The Music In Us Chapter 1, a glee fanfic

Hi everyone welcome to my first ever Glee Fanfiction story (so please enjoy and be kind). First of all everything belongs to Ryan Murphy and Fox except some new characters that we will meet later. Anyway I'm a long time fan fiction reader and as I said before first time story submitter (is that a word? well it is now). This story is in remembrance of my favourite character on Glee, the one and only (remember that RIB & Glee) Finn Hudson. A brief introduction is that I didn't like how in most stories Finn's career is always non existent compared to Rachels or other characters or when people said Finn wasn't smart or good enough to get out of Lima. Well this story is basically my view of Finn learning that he is good enough and he's journey into the man that Rachel and all of us know when is & can be. So enough with me blabbering on, jus a FYI the first chapter features little to no Rachel but rest assured she will feature and be a huge part of this story. So please enjoy the story and review kindly and let me know if you want me to continue, thanks...

Lima, Ohio

Finn Hudson had been called many things in his relatively short life, some of those things good, some bad. People throughout Finn's life had labelled him under one stereotype or another, such as being a jock, stupid, ignorant or even a hypocrite. Each one of those things and more could probably have been considered true at one time or another. For as Finn would be the first to admit he like everybody else is far from perfect. But one thing about Finn Hudson that nobody can dispute is his heart; at times Finn can be guilty of feeling too much, just like the present.

Finn knows he will never be a noted scholar, or a world famous orator but one thing he can be classed as an expert, in is his love for a particular brunette. Now it would be expected that quotes and Finn Hudson go together like oil and water, but even he, can appreciate the feeling, a person can convey with just a few words. An example of this can be found when Finn was trying to discreetly see what Rachel has been up to in New York by scanning her Facebook page and googling her name; because Lord knows he can't get any information from Kurt. So he kept rereading the line "Shacked-Up on her Facebook page.

Every time he has tried to contact his supposed brother for advice, to catch up or even just looking for a shoulder to cry on. Kurt has either not answered and returned his messages or spent the entire conversation ignoring Finn while trying (and in Finn's opinion failing) to subtly see how Blaine's been going back in Lima. Even after the failed Wemma wedding, Kurt just stopped contact with him all together. Finn would try and ring, only to get a text message back later saying, "Sorry can't talk now, I'll try and get in touch with you as soon as I can".

He was beyond frustrated; he kept replaying the amazing night he and Rachel spent in that hotel room after the wedding. Finn thought finally I have my girl back, my Rachel, but he was left broken hearted, when he woke up confused, and alone, the next morning. He went in search of Rachel, thinking she might have just gone with some of the others to get breakfast. But when he found the other Glee club members they informed him that Rachel and Kurt had already left for the airport to go back to New York. This shattered his soul and any shred of self-confidence he had left, all his insecurities came flooding back.

"Of course she ran off, you idiot! You really think Rachel would leave New York and stay here in loserville Lima friggin' Ohio. Did you really think she was going to settle down and marry you and have two point five kids? She's run back to her new man, Mr. Plastic, Brody, she didn't even apologise for you finding out they were living together via her Facebook status, simply reading 'Shacked-up'" Finn thought as he remembered back to that fateful morning.

You would think Kurt of all people would have given him a heads up, but according to Santana, Kurt was the one who encouraged her to go off with this new dude. Finn was sick of spending all his time worrying about Rachel Berry, so he shut his computer off and made his way down to the choir room. Knowing there was one thing that he could do, to both get his mind off things, and release some of his pent up aggression, playing the drums.

He sat down at the drum kit and plugged in his iPod and started aggressively banging out the first song that came on. Finn had just started getting lost in the music when Blaine walked in and sat down at the piano.

