About five months ago my life was hell. My ex-boyfriend/ mentor was turned Strigoi and left me right after a battle at my school. But I'm sure you have all heard the story, about a Dhampir girl who left a school to hunt down her lover who had been turned, and then got her best friend a Moroi princess the last of her line to stake that man and he was turned back to his normal self. Well that was me and my best friend Lissa Dragomir. When we got back to the royal court in Pennsylvania, he completely ignored me and told me his love had faded and that he will never love me like I love him. After that the queen was killed and all evidence pointed to me, I was thrown in a cell and then about two days after that my father and all my friends including Dimitri Belikov or aka my ex-lover broke me out and found the real killer who happened to be Lissa's boyfriend's aunt Tasha. Lissa has now become queen and Dimitri and I are her guardians, the thing is everyone I knew who helped me break out of jail has chosen Dimitri's side and say that if he doesn't love then drop it and move on and now they don't talk to me at all. I fear that I will leave this world and no one at all will acknowledge that I am dead. For now I think that I might run away and become a blood whore or something drastic like that to see what they all do.
I stare at the wall and notice that Dimitri is up and is sitting by my bed. I turn and give him a questioning look. "What are you doing" I ask.
"UH… nothing I'm up making sure no Strigoi are in here and keeping an eye out on you and Lissa." He replied.
"Right. Well can you go sit somewhere other than by my bed, its creeping me out?"
He lifted and eye brow which pissed me off, he wasn't going to move he just loved making me mad when he knew everyone thought I was a freak anyway. I rolled my eyes and got out of bed, I walked to the door and grabbed my jacket. "Whatever Dimitri. I'm going for a walk but I'm sure you'll send someone like you usually do to make sure I come back." I said. He didn't really send anyone after me I just make myself think that he would do that if he loved me still. Before he could reply I opened the door and slammed it behind me.
It was a cool day, and the breeze felt nice on my skin. The sun had risen only two hours ago and already it felt like it was afternoon. If only someone was here to talk to me. Adrian and I broke up right after the queen had died, and now he was engaged to some Moroi girl named Samantha Kamahi, she wasn't royal but she was known to be good in bed. Lissa and Christian got married about a month ago and she asked Mia Rinaldi to be her maid of honor. I know it was messed up, she didn't even ask if I wanted to be a bride's maid. That is just rude if you ask me, I was supposed to be her best friend and now all she talks about is being a wife and about Mia. She doesn't even acknowledge that I'm there.
I walked to the edge of the court where the cemetery was. My mother had just recently passed and was buried here. She was guarding her Moroi and a Strigoi broke her neck. I guess I take comfort in knowing that she was the only one who really talked to me and knew how I felt. How I felt about Dimitri and everyone who ignored me, my father talked to me sometimes but he had just moved back to Turkey.
I walked over to my mother's grave and looked at her tomb stone. Engraved on it said, Janine Hathaway, born May 19, 1969—August 12,2011. A brave soul, in a world of soulless nothings, my peace be with you in the land of the lost. I love you mom.
I had told the people who engraved the stone to put that on there. My mother always said that I was a brave soul in a world of soulless nothings. It meant that Strigoi were everywhere in the world and that they have no soul but you are the soul in the Strigoi filled world.
I sat in front of her grave and said, "Hi mom. I miss you. I'm sorry I don't have any flowers this time, but it was kind of sudden. Lissa is still ignoring me and Dimitri is just pissing me off. I wish I could show them that I was a soul in this world; I guess they don't even notice me. I want to run away mom but I know you would just slap me if you were here still. I wish you could send me a sign, anything that would be useful at all." Then I got a thought. My mom only dies about two weeks ago, her spirit should be here still. I just need to get passed the gates and I can see her.
I shot up and ran to the back gate where I was closest to. A guard gave me permission to step outside of the gate for a little while. I ran past him and out of the safety of the wards. I had to see my mother, I just had to. I looked around for a second and out of the corner of my eye I saw her. She was only about three feet to the right of me.
"Mom? I need your help. I don't know what to do." I said to the ghost of my mother.
"Do not worry so much. What do you need help with" she said in a groggy voice that didn't sound anything like her.
"I want to turn mom. That's what it feels like. I can't take it anymore. Dimitri, Lissa, everyone is ignoring me and I can't take it anymore. All they care about is having Dimitri move on to some random girls here at court and I can tell he doesn't like them but they push him anyway. And what about me they don't even realize that they're tearing my heart out with helping him find a girlfriend. They don't even try to help me find a boyfriend! I want to go away forever and show them what it's like to lose someone that was close to you." I said.
"Rosemarie, Lissa does know what it's like to lose a parent and now you do too." I cut her off.
"I wasn't talking about losing you mom, no offence, but I was talking about Dimitri."
