Liar. That was what I was, wasn't I? I lied to Hajime for my reasons on escaping, but he wouldn't understand. He knew not one thing about me and then again, what did I expect? He cared for no one but himself and his job. Hell, Uno told me what he had said. "If it was my job then yes, I would kill."
Liar. Liar. Liar. That was what I did. I would tell myself all these things but I knew that I was only lying to myself. These shackles that dragged me down, I despised them, but that talk with Hajime was when I realized that I lied to myself again. Why couldn't I stop?
Not to mention Elf. That guy ruined everything. If he so much as touched my friends and family—no, I had to get away. I had—need—to stay away. I couldn't keep up the lie. I practically drowned in all the lies. I never talk. That way I didn't have to worry about any lies that would fall past my lips. I didn't have to worry about hurting my friends and yet, I managed on doing so. Trying to escape and I ended up hurting Uno. I cut his cheek and it was minor but really, it could've been so much worse.
I watched them play and smile and have fun. They didn't have to deal with being a monster. They didn't know what I had to go through or how I felt. They had no idea what I was. What the shackles around my limbs signified or could do. That was until the New Years' Tournament. I was so horrified with myself after I remembered what happened. I let my anger and obsession to find that man with the scar get the best of me and I would've killed my family if it wasn't for Hajime. I didn't think I ever thanked him for that.
"Jyugo!" I felt someone shaking my shoulders and I glanced up, meeting the blue eyes that belonged to Uno. He gave me his signature grin and ruffled my hair. "You okay?"
"Of course I'm okay." Another lie. Liar. Liar. Liar. My mind chanted the same word over and over again, like a broken record. "Why?"
"Because I've been calling your name for the past five minutes, and you've been staring at the floor for a bit longer." He flicked my head. "What are you thinking of?"
I rolled my eyes, standing up. "Nothing much." I watched his eyes narrow in concern and suspicion, he knew I was lying but he didn't press on the matter. I was glad for that.
"You'll tell me when you're ready, right?" He gave me a grin and pushed me to the door. "Come on, we're heading to the game room."
That's right, I thought. Hajime told us that we could go whenever we pleased, today and today only. I let Uno drag me by my wrist.
When we arrived, they were already there. Liang, Nico, Rock, Trois, Honey, Musashi, Upa, and everyone else that were our friends. Even some guards were there. Samon, Kenshirou and Kiji. They were there to supervise us. I could tell. Upon seeing us, Nico ran over and grabbed my other hand leading over.
Tsukumo nodded to me, giving a small wave. I waved back before he returned to his conversation with Liang and Rock. They seemed like they were enjoying their time.
I watched Nico play a game, he was saying something, probably trying to tell me what to do. The thing was, I wasn't listening to a word he was saying. I just watched him and even then I barely knew what was going on. I broke out of my state and dropped my gaze, staring at the ground. I didn't know what I was doing, then again, I never did. I would just zone out and stare at something or someone without noticing until someone or I do something to break out.
"Jyugo?" Nico's innocent filled voice broke me out of my thoughts.
"Huh?" I glanced at him tilting my head as I waited for him to speak.
"Are you alright? You seem paler than usual."
I gave him a smile and ruffled his hair. "I'm fine." I wasn't fine and I just kept lying. I didn't want them to worry or figure anything out. Too many questions would be asked and I knew I wouldn't be able to answer them since I barely understand my own life.
"Are you sure?" He seemed really concerned but I only turned away and walked out of the room, ignoring the looks I was receiving. I just needed to be alone. I willingly went back to cell thirteen, seeing as I wasn't in any mood to do anything.
I kept solving the Rubix Cube, so it got boring to do and I was left staring at the ceiling. "Liar," I muttered to myself. I heard footsteps approach the cell but I didn't look, thinking it was the guards or my friends.
"Specimen fifteen." That voice. Oh how I hated that voice. I scrambled to my feet and looked at the blond male. His green gaze that showed a weird glint as he grinned, showing off his sharp and jagged teeth. I blinked and he was gone.
With wide eyes, I scanned the room in case of he got in but he didn't. Elf. That man was going to pay and I was going to be the one forcing him to. He helped that man with the red scar and I was not going to let him get away with what they both did to me. I laid down again and sighed, closing my eyes.
Just lie. No matter what, lie to keep them safe. That was all I needed to do. As much as it pained me, I was going to lie. Elf was never going to hurt my friends. As long as I was here. Liar.
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