"Whoa! Finn, easy on the drums man! I don't think the Glee club has enough money in the budget for a new kit" Finn stopped playing and wiped his sweaty forehead with a towel. "It's just all this stuff with Rachel man. I thought we really connected again at Mr. Shue's wedding. Guess I was just fooling myself"

"Tell me about it! I mean me and Kurt hooked up but now he barely acknowledges me when I try and ring him. Now I hear from Santana of all people that he's all buddy-buddy with someone called Elliot, last I heard he was with a guy called Adam."

"Yeah well at least some dumb ass male model isn't living your dream life with your dream girl in her dream city" Finn said while rubbing the back of his neck and pacing around the choir room. "Yeah sorry Finn that must be hard" Blaine said while watching Finn pace.

"Thanks man if it's any consolation Kurt's been ignoring me too and could you believe he, my own fucking brother encouraged the love of my life to go shack up with some NYADA dickhead. Talk about a giant Fuck you!" Finn said angrily while kicking the drum stool hard with his right foot.

The stool went flying across the room and clattered nosily against the choir room stairs. Blaine didn't even flinch at Finn's show of aggression, because everyone over the years had gotten accustomed to Finn's trademark kicking of furniture especially chairs when he was angry.

"Yeah I know I screwed up big time by cheating on Kurt, which you have been really cool about by the way. But I've tried everything I can think of to try and apologize and like you said, after the wedding I thought we had taken a giant step forward. Yet he ran off as fast as possible with Rachel the morning after." Blaine slammed his fist down on the piano keys in frustration.

"Yeah if I didn't already know how sorry you are about cheating, I would literally beat the shit out of you. But it's not like I've never done a dick move that I've instantly regretted"

"Man, where a fine pair! Both of the ones we love living it up in New York while…" As the choir room door flew open, Puck and Sam walked in, interrupting Blaine mid speech.

"What's up ladies? Look who I found down by the football field trying to call Mercedes in LA" Sam punched Puck in the shoulder and swore at him under his breath before sulking off to his designated seat in the choir room. "Ouch! What the hell fucker" Puck yelled while rubbing his arm. "Screw you Puck! I don't want to talk about it" Sam sulked.

"No wait you'd think that me being the guy that got her noticed in the first place by putting her performance on YouTube would mean something. But no according to her I'm just a part of her old high school life and she wants to experience what LA has to offer without feeling guilty about me here in Lima. Which I mean I get but it fucking sucks"

"Tell me about it! I was just talking to Finn about Kurt and Rachel" Blaine exclaimed while he slumped down onto the piano.

"Seriously you guys are so whipped. That's why I don't do relationships! Sex shark all the way, Baby!" Puck said while flexing his muscles.

"Yeah right! That's just because a certain blonde is doing exactly what Rachel's doing but in Connecticut with some guy called Biff" Finn said while still sitting behind the drums.

"Shut up Finnegan! Don't even say his name. What kind of spoilt fucking preppy name is biff? Sounds like some cleaning product"

Blaine let out a short laugh. "What the fuck! Are you laughing about Warbler? Your precious Porcelain is getting some with that Adam's Apples guy. I bet Kurt likes bobbing for his apples" Puck said with a smirk. Blaine leapt from the piano and went to charge at Puck, Finn and Sam both jumped up and intercepted Blaine before he could reach Puck. "Whoa! Easy guys, there's no reason to fight; us guys have to stick together. It's us against the world and anyway he's apparently moved onto some guy called Elliot now anyway" Finn said while holding Puck and Blaine apart.

"Finn!" Blaine cried while turning towards Finn

"Sorry man" Finn said while sitting back down behind the drum kit.

"Yeah sorry Blaine" Puck said rather begrudgingly before he went over to the front of the classroom. The guy's attention turned to the choir room door as they witnessed Ryder walking in.

"Sorry didn't know the choir room was being used. I'll leave you guys too it" Ryder pivoted on the spot as he went to march back out of the room, when Finn called out, "Yo Ryder wait! What's wrong buddy?" Finn could clearly see something was bothering the young man. "Nothing it's personal" Ryder bluntly said before once again turning to walk out of the room.

