a/n: okay, so this is just a random drabble coming to my mind in fourth period Enviornmental Science :D so, yeah. it's a nikki x josh, yay :) i kinda love that pairing, because Josh Hotz is amazing and Nikki Dalton is too cool for shoes :) yeah, okay, i'll be done ranting.

for my lovelies: americka, allie, ronnie, leesh, tash, lisa, & tess :)

disclaimer: nope don't own it, disclaimed.

[she'll] n e v er be yours
by smilez014

-:-

She walks into the room
Suddenly, your heart beats at rapid speed.

She smiles at her friends and runs a hand through her hair. She sits three seats in front of you, you can't help but notice she's wearing a new dress. She livens up the dreary room just by laughing at some ridiculous comment someone made. Everyone is intrigued.

Why was this so difficult?

So hard to explain?

Basically, you just it had bad for Nikki Dalton.

She was the spectrum of color in your rainbow,
the sun shine after the rain storm,
the smile that crept between every word of a joke,
the freaking joy to the your freaking world.

But, she doesn't even know.

Your voice never seems to work when she's around,
it's all just a bundle of mind-farts and gibberish.

( "I like your... your face it goes perfectly with your eyes that remind me of oranges... because they're so round"
she replies, "uh huh" and awkwardly looks away)

why would you even bother wasting her time?
you weren't exactly man enough for her.

But, you couldn't help but like her. A lot.

He was man enough for her though, Chris Plovert with his sandy hair, cute boyish smile, and great pick up lines.
Every girl fell for him, Nikki included.

So it was no surprise when you see them together, fingers entwined.
s m i l e s
- on their faces

But, you get hurt. No matter what you do. No matter how much you want it not to. It just does.

you stare with envy as Chris Plovert gets to carry her bags
as he gets to wrap an arm around her fragile figure.

You hurt in ways you can't imagine.

But, it's not like she notices. It's not like anyone else does.

did you really want the world to pity you?
(it's not like you deserved it)

you lost
t

h

e

girl.

and still...

you watch her during lunch, she's eating a sandwhich and she looks like a true artist as she chews each bite of bread. Bits of hair fall down her face, and she gently pushes it back, still chewing her sandwhich. She was beautiful, in every way possible. From the roots of her hair to the nail polish on her toes. She was just amazing and it sometimes kills you to see her, and know she'll

never be yours.

an: ohhh, the agony, that was like just random nonsense put together. o.O