Author's Note:I have finished the first chapter of the sequel to Confusing Love. It may seem short, but all my first chapters are. I just can't write the beginnings so please don't give up on me yet. I promise that the later chapters will be better and longer. This is the only chapter to be in this POV. I just felt like it was a decent beginning. This contains alot of *MY* version of their back stories. Please review if you want more!

Warnings/Disclaimers: I don't own Big Time Rush, I wish I did. There will be some references to boy/boy relationships. Don't like, don't read, it's simple.

Chapter 1: Reflections

Mrs. Knight POV

I would think that a 'normal' mother would be out of her mind with this. I'm glad that I am not a 'normal' mother because these boys deserve true happiness and I feel that it will happen between them. After all their relationship is all up to them, I can only make sure they are safe. I am so proud of my boys, even if three of them are not biologically mine I still consider them my sons. It's been a week and Carlos and Logan are together and happier every day. James and my son are starting to date and I am home alone. I will support them and their decisions no matter what, I just hope they think about what could happen if they don't handle this appropriately. My mind started thinking about each one of them and how they got here.

Carlos, the ball of energy that keeps growing along with his appetite. I met him when he was 13, the same age as my Kendall. And ever since Kendall mentioned his name I was in for a wild ride. He was the most loud and crazy kid I ever met. He was always bouncing off the walls and into my good china or other valuables. I had learned to hide anything valuable in the closet. As a young child he wound up in the ER enough times that they knew him on a first name basis. Every time Logan would visit and make sure his best friend was still alive. I think Logan was the only person who could calm Carlos down and the only one who didn't mind the endless energy. Logan finally gave Carlos a helmet after a particularly bad accident. Since that day Carlos was never seen without it. He even wore it during hockey and claimed it was his 'lucky charm'. I don't think anyone knows that Logan was the person who gave Carlos his first helmet. As they grew up Carlos was still full of energy and always hyper. Carlos, I think, is actually happy for the first time since he and Logan started dating.

Logan, the genius, chef, teacher and only person who could find some enjoyment with studying. He was the most quiet of the group, preferring to read and study than play with his friends. He never liked the spotlight when he was younger, being timid and shy. He entered a spelling bee and froze on a word he knew by heart, all because the eyes were on him. When they all started hockey together, he along with Carlos, were stars. Carlos knew where to be and how to move while Logan knew the mathematics behind all the shots. He said that it was angles, velocity and geometry. I was never good at any of those subjects. I am relieved that he is here to offer help to the other boys, without him they would surely be lost. He is even spending almost all of his time helping Carlos with his schoolwork, writing simpler notes, giving slow, detailed exapmles and general reviews for tests and quizzes. He told me in private that Carlos was struggling with his grades but it wasn't going to happen again, that he was going to help him. He even got a B+ on the last test, all thanks to Logan. He has a heart of gold and will drop everything for his friends.

James, the only guy I know who can spend more than 3 hours in the bathroom all just to get ready. When he was a 13 year old boy he had to wear braces with chains and bands. He spent 6 months with them and his speech for the first few weeks resembled a drunken man. It took him a few weeks to learn how to speak normally with them on. During hockey he didn't need words, being the goalie required little words and a lot of focus. He would just stand there with a serious look on his face. After the braces he was more outgoing and always wanted to be in the 'loop' as he called it. He and Kendall spent a lot of time together, on the rink, at the mall and in my living room. He was the guy all the girls went after, now he goes after all the girls. He even had an obsession on Kuda products. They caused him to break out, have an allergic reaction and turn orange. Kendall finally broke him out of the whole 'Gotta wear your Kuda' fad. He did it to impress Kendall, when he only needed to be himself.

Kendall, my son who has driven me up a wall more times than I can count. He was the reason these three different boys spent so much time together and got along so well. He is and was the glue for them. His planning and schemes always had the boys interested and willing to help. In hockey he was the co-captain, he wasn't old enough to be captain fully so he was more than willing to be co-captain. He is the reason we are here in the Palmwoods in the first place, another one of his schemes that actually worked. He is the best son a mother could ask for, even when he messes up he always finds a way to make it right. I thought he was planning on dating Jo, but he said she was 'just a friend' and nothing more. I should have realized when James allowed him to touch his hair more than once and almost on a daily basis. He is the reason that Carlos and Logan got together. He is also a great brother to Katie. She looks up to each and every one of them and I bet she is happy she is here too.

I have seen all of them at their bests, winning a hockey tournament, science competition, 'best hair' in the yearbook or saving a kitten from a dog. I have seen them at their worst, losing a father, breaking a leg and being unable to play, getting braces or losing a brother. They have been there for each other and I think they will be forever. Nothing could ever break them apart, they have been trough too much.

I heard the door handle rattle and I checked the clock. I have been sitting here for 3 hours. Kendall, James, Carlos, Logan and Katie walked in and they were all laughing and smiling at some joke. 'Yeah, their friendship will last.' I thought.

"Hey, Mrs. Knight do you want me to start cooking dinner for you?" Logan asked smiling at me.

"Sure, if you don't mind sweetie. I think we are having whatever is listed on the fridge for today." He nodded and dragged Carlos to the kitchen and began to start dinner. James and Kendall were playing hockey on the table in the middle of the house. Katie was flipping through the channels.

"You ok mom? You don't seem alright." Kendall asked his mother who was still staring into space.

"Yeah, I'm fine. I was just thinking." I said with a smile at my concerned son.

Dinner was ready within 10 minutes and we sat down to eat at the dinner table like a regular family even if we weren't waht you would call 'regular'. That was fine by me, I wouldn't have as much fun if it wasn't the same.

A/N:Just an idea that I had to open the story. I wanted to have a chapter about their pasts and I have a bunch of ideas for later chapters! Please R&R! It will be greatly appreciated! Have a wonderful day, ~RAY~