Envy had taken her own life but now has another chance to live the voice/ God decides to send her back after confronting her. Now what choices with the Homunculus make and what is her true origins? Envy X Edward in later chapters
Other pairings are free to be suggested 33 Set after the defeat of Father.
Chapter One:
"Humans," somehow even as she said it for a second she thought perhaps it could happen. She didn't understand how this human out of all of them understood. "Humans," even as she repeated it became impossible for her to think of.
To be understood by an inferior race to be stuck in this pitiful form to not be able to move properly. This ugly disfigured thing that she is her heart pounded bleeding in her throat. To be defeated beaten to be understood.
The last one she couldn't understand she screamed it out how loud her lungs could manage each breath closer and closer to her last. She's glad none of the others are here to see this is Father had been.
"Disgrace!"at her cries no human moved. "It is a disgrace," she is the disgrace. What about Lust how dare these humans put her on the same level as them? How dare she let this human finally figure it out.
Jealousy Envy she envied loved humanity no matter how much she pretended otherwise she wanted to be one.
Her pitiful wailing bursting through her lungs a shitty human she didn't even remember what she said after that. Screams her own tore out of her lungs at a gut wrenching level like that of a squealing pig.
I'm the disgrace I dishonor my Father and Lust memory. The thought numbed her to the core as she let herself fall to the floor shaking intently. Mustang that Bastard this is how she would end.
What are they all doing standing here watching waiting their not there anymore the entire world shakes. The vision around her flashes black and white her insides pour out of her remembering that she had admitted to it.
She had...
Envy had, "I Envy am envious of humans," the words spitted out of her as her horrible cries grew even louder. More ragged and pained each breath excruciating how could she live like this? How could she have become the ultimate disgrace to their kind?
What did it matter the human and his people their going to win. Whats the point of wining or loosing? By now Father should have swallowed God he should be winning but she wasn't thinking of that.
She was thinking of the life humans had the world they had of having a face that actually belonged to them. Of having loved ones of children someone to share it with to have a normal life.
To be understood by a brat like you that is what she had said several words she had spoken all burned through her like the beating of some alien heart beat. An alien would be prettier then she.
She sat in nothing because even the shitty God of the underworld or whatever the hell this place is didn't come to her. Nothing came to her but a bleak blackness she could remember the blood the liquid pouring out of her mouth her lungs wide open.
Feel the pressure searing all over the pavement too much of a coward to live knowing that the humans knew of her the violent crack in her brain. Snap the crack of her rib cage as she tore it out of her.
The terror she had brought to others that she know faced. It over came her mind and sense as she laid trembling in the blanket of nothingness that she is. A heavy breath escaping her lips as she let out a horrible sound.
Trapped in the form she hated most with nothing but the memories of her death. They played like an endless loop she cursed oh how she did. Watching the faces of the humans around her the look in their eyes.
A horrible gasp escaped her, "Humanity," she gulped homunculus are suppose to be better then them. She had been raised to believe they are superior that they are better but humanity had made them. Humans would have everything she'd never get to have. Not ever she'd been created not born.
Father had created her in a flask much like himself. The pounding of her head it burned she didn't know how long she curled in a ball. Staring wildly at the nothing around her a deafening cry split her lip.
She coughed and gagged hiccuping a full on panic as she felt thousands of memories over whelm her. Nothing theirs nothing here am I not even worthy of a decision? She thought she could sense what this place is.
This is the place before heaven and hell its dark and black the ground is covered in thick fog. She dose nothing for the longest time but cries alone, completely alone. That's right no one is coming.
It's in her own voice but its deeper as if several people are talking. No ones going to save you she felt no fear instead a numb sense of dismay. She had made her choice to obey Father to obey her Master.
Squirming she dragged herself to her feet with a lot of effort grunting and squirming standing up right. Who am I anyways? The thought made her feel numb and relentless just a thing in a flask.
A stirring grew somewhere in the dark she could sense something. Boom with each step great and terrible its enough to throw her in the air and knock her onto the ground. She gasps the breath knocked out from her lungs.
A sound of souls moaning in the dark pleading Envy stares dizzy and breathless as a mountain looms over her. Eyes glare down at her a face snarls at her, but its her face and its not moving. The creature is pure white like a clay doll.
Still it bears its jaws and says nothing her counterpart stares at her and for some reason she feels numb. Her Father had been wrong about humans she'd been wrong and yet she had still done what he had asked of her.
Envy had been a good soldier she had done always what he had asked of her. To be praised by him to be loved by him. But Father never loved anyone but himself he wanted to destroy the world.
She had wanted to live in it make a world for her kind. A world where they could be accepted. But did they really have to go so far. The creature above her stared at her looking down at her with multiple purple eyes studying her.
For a moment it did little to nothing a sound escaped its jaws like the wailing of thousands of people. Then its eyes focused on her tears burst from the creatures eyes and it opened its jaws and shut them again just as it reached her.
"They understand," the beast said its first word.
