Willow got another e-mail from Giles. He said that since he's back in England, the all powerful high-and-mighty Watcher's Council is offering him his old position.


I told him I thought it sounded cool.


I really wanted to tell him to ditch the Council and get his ass back to the States.


I'm becoming more and more aware that everything is changing, and it's not like it was back at Sunnydale High. Tara and Anya and Dawn weren't even in the picture, and Spike was a big bad blood-sucker. It was just Willow, Xander, me, Giles, and Cordelia. The original Scoobies.


Now we've lost two but gained four in the ranks. I suppose it's alright, but inside I kind of miss Cordy and her jokes, and researching at Slayer HQ, aka the library.


And there was Angel...


Angel. My heart. My lover. I gave the world to him, and in the blink of an eye, it all changed. Angel became Angelus, and I sent him to Hell. But he came back, miraculously.


Then... he left. For Los Angeles. Said we could never be together. He left, and with it he took a piece of my heart, my soul.


And I swore inside I'd never love again as I'd loved him.


Then Riley came... and it wasn't the same with him. But I did love him. Very much. Then he left too, and another piece of heart left with him.


Now there's Spike. He doesn't make me feel like Angel did, or ike Riley. He's... different. I feel not all the way complete with him. But he is a good screw... oh god, did I just write that?


I'm too lazy to delete. But I look back on that sentence and realize... I can convince myself that I don't love Spike all I want, but inside...


I know I do.