When I made my wedding vows I was so sure that they'd last forever but what we have now isn't a marriage, its two strangers with memories. You forgot what we promised in front of friends and family years ago, we're so far apart now that you could fit a planet between us. Tonight is one of those nights that for some reason you feel the need to keep up appearances even though the show we're putting on couldn't be any further from the truth.
The annual police ball is the one event you insist on attending with me, I don't know why, I used to think you were just here to check other women out but I don't think even you would sleep with my colleagues. I don't even care why you're here because frankly it's not you that I want.
I fell out of love with you so long ago I've forgotten what it's like to love you because my heart has belonged to someone else for almost as long as I can remember. James Hathaway, he's the one I wish I was here with because although it's secret my love for him is greater than life.
Occasionally I get small hints that he could feel the same although it could just be me reading too much into it. See even if I could break away from my loveless marriage and even if you did want me like I want you, I'm still not so sure that it'd work. You are station heartthrob and I'm a boring boss who spends more time behind a desk than I do policing.
I wish I was here on your arm, I wish I could dance with you feeling your arms around me and your lips on mine but that s all it is, a wish with no hint of reality but its what I want.