Disclaimer: I don't own Naruto, but by God if I were to owned (day dreams), the story is based on the song named: Love song from The Cure. Great song by the way, totally love it.

I'll always love you

He woke up with a migraine the size of the moon. He needed coffee that will probably help with the headache, he turn to the other side of the bed, it was empty. Iruka had to push himself out of bed; it was getting bright outside nothing better like a sunny day. He got in to the shower; there was a wet towel on the floor. He went in to kitchen and got a cup of coffee, was about to grab the sugar when he saw the piece of paper. He put the cup down and grabbed the paper… He had to sit down.

The day before……

They were sitting on the small kitchen trying to evade the awkward silence that was hanging around them by eating. Kakashi get up and poured himself more coffee. Iruka just followed him with his eyes.

"So… What are you doing today, Iruka?"- Looking out the window.

"Uhmm… I have to go to the academy."- Without even trying to see him. - "And then I have to run some errands, like go to the market, and you."

"I have stuff to do"- Still looking at the window

"Like going to the memorial stone?"- Kakashi didn't answer the question, Iruka finally look up but he was gone.

Some thing was wrong; Iruka had that feeling since Kakashi had come back. It wasn't like other times when he'll be moody for a day or two but then after that and with his wounds healed; he'll be back to his old self. But now it was that darkness around him and then there were the nightmares. It had been a week since he had came back and they have only made love once, Kakashi was silent during the whole time not wanting to meet Iruka's eyes, and after he just fell a sleep.

The nightmares started two days after he had come back, first they will just wake him up, but then he'll do it screaming and sweating. Iruka was trying to cope with it, blaming it on stress of the missions but last night he had waking up screaming a name… Not any name… Obito's name. When he ask him about it, he didn't answer, he just went back to sleep.

He went to academy; he didn't feel like it going but still went. He was helpless at class and catches himself looking at the clock even more than the students. His mind kept wandering around Kakashi, he wasn't mad about it shock maybe, but not mad, the thing that kept bugging him it was Kakashi's reaction to the whole thing, this morning it was just cold, he's never seeing him like that. Ok, so he still had issues about Obito. It's not like he still in love with him. The academy's bell rang.

Iruka started to grab his things. What if he still loves him? He got out of the academy and started walking home before he realized he was standing in front of the memorial stone. What if he still loves him?

"Does he still love you?"- He asked the stone so afraid of an answer-"Has he ever stopped loving you?"

The wind blow, it was getting late and he still had to go home and make dinner. He got home and began to tidy up the place when Kakashi was there everything was everywhere.

"Where are you Kashi? Is getting late"- He look out the window Kakashi was no where to be seen.

He made himself a cup of ramen there was no point of cooking dinner if he was eating alone, sat on the sofa and closed his eyes, he didn't want to think about it and yet he couldn't stop. He was starting to fall a sleep when a familiar scent got to his nose. He opens his eyes to find him sitting on the little table in front of him.

"Sorry to wake up. I was just…."- He said looking at a sleepy Iruka.

"It's Ok, did you eat dinner already?"- Try to get up but was stop by Kakashi

"Yeah, I mean no… but is Ok."- Feather light fingers touching Iruka's face- You should go to bed, you look tired. I'll finish up here.

Iruka got up he had so many questions, but he was afraid of the answers. What if Kakashi had a change of mind? Maybe he had realized that he didn't stop loving Obito, that he and Iruka were all wrong for each other. What if he wants to break up?

He didn't know what to do he sat on the bed unable to undress, wanting to cry. What if he decides to leave? He went in to bathroom feeling sick on the stomach.

"Ruka…. What the f….. You ok…"- He saw him kneeling in front of the toilet, didn't really what to do, what to say? He just grab his head pull his hair back and press.-"Easy…. You don't want to hurt your self. Better now?"- Iruka just nodded-"You don't seem to have a fever."- He look into Iruka's eyes, he could easily drown on those.-"Come on I'll help you to bed"

Iruka try to get up, but Kakashi easily swept him off his feet and carry him to bed. Then went back to the kitchen and grab him a glass of water.

"Come, Ru… Drink this"- Iruka sat and took the glass. - "slow. There we go. Do you head hurts? Still got nausea?"

"I look awful, don't I?"-Kakashi just shocks his head and try to give him a kiss but Iruka turn his head and miss.-"No… Don't!"

"Why, can't I kiss you Ru?"- He hold Iruka's hands between his.-"You don't want me to?"

"Yes… Is just that I"- Trying to get away from Kakashi's gaze.-"I just…."- Looking at the bathroom.

"Do you think I really mind?"

"Kashi, you don't have to…"

"Ru I'll be leaving to a mission tomorrow morning, and I won't be kissing those lips for a week."-Holding his face so there was no escape.

Butterfly kisses on top of Iruka's lips, he felt Kakashi's mouth move over his neck, arms wrapping him like a soft cloud. He didn't stop him, he couldn't stop him, he didn't want to. Kakashi was his at least only for that night. The next day probably before he leaves for his mission he would tell Iruka his real feelings and then he would deal with it, but not now… Now it was only them and the world and everybody else can screw themselves. He let Kakashi undressed him without saying one word. He let him kissed where ever he want it, how ever he want it.

"Kashi….My Kashi…."- Feeling Kakashi's hand every where, he new he was about to come and by the way Kakashi was trembling he was just about too. He felt it, he was there but then instead of exploding he stop breathing, it was so horrible, his heart was racing, his head pounding and then the tears came.

Kakashi stop, when he heard Iruka's sobbing, they had had rough sex before but never made Iruka cry.

"Ru… What's wrong Ru?"- He was shaking and would not look him on the eye- "Did I hurt you? Did I do something wrong?"

"No…"- It came just a whisper, he wanted to keep going to enjoy the love making with Kakashi, but he couldn't stop crying.

"Ru…. For god's sake. Tell me what's wrong."- He try to hug him but Iruka refused.-"Please Ru, Stop crying and tell me.

"Don't do this…"- Kakashi was about to question something but he stop him.-"I can let you do this, if you're doing it out of pity… I don't think I deserve it.

"OK. First. I have never ever done some one out of pity."-He gave a sigh and tries to smile just to calm Iruka.-"Second. I though I made clear that this would last only while you want it. So the minute you want me out, I'm out. "-Kakashi grab Iruka's face and gave him a ten second frenchie that made Iruka's toes curl.-"You control the game, Ru. Do you still want me as a player?"

"The question is… Do you still want to"- There was no answer, words were not allowed after that. Iruka brain stops working at the feeling of Kakashi's body on top of his. He let him ride and after that he fell to sleep on his arms.

Present day…..

Iruka had to sit down his knees felt boneless; his fingers were shaking while trying to unfold the paper. He finally opens it and his heart skip a bit. He stares at the note not wanting to cry. The note read:

Even if you want me out Ru. I will always love you!

Author's Note: Please don't forget to review, I know too much angst but I didn't feel like writing humor this time, and thanks to everybody for taking the time to read this.