I just got braces on, and my mouth is throbbing so I can't sleep. This means it's time to write a one-shot to clear my head. Ugh, I HATE BRACES!
Disclaimer: I would be out having a nice cop of tea with the best Brit ever, Mr. Ryan Cartwright!
I had wanted to say so much in that car. When Sandra walked up to me with Gary, I just wanted to grab her and kiss her right there. Unfortunately that was considered unprofessional, and it was against the rules to be involved with the parent of a co-worker. Can't Gary just quit? No, this is too good of an experience for Sandra or I to let him quit. Gary needs this and we both know it, even if we want to be selfish. The relationship had started off innocent, a way for her to pay me back for taking care of her son, but it ended with a bang.
I know how cliché this will sound, but we fell in love. There's not much more to it than that, love is all a person needs to make it through. We knew it couldn't last, towards the end of it the relationship was toxic, no matter how hard we tried. Heck, we were acting like stupid teenagers that fell in love over the summer, only to go back to school. Or back to reality, in our case. I hate that we can't be together, sometimes I hate looking Gary in the face. Whenever I see him all I can think is 'You're the reason I'm not happy.' and I know how wrong that is, it's not Gary's fault. But I just can't help it, not with everything that's been happening. Red Flag is getting stronger by the day, my love life is in the tank, and I feel like I'm babysitting my team.
It's not that I don't like them, I do most of the time, it's just when I really get thinking I can't help but to resent them. Not just Gary, but all of them. I try not to think of them has Alphas and me has Normal, but I can't stop those thoughts from slipping into my head. All I ever hear is them complaining about how hard it is to have those powers, but I would give anything to be like them. To see what they see would be amazing, it's a huge step in evolution that they are lucky to be a part of. What I wouldn't give to be behind this...this veil of normalcy. I want to be an Alpha, I want to be a part of the next step, I want to keep up with my team, and I don't want to be left behind.
But most of all, I want my Sandra back to myself.
I don't know how many will get this reference but I see Rosen viewing the Alphas like Petunia viewed Lily in Harry Potter. It's not that he doesn't like them, it's just that he's jealous. Not on the same scale that Petunia was, but similar.
You know the drill R&R!