Melody in my head
"Tom, I love you." I whispered as he kissed me good night on my front porch steps.
"You…what?" Tom asked stepping away from me and looking at me with pensive eyes.
"I-I…never mind." I replied, turning away and putting my key into the door.
"Jas?" Tom asked, just as I opened the door.
"Nothing Tom, just go home." I replied, walking in and slamming the door behind me, before allowing the tears in my eyes to fall.
"Jas? Open the door? Please?" I heard Tom yelling from outside the door, but this was bigger than something he could fix now.
Instead of replying to his yells, I trudged up the stairs and fell into my bed. After the yelling stopped, I could hear my mobile ringing the ringtone especially for Tom, and when I looked out the window, he was still out there. After thirty minutes, I picked up my mobile and called my favorite person.
"Jas? How was your date?" Georgia said as soon as she picked up the phone.
"I told him, and he just asked me what. And he's still outside!" I cried out, without even explaining what I was talking about.
"Oh, Jassy, I'll be over in a minute. Don't you worry." She replied, clicking off before I could say another word.
ATAPS
"Tom? You still out here?" I called out loud, feeling like a mad woman when I got close to Jas's house.
"I'm guessing she called you as soon as she went inside?" He asked, coming out from the darkness and sighing.
"Thirty minutes after." I replied, a slight smile on my face, Tom sure knew Jas well.
"I didn't mean anything by asking her what? I just… I was shocked." The tall boy explained, staring past me and at Jas's window which was lit up with only her frame blocking the light.
"I'll tell her." I answered, walking past him and heading up the stairs.
"I love her too, Georgia. Despite what you, or she, thinks." He said, stopping me for a moment with his hand.
"I know. I've known for a long time." I answered, turning away from him and walking into Jas's house.
ATAPS
"Oh, Georgia." Jas cried out, just as soon as I came into her room.
"Jas, you know he practically adores you." I said, patting her back as she hugged me.
"But he won't say those words!" Jas said, wiping her eyes on her sleeve, and plopping down onto her bed.
"What do the words mean? His actions show the same as those words, anyways." I replied, sitting down next to her.
"No, they don't!" Jas shrieked, throwing a pillow at my head.
"Jas! Go look out the window. Tell me what you see." I said, pulling her toward the window, where I could just barely see Tom walking down the street, his head bowed and hands in his pockets.
"You really think he loves me, George?" Jas asked once more.
"Of course." I replied as she ran out the door.
A few seconds later, I could hear her calling Tom's name outside, and I watched as he came jogging back and they hugged. After a moment long hug, they broke into full out snogging, causing me to shut the curtains and flop back on Jas's bed.
ATAPS
"I can't believe you had to go over there like that last night." Robbie laughed out as I told him my adventures last night, while he sat on the beach, throwing rocks in the waves.
"It's not like that's the first time it's happened, you should be used to these crazy stories about your brother and Jas by now." I said, snuggling closer to his arm, only to have him lift it again to throw a rock.
"Yeah, well, let's just say their madness never seizes to surprise me." He laughed out, throwing yet another rock.
"Robbie, stop throwing those silly things." I said playfully slapping at his arm, but really meaning what I said.
"Georgia, I think we need to talk." Robbie answered, putting his hand down and turning to me.
"I didn't mean the slap, Robbie…it was just a joke!" I said quickly, trying to cover up my latest mistake.
"Georgia, no, you didn't do anything wrong…It's just well, my dad found a company that wants to record the band." He smiled out, while refusing to look me in the eye.
"That's amazing, Robbie!" I smiled out, hugging Robbie close, only to have him push me away.
"The thing is, the company is based in America. California to be exact." He said, finally meeting my eyes.
"Well, can't you record from out here?" I asked, even though I was pretty sure I already knew the answer.
"No. I asked, I pleaded, I begged, and they said we had to come out there for the deal." He answered, returning his eyes to the waves in front of us.
"Well, then you have to go. This is a huge deal, for you, and for the band, and your future. There is no way, I'll ever stand in front of that, so you have to go." I answered, trying my hardest to get the words out without choking on my tears.
"Georgia, are you sure? I mean we've only just gotten together; I don't want to leave, really. I only wish this would've come later for the band." He said, grabbing on my hand, and holding onto it, and looking into my eyes.
"I know. But you deserve this." I answered, blinking back the tears in my eyes, even though I knew they would inevitably be coming out soon.
"What about us though?" He asked, dropping his voice, and looking down again.
"We'll just have to wait won't we?" I asked, looking away too, because this was the point in movies that usually made me begin to sob, and this was real life.
"Do you mean you want-" He began to say.
"Robbie, I don't really want you to leave, and I really don't want to not be with you, but if that's what it has to be, then that's just how it goes." I answered, unable to look at him anymore.
"Are you sure, Georgia?" He asked, lifting my chin to look into his eyes for the last time.
"Of course." I answered, confidently.
"Then, I've got to go pack. We leave tomorrow." He said sadly, giving my hand one last squeeze before getting up and walking back down the long stretch of beach we'd walked down together not even an hour ago, when everything had been so perfect.
"Jas? Can you come to the beach?" I asked a few hours later when I'd finally stopped sobbing long enough to form more than one word.
"You sound like you've been crying, Georgia, what's wrong?" She asked concerned.
"I'll tell you when you get here. Bring the Ace Group. Come to Robbie and mine's spot." I said, holding back my tears for longer than I thought possible as I tried to get the sentence out as fast as possible.
"Okay, we'll be there as soon as possible, Georgia." She said quickly, and clicking off, just as my sobs began again.
I curled myself into a ball in the rough, broken seashells, and hoped my very best friends would be here before I died.