"Come on, man you can trust us. We can all clearly see something's bothering you. Why not come in and join the rest of us losers" Finn watched as Ryder took a moment to ponder what he had said. Finn always had a soft spot for Ryder not only because he was one of the first kids, he recruited to New Directions when he first took over; But also because if Finn was being truthful Ryder reminded Finn a lot of himself when he was younger. Ryder sighed before marching over and sitting down with a huff in one of the chairs, while throwing his bag across the room.

Puck threw a whiteboard marker at Ryder before exclaiming, "Bloody Hell! What's a guy like you got to be so upset about?" Finn shot Puck a warning glare because he knew full well the boys struggle to deal with the abuse he suffered when he was younger, at the hands of his babysitter. After seeing Finn's stony glare, Puck just shrugged his shoulders before putting his hands in surrender before turning around. Meanwhile Finn who was still sitting behind the drums, twirling one of the drumsticks in his left hand motioned for Ryder to continue with his story.

"Well a while ago I started talking to this girl online, and I don't know man but she seemed to just really get me you know. I would tell this girl everything from what happened to me that day at school to my dreams, even stuff from my past that I never talk about…" Ryder ran his hand through his wavy hair before continuing.

"It was going great until I wanted to meet for real, you know outside of this chat room. Well anyway long story short I found out I wasn't really talking to some cool understanding chick, but after much investigation I found out the person I was really talking to was Unique…"

After witnessing Puck's confused stare upon the reveal of who was cat fishing Ryder he elaborated.

"You know Unique, the boy who would rather be a girl?"

Upon this information Puck's face changed to one of realization at Ryder's tricky situation. "Dude…" Puck exclaimed. Ryder just put up his hand and said, "Don't man, I don't want to talk about it anymore, now what's going on in here?"

Puck let out a loud sigh and said, "Fuck this shit, Dudes! Where going to stop this pansy ass feelings talk before we all grow vaginas."

"Well what do you suggest we do then, Puckerman?" Sam said. Puck took a second, look around the choir room at the other four guys in the room. "I'll tell you what where going to do" he stated while walking over to Finn's iPod which was still plugged into the sound system. He turned back to the group, "Where five bad ass musicians… well I know four of us are, what about you Ryder, you play anything? Ryder looked up at Puck, "Yeah I play the drums…"

"Well too bad we got the beat master Finny D on drums, so anything else?"

"Damn right you do! But Puck stop interrupting and let him finish" Finn said intervening on Ryder's behalf. The young Glee club member shot Finn a thankful nod before continuing. "As I was saying I play the drums, not as good as Finn but I get by. I'm also pretty decent on the guitar"

Blaine, Sam, Ryder and Finn were all startled from listening to Ryder by Puck loudly clapping and saying to the guys. "Whoop de do! Looks like we got five bad ass musicians who need to stop gossiping like a bunch of school girls and vent their frustrations like any kickass musician should…"

"What are you talking about Puck?" Blaine interrupted.

"Man don't get your knickers in a knot, Warbler!"

"As I was saying" Puck said while taking a dramatic pause; "Where five musicians who need to release some steam so let's Rock the fuck out!" Puck yelled before picking up one of the guitars.

"Surely you gents know this one" Puck said while the other guys went over to their instruments, Finn at the drums, Puck and Sam on guitar, Ryder on bass and Blaine on vocals. Puck told the guys the song he was thinking of, noticing the grins appearing on the other's faces.

Puck started strumming his guitar….

Well I'm so above you

And it's plain to see

But I came to love you anyway

So you tore my heart out

And I don't mind bleeding

Any old time you keep me waiting

Waiting, waiting

Oh, oh-oh I got a love that keeps me waiting

I'm a lonely boy

Oh, oh-oh I got a love that keeps me waiting

Well your mama kept you but your daddy left you

And I should've done you just the same

But I came to love you

Am I born to bleed?

