Heidi's POV
They call the four of us "Wendy's girls". Probably because Wendy is the most admired girl in school and Bebe, Red, and I are her three best friends. Of course Bebe and Red are pretty well loved by all the students at South Park High too, boys and girls included. When it comes to Wendy, Bebe, and Red, almost everyone wants to be their friend. And then there's me, the one who just tags along with them. Or at least that's how I feel anyway. Everyone wants to be their friend and I'm the one who's actually lucky enough to get the opportunity. That's the positive way to look at it.
Of course the storm of insecurities I feel whenever I compare myself to the three of them is the overwhelmingly negative way to look at it. Bebe and Red are beautiful. The tall blond in the red sweater and the stunning redhead in navy blue always catch the attention of any boy (or lesbian girl for that matter). It rarely matters what they wear, they're the two most attractive girls in school. There are times where I feel mildly attractive despite being mildly chubby, but most of the time I feel like I have an awkward body, no matter how much Bebe and Red assure me this isn't the case.
And then there's Wendy with her long black hair and beautiful face, topping it all off with that charming pink beret she's been wearing since I've known her all the way back in third grade. Even though Wendy is comparatively flat-chested to Bebe and Red, she more than makes up for it by having the best ass in school. And she looks amazing in a tank top, which I always enjoyed seeing when those hot summer months come around. Hell, I always thought I was straight but Wendy is so beautiful and attractive to me.
I admire so much about Wendy's personality and personal accomplishments as well. Everyone knows she's the smartest person in school, a straight A student, and school president. But she's also become an accomplished athlete after first taking an interest in track and field in middle school. Granted, she doesn't always come out on top in sports like she does in academics, but she still wins big from time to time. And people celebrate her for that. And I join them. Just because I'm jealous, doesn't mean I can't support my friends.
Another thing on the long list of what I admire about Wendy is her ability to fight for a cause. I can still remember when she let the world know she was bisexual in eighth grade (a pretty young age to be so sure of one's sexuality, but that's Wendy for you). To this day, Wendy's still really into fighting for LGBT rights and the vast majority of the school and the town of South Park is on her side.
A few people think that Bebe and Red are shallow and all about looks, but that's just not true. Bebe is a deep, insightful, and caring person when you get to know her well. And her boyfriend Clyde, whom everyone thinks is arrogant, is actually really sweet and romantic with her. Red is actually a lesbian for the most part, except she has feelings for one boy; Kevin Stoley. It's probably because they were best friends when they were young and she developed feelings for him over time. He's not really much to look at and he's a nerd, which makes it even cuter that a popular girl like Red would fall for him. They're adorable together and I'm really happy for them. But other than Kevin, Red only likes girls. So if that relationship ever ends, she'll probably be a lesbian for good.
I've started to wonder if my situation is similar to Red's. Maybe I'm straight with the exception of having feelings for Wendy. Despite Wendy's being bi, I doubt she'd reciprocate my feelings though. I'm clearly the least attractive of us four girls. In addition to my insecurities about my body, I know my hair isn't nearly as beautiful as Wendy's, Bebe's, or Red's. I don't have the vivid natural colors of Wendy's deep black or Bebe's brilliant blond that shines in the sun or Red's eye-catching deep red. I just have plain brown hair and a dull shade of it at that. And I just don't like dying my hair either. The other three don't have to, but they do spend more time brushing it and taking care of it than me. I just do enough to keep my hair clean and neat. Besides, I could never have the texture of Wendy's silky black hair, Bebe's blond curls, or Red's thick, soft, straight hair that comes down to shoulder length. I should just be glad my hair isn't terrible, I guess.
If I give myself the benefit of the doubt, I'm slightly above average in looks, get pretty good grades (not Wendy Testaburger good, but a few A's, mostly B's, the occasional C), and have some great friends. But I get lonely and I envy what they are able to achieve and accomplish.
So I end up with quite a surprise one day when Wendy asks a question that might mean she reciprocates my odd crush on her…