So I'm back! If anyone still cares. Lol I decided to write a Leah Fanfic from post break up. So many fanfics make her so angsty and mad. I wanted to do something less depressing. Obviously she's still mad as shit but less dark outwardly. Not too OOC for Leah (There really isn't a lot to go off of for her).
Leah P.O.V
"We are not the same persons this year as last; nor are those we love. It is a happy chance if we, changing, continue to love a changed person". - W. Somerset Maugham
Sam changed. Not just physically but internally. I knew a break up was inevitable. We were no longer the same people we used to be. I changed too. I no longer wanted to stay in LaPush I want to move to a major city like Chicago or New York City. None of that would be possible with Sam. He loved LaPush especially since his disappearance a few months back.
Even though I knew it was coming it still hurt like a bitch. Regardless of how much we changed I still loved him with all my heart. It's been a week since we broke up but it still feels like it was yesterday. Sam came over claiming he wanted to talk. We went down to the cliffs to talk since Seth had friends over at the house.
We stared at each other for a while till Sam finally spoke. "Lee lee you know I love you right" oh. God here it comes. "Yeah Sam I know". He kept avoiding eye contact. He looked everywhere but at me. "I don't think us is a good idea anymore". He said while pointing between us. "What do you mean? I'm confused". I lied. I knew exactly what he meant but I wanted him to actually say it. Sam finally looked me in the eye "I want to break up". I could tell from the look in his eye that there was someone else. Sam might have changed but I still knew him like the back of my hand. "Ok that's fine". I walked away.
I felt Sam's eyes on my back as I walked away. Deep down I wanted him to come after me. To say he still loved me but he didn't. I wanted nothing more than to cry, yell, scream, punch him but I refused. That would be weak. One thing my Daddy taught me was never let a man see you cry. No matter how much it hurt I refused to let it show.
When I got back home I was the only one there. Apparently Seth and his friends had moved their nerd fest to someone else's house and tonight was Mom and Dad's "date night". I was glad no one was home I was free to cry in privacy. I went to my room and cried and cried till my eyes literally burned. As cliché as it sounds I watched cheesy love movies, ate ice cream and other fating snacks, and cried some more.
Thank God for the fact that school is starting back up. Move in day at USC is in 8 days and I can't wait to get away from here. This break up is will be a lot easier not having to see him all the time. I was going to a college in Seattle my freshman year but now that I'm not with Sam I feel like I have nothing really holding me back.
So yeah this is starting off super slow! I just wanted to establish the set up first before I get things going. It will definitely pick up next chapter. And yes Leah will be a shape shifter in this story if you guys were wondering! :)