Yaki ni Naru (To Become Desperate)
By Angelis Raye Kamura
Chapter 1: Seijutsusa (Honestly)
Sakusha ni memo:
Otherwise known as "author's note". Yes, while trying to learn Japanese, I need to use it as much as possible to have it become one with my brain!! I got the songs 'Rakuen Fanatic', 'Kodou Whenever', 'Devil & Angel', 'Yashashii gogo', "Hajimari no Hi', 'Freedert', and 'Ice & Snow' all from D N Angel!! Yea!! So therefore, I desided to take a quick break from my other fics and got board one night and started writting! This is the first chapter and it ment to go a while, so please incurage me to finish it!! Please, also give me reviews for 'Devil And Angel'!! I NEED to finish that!!
This first chapter is basically their feelings and what had happened the years we missed, then it goes onto their first day of school. Ths takes place about 3 years after the start of the series started. They're at the begining of their Junior year.
Satoshi no kenkai (Satoshi's POV)
I woke up one day, after a very intersting dream about myself and Daisuke, very afraid. I knew what sexual dreams ment, and I knew that it wasn't the first time I'd had them, but they still blew me out of my mind. I was about the time I usually got up anyway, so I hauled myself out of my bed to get ready to go to the first day of my junior year of High School. After showering, dressing, and other miscelanious things, I looked at my self in the mirror -- a habit I had gotten into since Daisuke told me I should worry about the way I looked more.
Now that we went to High School, we didn't have to wear any unitforms, but we had a dress code within reason. I had on a black turtleneck that was tight around my waist, a white, semi-formal, jaket, and white jeans. When I had worn the outfit for the first time, I was very self consious about the way it clung to me. Before Daisuke and I because good friends, I had always dressed in baggy clothes, many times I had never even changed out of my school uniform. But, now it was different.
Most of the time I went shopping for myself, Daisuke was always tagging along with me, always so happy and excieted. The girls think that we're a couple now, but the odd thing is that in Middle School, Daisuke had constantly denied to anyone and everyone that he had any feelings for me. Now, he'll just smile and blush when asked... even though we really aren't a couple. We were calling each other by a first-name basis now that we knew eachother longer and better.
Another new thing that had developed in the past 3 years was that my hair was now down to my waist and was oddly lighter than before. I had also noticed that Daiuske's hair was getting darker... maybe it was genetics that did that. The girls that had haunted me before were now avoiding me as much as they could. Daisuke said that it was because that girls don't like to date guys that look like they're women themselves. We both laughed at that, but I took everything down in a mental note book in my head, so that I could assess what was happening in my surroundings.
I really thought that Daiuske was dropping me clues that he loved me more that just friends, but I'm just not the kind to take chances like that. I, myself was dropping clues to how I felt about him, and I knew that he understood that he knew. Nothing was coming out of our relationship fast... I felt like we would never get anywhere at the speed we were going. I love Daisuke and I think that he loves me, but I'm really not sure if either of us will know how the other feels, unless one of us comes out and says it.
Daisuke no kenkai
Every time I look at him, he seems to grow even more beautiful... aa... how I would love just to tell him that what I feel for him is truly what he thinks. I know that he thinks that I love him more that just friends, I hang over him, always go shopping with his, and I always tell him how beautiful he is. I know that he knows I love him, but I guess that he might also think that I'm only all over him because he looks more like a girl with his long hair.... Dark loved Krad, and Krad had long hair... but, then again, Dark's a lady-killer.... I don't think that I'll ever win an argument with myself. I wish that I had the guts to tell him how I felt... I felt that unless either of us said something about it, niether of us would get anywhere fast.
Maybe I should ask Riku-san to ask Satoshi how he feels? That's a pretty good idea! I should tell Riku-san to hook the two of us up!!
But... what if Satoshi really doesn't love me more than friends... that would be totally embarassing for her and everyone else. I guess that I shouldn't.
Ya know, maybe I could ask him out on a date?
I don't think that I should... especially if he doesn't love me....
Satoshi no kenkai
Today is a special day... the mark of the 3rd year Daisuke and I have known each other. I remember the first day of 8th grade...
Flasback
'Come on! Hiwatari-kun is so hansome!'
'I know... I heard he's really smart too!'
I had over-heard some girls talk about me, but I just ignored them, trying to identify my target: Daisuke Niwa. I knew that it was him, the moment he walked in the door; it was almost like we already had a sence of eachother's presence. It looked like he had a couple friends, but he kept looking over at me and after all of us were introduced, we were assigned partners for the week, so that we could help eachother get to our classes. It was almost ironic that I had the same classes as Daisuke....
He was very hyper and helped me as much as he could. He'd acceditally called me by my first name within that very week, and had been totally embarassed when I pointed it out to him. I felt we had a connection deeper than I knew was allowed by the public and the families of our clans and if anyone found out that we were willingly being friends, who knows what would have happened then. I was glad that I did meet Daisuke... and now I'm even more than I was before because of what had happened between us these past few years.
Tsuzukeru Ni Imasu...
Thank you for reading, and I'm sorry it was so short! I'll post any chapter as soon as I have the will to type! SO, review more!!!
