Maristela Freesia's 100 Theme Challenge, Theme 5: Break Away. Read! Review! Enjoy!
I need to break away from it all. Leave, let it run its course, anything; as long as I'm not there.
When I was chosen, I didn't really think I stood any chance. Then when I got there and discovered the secret weapon, I figured, well, maybe. I turned the thing that they used to keep us in their grasp into a weapon to defy them. And they did not like it. They fought back. My family was all killed shortly after my return home in an "accident." Don't you think I believe any of it, though. I wish I could forget them, but that's impossible. I wish I could just break away from it all, but that can't happen. Too late for any regrets I may have. Too late to turn back. Too late to break away, too late to leave; I chose to stay when I didn't take my own life in the Hunger Games. I chose this path and now I have to stay on it.
If only I could leave... then something might get better. I'd never come back; my shell is empty, I've used up all the emotion and power and will that I have. And now I am empty. So I have to break away, you see? But maybe after I do I'll just come back; come back to where it's just so wonderfully empty. Then I wouldn't feel any pain of death. It doesn't matter. I don't know what would happen. But for now I just want to, need to, break away.
I won the 50th Hunger Games. The Capitol took my entire family from me. They placed images and nightmares into my mind that I'll never be able to ignore. And the only thing that I still live for in this life is to die, to leave, to break away from it all.
But it always comes back.