She did nothing the voice in itself was not hers but another identity, "But you also understand your actions,"
She had killed thousands of humans for her Father. "But you also don't have your full memories do you Envy?" the creature spoke nose to nose with her. Making a disgruntled face.
She squirmed trying to roll onto her stomach her antics seemed to amuse the creature but eventually she got it. Out of breath and tired she barley managed to get herself up right. What did it want from her?
"Who are you?" she asked instead she wasn't sure what it meant.
"You could call me God or you could call me you," spoke the voice watching her with interest. A shudder ran through her, "You could call me judgment and I have been watching you."
Watching me? What for? What would God be doing watching her for? The idea it self seemed almost impossible. She had never even believed in a God and yet it had taken an interest in her?
A silence dragged out between the two of them a bit of shame rattled up inside of her did she know everything? She must be a girl then because she is one even if she can shape shift into both genders she'd always seen herself as one.
Another thing humanity got but she didn't. "You should be more concerned with me then that." snapped herself. "You were a good soldier you committed horrible crimes in the name of your terrible Father,"
She decided to remain silent letting her take the lead it knew all of this and yet it informed her of it why? "Many soldiers have the same tasks your path has been hard and painful you have been manipulated by your 'Father'."
The voice rose her head each movement feeling like an earthquake, "However you have enjoyed your work as well. Homunculus are the same as humans born with their weakness and strengths."
The beast moved around her transforming into herself as Envy as a person. It walked over to her and picked her up by the tale. "Still you being understood by humans and the pain you have suffered is more then enough."
Voice held her at an arm length turning her over with a look that Father usually gave blank curiosity. "What are you doing?" Envy managed wincing at her own voice.
"Trying to judge your fate of course your Father wasn't exactly fond on going where he ended up." The voice turned and walked carrying her passed the blackness and into the light? Generally people are told to head in the opposite direction.
She claws on as they stop inside of a white room. It did not speak and she did not thing usually she'd be angry or something. Instead she felt empty as if someone had scooped out all the things that made her Envy.
"I have a question," she asked after a moment.
Still no talking the voice did nothing but stand their eyes blankly gazing out not quite entering the whiteness. Lowering her head she thought of Lust and all the other Homunculus some whose brains were weaker. It wasn't Sloths fault he had been made that way.
Father had made him like he had made her and yet she wondered where they had ended up. "Did they get- You should be more worried about yourself isn't that what Father taught you?"
Now the voice sounded angry and she found herself going quite. Father had taught her not to care that death for his sake is the greatest honor a Homunculus could sacrifice for him. That's what Edward and the others were needed.
Lured to the right place for him everything she had done had been for him. She had wanted to be loved so much by a being who never wanted it. For someone who never wanted her other then to spill blood.
She'd been a tool nothing more tools aren't suppose to feel anything. She is the ultimate disgrace the words whisper quietly in her mind. A sense of darkness over whelms her it didn't matter where she ended up.
"Would you have made different choices if you knew what you knew now? If you had your real memories?" the bluntness of the voices demands and the fierceness of it irrupted through her like a burning sensation.
And she knew all about burning and fire she could hear the sound of wind. "Do you know how Homunculus are made?"
The questioned startled Envy she had asked him a few times but he had been vague. Stating it contained one of each of his emotions. That's all she knew really, "No," she whispered softly.
"Humans," it spoke in the same voice that she used mimicking her pain and agony the moment she tore her beating red stone from her chest.
"You were made from humans thousands of humans or at least those were sacrificed to power your form. That and a Lizard." her eyes never left herself as she talked, "You were once a human a girl,"
Envy stared at her with disbelief at first and a sense of dismay hit her. "Father as you called him was made from Hohenheim." a feeling of dread built inside of her did she really want to know this answer?
"Father took you and killed thousands of humans so they could make redstones for him the energy was used to create you after he killed you." She sat their staring at the voice with dismay.
"I know this because this is your memory the ones you've been suppressing." she was being patted like a animal.
She stared unable to move, "I am human?" she wondered staring at the voice in bewilderment.
"You were human but you were modified into a weapon that Father needed." Even as the voice explained. "Homunculus can only be made through the forbid human transmutation." informed the voice matter of fact.
The information made her feel as if her world had just gone inside out. "Father kept this from you so you would all have a purpose to destroy humans." Manipulated from day one that is if she could trust this voice.
"That is true," the voice agreed. "I could be lying."
And yet she felt as if the voice was not lying, "What are you going to do with me?" even as she dared to ask the question the voice did nothing. But dangled her transforming into a human shape this time it is impossible to determine sex or gender its just a white figure holding her with interest.
"All Alchemy comes with a price," this time it puts her down. "I have decided to do nothing with you for now." The voice snapped his fingers and clapped them three times. A boom exploded behind her like that of a lightening bolt and she is picked up by a great wind.
A scream escaped her lips but its impossible to hear what the voice is saying only a large blast as the doors slam shut.