Twilight, New Moon, and Eclipse belong to the amazingly talented Stephenie Meyer. The only thing I own is this idea for this fan fic. The song Here With Me by Dido is owned by Dido.
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BPOV
I didn't hear you leave
'How….?' I couldn't even begin to comprehend this.
I wonder how am I still here
I shut and locked my door after running upstairs and ran towards the CD player. Everything looked exactly the same.
And I don't want to move a thing
I opened the CD player. Empty.
It might change my memory
I sat down on the floor beside my bed where I had last put the album Renee gave me. I flipped to the first page. Empty. I didn't flip any farther. I didn't need to. I already knew what its contents would show me.
Emptiness. Just like my heart. 'It will be as if I never existed'. His words rang out in my head over and over as if he was right there in the room with me, saying them again. But he wasn't. Because he couldn't. He was long gone by now. My heart with him. That's when the crying and numbness began. I cut my finger on a piece of paper. Hard. I didn't feel a thing.
Oh I am what I am
Charlie let me skip school the next day. He stayed home from work.
I'll do what I want
Renee called sometime later. I was on the couch, laying down, staring into space, curled tightly under a blanket, trying to fight the pain, when I heard her voice yelling at Charlie as clear as day.
But I can't hide
'This is all your fault, Charlie! You let her get her heart shattered like this!" Charlie opened his mouth to say something. Before he could, I had jumped up and grabbed the phone from his hands.
I won't go
"It's not his fault, Mom! It's my fault! I let myself do this to me! It's my fault! It's always my fault!" I screamed. "Always my fault….." I said, as I dropped the phone to the floor and ran to my room, locking it behind me before collapsing in a pile on the floor, helplessly crying.
I won't sleep
I didn't sleep for two days.
I can't breathe
It felt like I couldn't hardly breathe without him here with me.
Until you're resting here with me
I needed to fall asleep in his arms.
I won't leave
I didn't go anywhere but school and work.
I can't hide
I tried to hide from everything, but I couldn't. I just couldn't.
I cannot be
I was nothing with out my Edward. The pain ripped through my chest worse than when James bit me last spring. A million times worse.
Until you're resting here with me
"Please, please come back to me…" I whispered into the dark night sky.
I don't want to call my friends
Friends called and left messages. I didn't call back.
They might wake me from this dream
They couldn't wake me from this dream if they tried. It was entirely too real.
And I can't leave this bed
I cooked, did homework, and then went to bed.
Risk forgetting all that's been
If I go anywhere else, I'll risk remembering and I can't go through that pain.
Oh I am what I am
I'll do what I want
But I can't hide
I won't go
I won't sleep
I can't breathe
Until you're resting here with me
I won't leave
I can't hide
I cannot be
Until you're resting here with me
"Please come back to me…" I whispered into the dark night sky again.
Author's Note: I have not yet read Eclipse, so if you have any ideas for me for the next one I do, please do not give me ANY spoilers. Reviews are greatly appreciated.
Thanks,
Bellaandedwardforever.