By Angelis Raye Kamura
Chapter 1: Seijutsusa (Honestly)
Sakusha ni memo:
Otherwise known as "author's note". Yes, while trying to learn Japanese, I need to use it as much as possible to have it become one with my brain!! I got the songs 'Rakuen Fanatic', 'Kodou Whenever', 'Devil & Angel', 'Yashashii gogo', "Hajimari no Hi', 'Freedert', and 'Ice & Snow' all from D N Angel!! Yea!! So therefore, I desided to take a quick break from my other fics and got board one night and started writting! This is the first chapter and it ment to go a while, so please incurage me to finish it!! Please, also give me reviews for 'Devil And Angel'!! I NEED to finish that!!
This first chapter is basically their feelings and what had happened the years we missed, then it goes onto their first day of school. Ths takes place about 3 years after the start of the series started. They're at the begining of their Junior year.
Satoshi no kenkai (Satoshi's POV)
I woke up one day, after a very intersting dream about myself and Daisuke, very afraid. I knew what sexual dreams ment, and I knew that it wasn't the first time I'd had them, but they still blew me out of my mind. I was about the time I usually got up anyway, so I hauled myself out of my bed to get ready to go to the first day of my junior year of High School. After showering, dressing, and other miscelanious things, I looked at my self in the mirror -- a habit I had gotten into since Daisuke told me I should worry about the way I looked more.
Now that we went to High School, we didn't have to wear any unitforms, but we had a dress code within reason. I had on a black turtleneck that was tight around my waist, a white, semi-formal, jaket, and white jeans. When I had worn the outfit for the first time, I was very self consious about the way it clung to me. Before Daisuke and I because good friends, I had always dressed in baggy clothes, many times I had never even changed out of my school uniform. But, now it was different.
Most of the time I went shopping for myself, Daisuke was always tagging along with me, always so happy and excieted. The girls think that we're a couple now, but the odd thing is that in Middle School, Daisuke had constantly denied to anyone and everyone that he had any feelings for me. Now, he'll just smile and blush when asked... even though we really aren't a couple. We were calling each other by a first-name basis now that we knew eachother longer and better.
Another new thing that had developed in the past 3 years was that my hair was now down to my waist and was oddly lighter than before. I had also noticed that Daiuske's hair was getting darker... maybe it was genetics that did that. The girls that had haunted me before were now avoiding me as much as they could. Daisuke said that it was because that girls don't like to date guys that look like they're women themselves. We both laughed at that, but I took everything down in a mental note book in my head, so that I could assess what was happening in my surroundings.
I really thought that Daiuske was dropping me clues that he loved me more that just friends, but I'm just not the kind to take chances like that. I, myself was dropping clues to how I felt about him, and I knew that he understood that he knew. Nothing was coming out of our relationship fast... I felt like we would never get anywhere at the speed we were going. I love Daisuke and I think that he loves me, but I'm really not sure if either of us will know how the other feels, unless one of us comes out and says it.
Daisuke no kenkai
Every time I look at him, he seems to grow even more beautiful... aa... how I would love just to tell him that what I feel for him is truly what he thinks. I know that he thinks that I love him more that just friends, I hang over him, always go shopping with his, and I always tell him how beautiful he is. I know that he knows I love him, but I guess that he might also think that I'm only all over him because he looks more like a girl with his long hair.... Dark loved Krad, and Krad had long hair... but, then again, Dark's a lady-killer.... I don't think that I'll ever win an argument with myself. I wish that I had the guts to tell him how I felt... I felt that unless either of us said something about it, niether of us would get anywhere fast.
Maybe I should ask Riku-san to ask Satoshi how he feels? That's a pretty good idea! I should tell Riku-san to hook the two of us up!!
But... what if Satoshi really doesn't love me more than friends... that would be totally embarassing for her and everyone else. I guess that I shouldn't.
Ya know, maybe I could ask him out on a date?
I don't think that I should... especially if he doesn't love me....
Satoshi no kenkai
Today is a special day... the mark of the 3rd year Daisuke and I have known each other. I remember the first day of 8th grade...
Flasback
'Come on! Hiwatari-kun is so hansome!'
'I know... I heard he's really smart too!'
I had over-heard some girls talk about me, but I just ignored them, trying to identify my target: Daisuke Niwa. I knew that it was him, the moment he walked in the door; it was almost like we already had a sence of eachother's presence. It looked like he had a couple friends, but he kept looking over at me and after all of us were introduced, we were assigned partners for the week, so that we could help eachother get to our classes. It was almost ironic that I had the same classes as Daisuke....
He was very hyper and helped me as much as he could. He'd acceditally called me by my first name within that very week, and had been totally embarassed when I pointed it out to him. I felt we had a connection deeper than I knew was allowed by the public and the families of our clans and if anyone found out that we were willingly being friends, who knows what would have happened then. I was glad that I did meet Daisuke... and now I'm even more than I was before because of what had happened between us these past few years.
Tsuzukeru Ni Imasu...
Thank you for reading, and I'm sorry it was so short! I'll post any chapter as soon as I have the will to type! SO, review more!!!