This is the rambling running through my head as of right now and this is what happened as my impending birthday rolled around
This is intentionally ambiguous in order to be used for any character and any sex from any time. I hope you enjoy it and feel free to comment or fav as your please (but it is my actual birthday so yeah it would kind of make my day if you did (not that you have to be any means))
11:27
Half an hour
Half an hour and everything changes
Half an hour and I wont be young anymore
Half an hour and I'll be like everyone else
I'll be older
(Presumably wiser)
I'll understand the world around me
(I'll care)
I'll take responsibility
(I'll be given responsibility)
I'll have a voice
(I'll have a voice worth listening to)
11:29
Half an hour until the weight of the world begins to rest upon me
Half an hour until I am no longer a child
11:30
Half an hour until I must become something else
Half an hour until I must be attuned to the world around me
Half an hour until I stop all this "existential bullshit"
Half an hour
Half an hour until I have work to think about
Half an hour until I take a shower
(Until I cleanse the year away)
Half an hour until the next chapter begins
(Until I take my pen and write it my own story)
Half an hour to be babied
(Be considered a child)
Half an hour until I start thinking about the future
Half an hour until I question myself
(And everything around me)
Half an hour until the world makes no sense
Half an hour until I begin to see
(Things around me for what they truly are)
Half an hour until I shed this skin
(Until I glisten with the subtle skin of the year)
11:34
Half an hour until I go to sleep
Half an hour until my medicine wears off
Half an hour until I watch my dog sleep
(Five seconds until she jumps from the sound of my shoe hitting the floor)
Half an hour until I give her a kiss
Half and hour until my mother comes into my room to wish my a good year
Half an hour until she thinks I'm asleep so she can look at me
Half an hour until the thoughts racing in my head run free
11:37
Half an hour
Half an hour until the next stage
Half an hour until I take the stage
(And find out if I like it)
Half an hour until the existential crisis begins
(Until I decide on my career)
Half an hour to back out
Half an hour to say no to my decisions
(And perhaps regret them)
11:39
Twenty minuets
Twenty minuets until I break down
(Cry a little at the loss of this year)
Twenty minuets until I am forced to become a doll again
(Something pretty made to be looked at but never touched, never spoken to)
Twenty minuets until I can voice my own opinion
Twenty minuets until I turn off the lights
Twenty minuets until I stop my reflections
(Until I shatter the mirror)
Twenty minuets until I'm that much closer
(Until it's two more years to the next big deal)
Twenty minuets until it gets closer
11:43
Fifteen minuets
Fifteen minuets until I read this
Fifteen minuets until I post this
(Until I read it once I post it)
Fifteen minuets until I force myself to not edit
Fifteen minuets until I make myself accept the imperfections
Fifteen minuets until I like them
(Until I make them my strengths)
Fifteen minuets until I get inspired
11:45
Fifteen minuets until I stop making excuses
Fifteen minuets until I tell the truth
(Until I find the truth)
Fifteen minuets until I run away
(To a place far within myself)
Fifteen minuets until I make the most important work of my life
Fifteen minuets until I decide what to make
(And with whom to make it with)
Fifteen minuets until I'm no longer anxious
Fifteen minuets until I force myself to not be anxious
11:47
Fifteen minuets until I text my brother
Fifteen minuets until we share in the glory of the day
Fifteen minuets until we celebrate the day
Fifteen minuets until he makes a decision
(Until he celebrates his on his own)
Fifteen minuets until he starts his traditions
(Until he does his ritual)
11:49
Ten minuets
Ten minuets until we waltz out of childhood
(Out of the buffering year in between)
Ten minuets until we stand on our own two feet
(Until we stand like deer for the first time)
Ten minuets
11:51
Ten minuets until I stop obsessing
(Until I relax)
Ten minuets until I start meditating
Ten minuets until I search myself for my strength
(Power, motivation, confidence)
Ten minuets until the hand moves
(Until the two are next to one another)
Ten minuets until they too are one
Ten minuets until the separation begins
(Until they two share the moment)
Ten minuets until the day is born
(And the last rots away)
Ten minuets until one is forgotten
(And another is written as a history)
Ten minuets until someone wins the gold
Ten minuets until someone looses everything
11:55
Five minuets
Five minuets until the door opens
(And another closes)
Five minuets until I learn how to spell
(And maybe remember how to this time)
Five minuets until something beautiful is created
Five minuets until the day is mine
(Until I share it with my brother)
Five minuets until my father and sister call
(Until they reassure me that they want to be here)
Five minuets until I'm comfortable
(Myself, body, spirit, soul)
11:57
Three minuets
Three minuets until I'm bombarded
(Until I'm hit from all sides by reality)
11:58
Two minuets
Two minuets until I must face the world
11:59
One minuet
One minuet to make count
One minuet until this moment is cemented down
(Forever encased in the world)
One minuet to change everything
One minuet to stay the same
12:00
Happy birthday to me I guess