"Oh. Well still, you can't turn and you can't run away. If you turn then you will be hunted and you will really lose the love of your life. Dimitri will hate you forever if you turn willingly. And if you runaway, you will be considered a blood whore and a quitter. I dint want that for you Rose."
"But—but… I can't take it anymore! I swear I will get revenge on them I will." I said and walked into the protection of the wards.
Instead of going back to Lissa's queen suite room, with Dimitri and her and Christian, I went to the gym. I didn't want to face them just yet. I walked to the back of the gym even though it was empty. I found a treadmill, and turned on my IPod. I switched it to my favorite song, This Love This Hate, by Hollywood Undead.
As I listened to the music and the lyrics of the song I could tell what Dimitri meant when he told me that my music would give him a headache. I thought of the memory.
~Flashback~
Oh yeah me and Dimitri are going on a trip out of the boringness of the academy!
I walked out of my dorm and ran to the front gate. I was late like usual, and I guess Dimitri knew I would be too, because I always am, and because he reading one of his boring western novels.
"Why do you insist on reading those Comrade?" I asked as I ran up to him.
He smiled and said, "I don't insist on reading anything. And I can see your learning some new words, I've never heard you use the word insist before." He teased.
I stuck my tongue at him and crossed my arms over my chest. "Real mature." He said smiling.
"Yup! You know you love it so stop judging." I said back.
"Come on Roza, we'll be late." I loved it when he call me Roza. I got in the driver seat. Dimitri looked at me and lifted an eye brow. "What are you doing?" he asked.
"Uh… I'm driving comrade."
"Is that so?" he said and I nodded. "Well then if you're going to get the car moving you might want the keys." He smirked and held up the keys.
I went to grab them but he pulled them away from me. I got out of my seat and went for them again but he held them over his head. I couldn't get them he was at least a foot taller than me plus his arms were over his head so that didn't help. I jumped and I tried to grab them but I only slapped his face.
I burst out laughing by the expression on Dimitri's face when I hit him. "Oh sorry comrade but you shouldn't test me." I laughed.
"Passenger seat now Roza." He whispered in my ear.
I obeyed and we headed out of the gates toward our destination. Dimitri turned the radio on to oldies like back in the 80's music.
"Really Dimitri? You could pick a CD that I like or a station I like too." I said and he smiled.
"Get used to it Roza, you'll have to live with it the rest of your life, if we're together. Plus your music will give me a headache."
"What—okay my music is perfectly fine, it's not like its Metallica or something." I protested.
Dimitri just smiled and kissed my lips.
~End of Flashback~
"Earth to Rose! Hey are you listening." A girls voice said.
"Huh? What do you want? Leave me alone." I said to the girl that I couldn't see.
"Uh, I would but the gym is closing. You need to get dome rest in your own bed. Im sure guardian Belikov is tired as well and someone can take his shift."
"Are you saying Dimitri and I are a couple?" I asked.
"Well you guys do share a room together. And I don't mean the queens room I mean the guardian rooms." Said the girl.
"Fine I'll go but Dimitri and I are NOT a couple. We haven't been together for like five months." I said and walked out of the gym to mine and Dimitri's room. We only shared a room because all the other rooms were taken and since everyone knows we have a history they thought it would be good for us to share a room. That means beds and everything.
I unlocked the door and walked to the bathroom. I needed a shower after a workout. I checked the house and Dimitri wasn't there. Good. I thought. I didn't want to see him it was hard enough to share a job with him but it was worse to live in the same place.
I wiped the steam off the mirror and dried my hair. It had grown and I was thinking about cutting it just to make Dimitri mad, since he liked it long. I looked around the bathroom. I forgot to grab the clothes I put on the bed. Shit! I hope Dimitri still isn't here. I could not make a fool of myself, and by telling him I forgot my clothes in our room, I would become a fool.
I opened the bathroom door and stuck my head out. I didn't see anyone. I wrapped the towel tighter around me and bolted to the bedroom. I shut the door behind me, the only thing that bugs me is that the door doesn't have a lock. I didn't want to bother running back to the bathroom, so I threw by towel on the floor and walked over to my dresser. I pulled out a bra and panties. I had just put my panties on when I heard the bedroom door handle turn.
Fuck! HE's back!
I looked for the towel but I couldn't find it. The door swung open and I didn't have time to cover myself. Dimitri stood in the doorway with his mouth hanging open. There I was only in my panties and my boobs were showing.
I had to say something! This was getting strange. I said the first thing that came to my mind. A Rose Hathaway response to what just happened. "You see something you like comrade?" I hadn't called him comrade in over seven months.
"Uh… well…. i…. I'm…." Dimitri stuttered. And I turned beat red. He was still staring at me!