Ocean

It's midnight's late reminder of
The loss of her, the one I love
My will to quickly end it all//

A/N: So these are all just random ideas that buzz around my head but I have no where to use them so they shall go in here. Like drabbles. Anyway, this one is sad, so be warned Haha. Guess who it is, cause it doesn't actually say :D

Sometimes it feels just like I'm falling in the ocean
Let the waves up take me down
Let the hurricane set in motion... yeah
Let the rain of what I feel right now...//

It wasn't happy. And that was the only way I could ever try to explain it.

The smile that met me on that sandy beach was not from the same face I had fallen in love with. The easy smile was not there, the hazel eyes full of promises had left, fleeting like one of the birds flying high above us.

I felt my ready smile slip, knowing something had happened. Something had changed, and it wasn't just the change of us defeating Cronus.

She had changed and all the late night promises we had once whispered to each other faded in my ears.

"I'm not sure anymore."

And that was all the words she said. All she said that made my heart bend and crack.

As the wave washed up, not close enough to touch my sandy feet, I felt my life slipping away. I felt change come; I felt everything I had gotten used to, everything I knew slip away from me, like the salt water that kept receding.

I turned away, only for an instant to remember the security I had felt. I thought nothing could change it. How could seven teenagers defeat the God of Time? I had fooled myself into believing that I was there, and it would never end. But when it did, I did not feel relief as expected.

I felt lost, and everything inside me ripped away, leaving me with new sensations and new opportunities.

Like a future with her. The only thing I wanted.

Was I even sure though? Was that feeling still there, as it had been on our late nights sneaking out to see each other?

I didn't know, but how could I say no to her, with her beautiful clouded hazel eyes and challenging nature.

"What about the promises?" I whispered, more out of confusion than pain.

I felt strangely empty, and dry.

I heard her voice choke slightly, "I meant them. I still want all those things."

My heart didn't thump, my breath didn't catch.

"I still love you." She said, her eyes finally turning clear onto mine.

Now I was confused. I didn't know what to say. Should I tell her that I would die for her, but didn't know if I could love her, stay with her?

Should I tell her that my heart didn't seem to be living anymore?

Cronus owned it like he owned our lives. He destroyed us, our humanity and the loves we could have had.

I turned to her, "There is nothing I wouldn't do for you."

It was the closest to the truth I could come without breaking her. She was so fragile, despite her strong appearance.

And then the smile finally came, the smile I loved, that I really would die for.

But it turned sad, which made me angry. Why couldn't she just keep smiling at me!?

"Then let me leave. I just need to see other things. Let me go." She pleaded, "I have to grow up before I can belong to you."

And then I realized that she was leaving and I had never kissed her, not really. That was why I couldn't let her go.

So I swooped down on her, capturing her mouth and holding her to me for all I was worth.

It was one brief moment of complete clarity. I needed to leave too. She was right. But that one kiss had kept me here too long. It had been what I first wanted, since the time I saw her, and what I wanted now.

But I had it and nothing was holding me anymore.

"Go." I said decisively, pushing my heart into the back of my chest where maybe she could revive it one day. Nothing would hold me here.

She walked away and didn't look back.

I smiled, and finally I realized what her smile had been. The smile I couldn't describe at the beginning.

It had been relief.

And loss.

The smile stayed on my face as I walked into the dreaded waves of water. I would face my fears, I would grow up.

And maybe one day I would feel the sleek pounding of my heart, as she smiled at me.

Maybe I would not need the rhythmic pounding of the waves against me to remind me of what I had lost.

But until then the dark, salty depths nourished my dry forsaken soul, and covered my eyes until the bright sun didn't blind it. Until I didn't think about my future, or her or my heart.

I didn't think at all.

I just drifted and let it cover me, take me and hold me up.

// Something Kept Me Here Too Long, You Can't Leave Me If I'm Already Gone //

A/N: Well, the first of much randomness. Hope it wasn't too depressing fo you. There was so many lyrics I like for this one, so I stuck them everywhere haha. Review!

How can one man stop his ending
I thought of just your face
Relaxed, and floated into space//