Oh yea, I don't own Instant Star. I do own Tim Rozon though, so back off.
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43 days.
43 days since I last saw Tommy.
43 days since the last time I was actually happy.
The first couple days were the hardest. Darius knew I was upset, so he gave me a two-week break to "get my act together". If he knew that "getting my act together" meant sitting in my room, crying my eyes out and eating Canada's entire supply of Ben & Jerry's, I don't think he'd be too happy.
After the two-week break and around 1000 calls made to Tommy, I realized he didn't care. He didn't care how I was, he didn't care how bad I felt, he didn't care that my music was suffering because of him, he didn't bother to answer and of my calls, he didn't care! My realization inspired me and I began to start writing songs non-stop, which Darius and Liam were very pleased about.
I think everyone thought I had moved on and was happy, because I would go into the studio everyday - with a smile on my face, talk to everyone, laugh and write some songs. I have to admit, I was a pretty good actress. I think I see an Oscar in my future. The truth was there was no way I would ever be truly happy, unless Tommy came back.
Actually two people knew I wasn't happy. Sadie and Kwest. They had started dating, and sometimes I would walk in on them talking about how they were concerned about me, but they never acted on it since I was at working and seemed okay.
I also realized in these 43 days is that Kwest is the worlds worst liar. I would ask him if he knew anything about Tommy, and he would start to mumble. It was kind of funny, one time I walked in on him talking to Tommy, and he just slammed his phone shut and started looking around the room and then he said "Uhm, someone was trying to sell me a mattress", like I said he sucked at lying.
Not much else has happened since Tommy left - Patsy & Jamie are still dating, Mom and Don the Deucebag Divorce Lawyer (as Sadie and I now call him) are still in Europe, I helped Dad completely pay off the house so now we don't have to worry about selling it, he works a lot, and his free time is spent with Yvette (who is surprisingly nice).
43 days and counting without Tommy and I'm going to try to move on, but like that's going to happen!
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So was it good/bad? Please review and let me know! I like constructive criticism. Oh and the actual first part should be out tomorrow!