Any old time you keep me waiting

Waiting, waiting

Chorus:

Oh, oh-oh I got a love that keeps me waiting

I'm a lonely boy

Oh, oh-oh I got a love that keeps me waiting

I'm a lonely boy

Oh, oh-oh I got a love that keeps me waiting

The guys finished the song and just stood there, looking at each other, all of them with stunned looks on their faces. They couldn't believe how good it felt and also how great they sounded while just rocking out.

Sam was the first to break the stunned silence of the group, "Dudes!" Sam said excitedly.

"That was freaking awesome! I love that song" A bunch of excited chatter erupted between the boys…

"Man Blaine you killed on vocals…"

"Way to shred that guitar, Puck"

"You're a drumming machine Finn"

Blaine mentioned to Puck with a shocked look on his face, "Strangely Puck that was extremely applicable to our current predicaments, well done". Puck started laughing and said, "What? I have great ideas all the time."

The others went to reply but were cut off by the bell ringing, indicating everyone was to move on to their next class. As Blaine, Sam and Ryder were still enrolled at McKinley as students they went to bid farewell to Puck and Finn before heading off to their next class.

Finn got up from the drums and went to pick up his bag, before telling the guys he had to go as well. But as he went to pick his bag up, Finn suddenly felt extremely dizzy and had to latch onto the side of the piano to stop from falling over.

"FINN!" the other boys yelled as they rushed to help their friend. Finn could see the concern they had for him written over their faces, but there was something else in their expressions that Finn hadn't seen in a while from his friends, worry. Blaine was the first one of the group to speak and said, "Um Finn, your nose is bleeding" Finn quickly wiped his nose with the back of his hand and sure enough his hand was covered in blood.

Sam quickly ran and got Finn a cloth he could use to stop the bleeding as the other boys guided Finn to one of the choir room chairs and held his head back to try and stop the bleeding.

"Here use this on your nose to stop the bleeding" Finn graciously accepted the cloth from Sam and held it to his bloody nose. As Finn was applying pressure to his nose he caught sight of an agitated Puck murmuring to himself.

"What is it Puck?"

"What is it!? Are you seriously asking me that right now!."

"It's just a bloody nose!" Finn exclaimed impatiently.

Puck stared at his friend with utter bewilderment, before replying. "Just a bloody nose! Jesus Finn! You and I both know this is more than a bloody nose. Its happening again isn't it? Just like in Georgia"

"No its not, all that stuff that happened in Georgia is done and finished, never to be mentioned again!" Finn pleaded with his friend.

"Right, are you forgetting we were all there in Georgia with you, or did you forget that little detail? And you still haven't told Rachel, Kurt or your parents the truth about the army and Georgia?

"I wasn't in Georgia" a puzzled Ryder interrupted, until Sam put a hand on his shoulder and gave him a look to convey that now was not a good time to be interrupting. Finn removed the cloth from his nose after successfully stopping the bleeding and angrily stood up from his chair.

"You know very well why I haven't told anyone other than you guys about Georgia! And as for getting migraines, dizziness and bloody noses a few times recently, that's nothing. If it makes you guys feel any better I promise I will make a doctor's appointment…Ok?" This seemed to placate Puck at least a little, even though Puck was still pacing around and murmuring. Sensing things were starting to get a little heated Blaine piped in and tried to cool the rising tensions between the two friends. "Finn I think Puck and all of us are just concerned about you. We know how bad things got for you in Georgia and we just don't want to see you go through that again. So promise us you'll get checked out…Ok"

Finn knew his friends were just looking out for his best interests so he backed down and looked up at his friends. "Promise, I'll do it first thing."

"Yo, Goose we good?" Finn enquired to his best friend. Puck couldn't help a small smirk from appearing on his face as he turned back to his oldest friend and put his fist out for a fist bump. While bumping fists Puck replied back, "Yeah were good Mav. As long as you get checked out first thing and tell us the results."