Love. They it's the best feeling in the world. It's unconditional and
undying. The ULTIMATE happiness. However, they never talk about how much it
can hurt. All the pain you go through and how it never really goes away. They
don't ever mention heartbreakes or anything of the sort. Just happiness and
cluelessness. Well them. All of them. They don't know what real love is
and they never will. I know because I've been through that. Hell, I'm still
dealing with all the problems of love. Everday I go through the heartache and
the heartbrake. The sorrow and the anger. The bitterness and the depression.
Why? Because I fell in love...
With Kai Hiwatari.
Yeah, you heard right. I fell for the big bad himself. How? I have no clue. I all happened the first time I saw him. I was down by the riverbank, and there he was standing on the hill above me in all his glory. When we met again at the finals, my heart went wild. At the time I didn't know what this feeling was. It was all new to me. I had never felt like this about anyone before. Still I paid no mind to it.
Everytime he talked to me, mostly when I had done something wrong or stupid which was all the time, my heart raced and I had butterflies in my stomach. But he never really talked to me. More like yelled, or tried to strangle me. If only he knew that I did all those things just to impress him. I so desperately wanted him to be nice to me. Just once, that's all I ask. That couldn't be the hardest thing to do.
It was when we were in Russia that he began to loosen up around us. And when I finally realized that I loved him. Of course, I didn't tell anyone. What would they think of me? But most importanatly, what would Kai think of me? See my dilema? Yeah well, your gonna love this. That wasn't my only problem. You
see, during the Russian Tournament, it seemed as though Kai and Ray were closer than Kai was to rest of us Bladebreakers. It broke my heart. Always seeing them together, acting friendly, and stuff. I don't think Kai has ever yeeled at Ray either. I remember that I began to think that something was going on between them. I started to feel hurt and betrayed. I hid behind a mask a false happiness. I was jealous. But not only that, I was scared. Scared of losing my love to one of my friends.
Hope you liked it so far.
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I own a lot of thanks to dark-phoenix-loves-kai who helped me a lot with these.