproving look on her face.
"Yes, and?" Chris said. He was still very tired.
"What happened? You know it's not a good idea to get into relationships with co-stars or colleges." Lea said. She tapped her foot impatiently.
"Nothing happened! Darren is straight! We were just talking and being dorky nerds! Lay off!" Chris said.
"Drink more coffee. You need it. Chris, I'm telling you. It's not a good idea." Lea demanded.
"Oh, the same way you kinda slept with Cory and sorta – kinda – really – made out with Diana?" Chris shot at her.
"You know very well that those are only half true. Rachel slept with Finn. I kissed Diana. While I was drunk." Lea rolled her eyes.
"Whatever." Chris sipped his coffee. "It needs more cream." he sighed.
Darren walked up to Chris. It seemed that Darren had a few too many coffees. "Hi Chris!" he said eagerly.
"Oh my god." Chris rolled his eyes and got another cup of coffee.
"What's the matter? Is my awesomeness too much for you?" Darren said. He put his pink sunnies on.
"No. It's not that. I didn't get much sleep last night." Chris groaned.
"You were up late too?" Darren asked. He walked next to Chris. They picked up their script's and began reading them.
"Yeah. I'm don't understand anything." Chris skimmed through the book of lines. "Oh, look. Another kissing scene. It seems like it's just a peck."
"I don't either, I mean, you just randomly went home." Darren said. He picked up a cup of coffee and sipped it.
"Darren. That was my cup." Chris said in a mono tone. Darren blushed. "Oh well. Darren, I went home because I felt like I overstayed my welcome." Chris said. He read through his scenes and highlighted his lines. He took a gulp of the Darren – Sipped coffee.
Darren did the same. "Chris, you could never do that at my place." He said romantically.
Chris sighed. He didn't know what to say. What was he doing? Darren was a really good friend. A friend. "A friend." Chris said quietly.
Darren looked confused. "Huh?" he said. What the hell was Chris talking about.
"Oh, was that out loud?" Darren nodded. "Well, you're my friend. My good friend. We see each other every day, I don't see why I went over yo your apartment last night." Chris said coldly. He made up a story.
"Because you're my good friend. It's like.. students see their friends outside of school." Darren said.
"Yes, but school isn't 16 hours long." Chris snapped. Darren was silent. "I'm sorry. I guess I'm still really tired. Lets go through our lines." Chris suggested.
"No. Let me get you some coffee. I'm about to get myself some anyway." Darren said. He shrugged his shoulders.
"Okay, you don't need anymore coffee, Mister." Chris said. He sat, read his lines and waited for Darren to bring him coffee.
Darren came back. Chris looked like an entirely different person. He looked a bit happier. "Here's the coffee, Mr. Colfer." Darren smiled brightly.
"Thanks. Lets go over our lines." Chris said.
"Which scene?" Darren asked.
"Act three, part 6, beginning with 'Look, I'm sorry.' Ready?" Chris said.
"Yup, you first. The line is yours. Lets, chair – act." Darren suggested.
"Okay." Chris cleared his voice. "Look, I'm sorry, Blaine. I know you loathe Sebastian almost as much as I do. I know he initiated the kiss. But.. Why did you kiss back?" Chris said. He didn't make eye contact with Darren.
"Kurt, how many times do I have to tell you, I didn't kiss back?" Darren said a bit loudly.
"You keep saying that, but I don't really see it. I saw you."
"Kurt, let's not fight anymore. If I did kiss back, I'm sorry. I didn't mean it. I only want to be with you." Darren and Chris looked each other in the eyes. They leaned forward and kissed. More than a peck.
"Whoa!" said Chris when the kiss ended. Mia walked in just in time to see the kiss.
"H..Hey Dare!" she smiled. She gave Darren a peck.
"Hey, Mia. What are you doing here?" Darren said as if the kiss between he and Chris never happened.
"I just stopped by to see how you're doing. Or who, is a better question." She said a bit rudely.
"Oh, we're just going over our lines." Chris said. "See?" he tried to make sure Darren wasn't in trouble.
"I see.. but it says a peck. That didn't look like a peck. That lasted about three seconds." She glared at Chris, then smiled at Darren.
Darren stood up. "Sorry Scene, Chris, Darren!" yelled Brad.
"C'mon, Chris. Let's do this." said Darren eagerly. He gave Mia a kiss goodbye. Chris could tell Darren didn't really want to give Mia the kiss.
They filmed the scene. It was almost perfect on the first shot. They kissed. They kissed again. Brad made them kiss so many times it was almost porn. "Aaanndd cut! Perfect, guys. Lets go through the big music number."
After doing the music number, it was time to film the next episode. It was a busy day. They finished at around nine - nine thirty. By the time Chris got home, he was beat. Darren called him up. Chris decided not to answer. Then Darren texted him. Again, he ignored it.
Darren was confused. Why wasn't Chris answering? He began to make excuses for Chris. The phone was dead, the cell was off. Easy. Finally, Joey called back. Darren picked up, his voice cracked.
"Hey, man." Joey said excitedly.
"Hi." Darren said in a tired voice.
"What time is it there?" Joey felt bad.
"um.. ten to eleven." Darren said.
"Shit, dude, I should have called sooner. I'm sorry, man." Joey said.
"Naw man, it's fine. What's up?"
"I believe you're the one who asked me to call." "Oh.. Right.. I fixed that." "what was the matter?" "I'm kinda lost. I don't know anything anymore. I think I need help." "I have no clue." "Well.. Go to sleep. If you're still confused when you wake, come see me on the weekend. Only one more day." "Bye, Richter." "Bye Criss."
"What is troubling you?"
He woke up an hour late. Drove to 'GLEE' as fast as he could. He quickly got his hair gelled, got into purple pants, a black tucked in top and a pink and purple bow tie. They smoothed out his skin tone and applied a little bit of guy-liner. He let out a deep sigh and drank his coffee. It would feel like a llooonnnggg time till the weekend.