Life after Billy

You are my sunshine

AN: HEY GUYS THIS CHAPTER MY BE UPSETTING AS THERE IS A DEATH JUST A WARNING, THE STORY WILL GET LESS SADDENING IN THE NEXT CHAPTERS. HOPE YOU ENJOY.

"This is going to be the best day of your life bud" the short brunette says as she lays beside the small blonde pug that had been curled up beside her, his ears perked up at his name, looking into his owners dark blue eyes the best he could, she leans in and kisses the top of his head as she raises her hand to scratch behind his ear, "I love you bud"

Beca moved of the big queen bed as she gently picks up the small dog, he lets his head fall under her chin, this had been the usual routine for the two of them, it all started two months ago when Billy had slowly started to deteriorate, first he had stopped wanting to play as much, losing interest or just tiring out faster than usual, Beca just assumed that it was because Billy was just getting upset about the new move to the apartment, you see Beca and Billy had moved into a new bigger apartment so Beca's girlfriend Alice could move in, to this Alice was happy.

The next thing that started to worry Beca was when one day Billy had struggled to walk small distances, that's when she took her old companion to the vet, Billy was old, 15 years 2 months 1 week and 2 days old, Beca and Billy had grew up together, Billy being her only friend throughout her years.

"Now what should we eat for breakfast aye bud?" She placed the small dog onto the small little bed she had sitting on the counter, Alice wasn't exactly a fan of Billy and once Beca had been spending so much time with the dog she threw a fit and the bed was the cause of it all, The small brunette had been going through the cupboards as a thought came to mind, Billy loved to steal her pancakes and strawberries every time she had them, so at that thought Beca got to work, making sure to give Billy all the attention he deserves.

Once Beca had placed the last fluffy pancake onto the plate between her and Billy she heard the front door unlock and reveal a tall black haired woman with dull green eyes, sporting dark bags under them, Beca smiles over to her girlfriend,

"Hey Al how was study?" She questions as she cuts up some strawberries and pours syrup over the pancakes, she knew her girlfriend was tired she had been studying for a big test for the next day, you see Alice was a law student, which means this Big test was one that could change her life, she smiles as she walked towards Beca and Billy not really noticing the dogs presence, leaning down she gives Beca a soft kiss,

"Good babe really tired though I think I'm going to head to b-" she was cut off by Billy, tail wagging weakly he had let out a soft bark, trying to grab the attention of the other woman he had adored, she rolled her eyes and looked at Beca annoyed before looking back at Billy she plastered on a fake tense smiles as she patted the dog gently knowing not to be a bitch to him on this day especially, and with that she was gone,

"Come on bud eat up we have a big day ahead of us" the small pug barked quietly in response as he started to slowly dig into his small stack of sugary goodness.

After breakfast Beca had gotten dressed in some tight ripped grey skinny jeans and a blue and black flannel shirt, applying her usual over load of eyeliner the two were off, Beca making sure she had everything they needed for the day.

When they had arrived at the beach, it wasn't any beach, it was the dog beach that Billy had once loved to just run about and swim with the other dogs, with Billy in her arms she could see the excitement in her old friend, tail wagging more than usual these days and his breathing became more louder, erratic, his excitement was radiating, it but a smile onto Beca's face, as she tried to fight back the tears, she laughed at him as she scratched the top of his head, she makes her way down onto the sand, placing a towel onto the hot sand she places Billy down before she takes a seat behind him, letting her legs stretch out to either side of him, the small brunette wasn't one for the beach but once Billy had caught sight of it all those years ago she couldn't bare to take that away from him, it made him happy, filled his little world with more enjoyment than any other place Beca could have ever taken him.

She looks down at Billy as he slowly rolls over onto his back looking at Beca a smile plastered into his small Pug face, she laughs as she scratched his belly with both hands, making him wag his tail and scratch his leg slowly at the feeling, Beca loved these moments with Billy the ones where he wasn't in so much pain, where the drugs have helped him enjoy what little parts of the day he could.

After a while of them just laying around on the sand Beca looks to the water and back at her small fury friend, he too was looking at the water, a content look on his small face,

"You wanna go into the water Billy?" She asked him, he looked back and she could swear that he had nodded back at her, she smiles and shakes her head scooping him up after she strips down into her black bikini, realizing it wasn't the smartest idea to of worn skinny jeans, they made their way into the water, and even though the water was cold and made the Brunette squeal quietly she shook her head and pushed through it, this was Billy's day, this was something he loved.

Once Beca had gotten about knee deep she kneeled down and held Billy by his little neon yellow life jacket she had purchased for him a few weeks back, he had floated in the water, tail wagging slightly as he seemed to be enjoying he cold water against his aching body, It must give him some relief Beca thought as she patted his head, splashing him gently as he barked at her, the two had played around as much as they could before Billy had started to get tired, once out of the water and dried of the two were back into the car and Beca's only regret was wearing those stupid skinny jeans.

Their next stop was to a small burger place that was directly across from Billy's second favorite place to be, the park, a small park at that but it seemed to be one of the Pugs favorite places, he spent many hours of his life playing, fetching, barking and making new friends here, and the best part was he did it with his best friend Beca, once Beca got her burger and a little bowl of water for Billy they say down on a small blanket the brunette had laid down for the two of them, Billy had practically crawled into the small girls lap as she started to unwrap the burger, unknown to Billy that this was a burger just for him on his day, this was Billy's day after all.

Pulling the burger apart so the small dog could eat it Beca lightly sung their song as she feeds her old friend,

"You are my sunshine, my only sunshine

You make me happy when skies are gray

You'll never know dear, how much I love you

Please don't take my sunshine away" her voice wavers as she tries to fight back the tears pooling in her eyes, she knows this day was coming but she just didn't want it to happen, it was something Billy needed, she hated knowing, seeing, hearing that her best friend was in pain, she feels a nudge at her knee, looking down the old pug was looking at her, he always seemed to sense when Beca was upset and for that she was grateful to have him in her life, she scratches behind his ear, knowing that was his sweet spot, his tail started and so did his foot as she kept scratching behind his ear, a big smile made its way across her face, she was going to miss this little guy.

Here they were, sitting in the cold waiting room, waiting for the worst ending to a great day, Billy had been wagging his tail as he lays on his back, letting the cold tiles soothe his aching body, Beca had been watching small smile on her face, she scratched at his belly and he turned to lick her hand, smile plastered on his face, but Beca could see him struggling, he had whimpered a lot today, even more than usual, it had been getting worse but today it was worse than usual and Beca's heart had broken at ever cry the dog had let loose, she knew this was the right decision even though she knew it would break her, it had to be done, Billy shouldn't have to live in pain because Beca can't let go, it wouldn't be right.

Five minutes had past as the two say on the cold hard floor, Billy had crawled into her lap, as in he gave her the puppy dog eyes and she had happily moved him into her lap, eyes threatening to leak the tears she had been holding back, he had fallen asleep, his small snores echoing through the empty room, it was 08:27pm, and Beca was dreading the last few minutes, she had tried to enjoy these last minutes with him, memorizing every inch of Billy, this little pug had been able to squirm his way into her life since day one and at the age of 21 Beca and Billy had still been together, Beca was only 6 and from that day Billy had been her only friend and she was so thankful to have this little guy with her.

"Billy Mitchell" the red headed Vet calls, if Beca wasn't so focused on Billy she might have noticed how beautiful the vets eyes actually were, those baby blue eyes were shinning, taking in the eyeliner and flannel as Beca came into sight, but instead Beca had sighed sadly before she gently picked Billy up,

"Come on buddy it's time" she whispers into his ear as he held him tight, the blond pug licks the side of her face gently and slowly, he was struggling, she could see it, feel it, she knew this was the right thing, a single tear slides down her face and she curses at herself as she tried so hard to keep it all in In front of Billy, she didn't want him to worry, just wanted him to enjoy this day, he licked her tear as he looked up at her, his eyes sparkled he was in pain but was still so happy to see the small brunette.

Beca slowly placed him down but then decided to get onto the bench with him, ignoring the small protest from the vet, Dr Beale, her name tag read, placed a comforting hand on Beca's shoulder, she said something but Beca was to focused on Billy he was looking directly at her tiredly, he knew it was time, he licked her hand, letting his head rest against her hand, looking at her, and at this action Beca couldn't help the tears, pulling him in close as he curls into her just like this morning, she places her head to his, scratching the sweet spot behind his ear, he pushed against her head like he usually does, he seemed to always know to comfort the woman,

"You're a good boy Billy such a good boy" she says, trying to keep her voice even, Dr Beale touched her shoulder again making Beca look up into her blue eyes,

"It's time Beca I'm so sorry" the brunette could see the tears in the other woman's eyes but ignored them looking back to her little friend kissing his head,

"Just give me a second please" she pleads as she stares at Billy, a small smile was on his face, "I'm gonna miss you Billy" she scratched his sides as he rolled over, letting a small whimper leave his small body, "i don't know who else I'm going to run a muck with, who's going to wrestle me now hmm?" He barks tiredly at her she laughs and pats his head gently, letting her hand fall to cup his tiny face, "you've been a good boy bud I'm so happy we found each other" she runs her hands up and down his body gently, softly, they were now starring into each other's eyes, his deep brown to her dark blue, "who's a good boy Billy who's a good boy" she watches him wag his tail lazily "you're a good boy you're a good boy Billy" she looks over the the vet and nods it was time they all knew it, "I love you Billy thank you so much" she scratches his ears before she kisses his nose and continues, before the redhead did her thing, "You are my sunshine, my only sunshine

You make me happy when skies are gray" her voice breaks as she watches him close his eyes, relaxing,

"You'll never know dear, how much I love you

Please don't take my sunshine away" Beca wipes her tears away as she felt Billy's final breath against her face, a sob breaks through as she clutched to his lifeless body, "I'm so sorry Billy I love you so so much you're in a better place" she sobbed, feeling the redhead behind her, she starts to lean into the woman as she wrapped an arm around the small brunette.

She had whispered into the woman's ear comforting her as they sat up on the table with the brunette as she sobbed.

A few minutes had passed before Beca was able to contain her sobs into small hiccups as she stood helping Dr Beale to her feet, she smiled sadly at the red head as she looked over to Billy, running her hand through his short blonde hair, a small watery smile makes its way into her face, looking up to the redhead her eyes catching the others,

"I know his in a better place now" she breaks contact and looks to Billy once again, tears back onto her eyes, "his just always been there you know? It's hard to let go" she says trying to be strong, they both smile at the other, and after Beca signs a few forms and requests for imprints of Billy's small little paws Beca was on her way home, heart broken and without Billy by her side.