A month after the war, everyone was mourning the loss of Edward , who died in the battle against the Volturi , everyone was starting to accept his death and live with it despite the pain his loss was causing each day they would see Renesmee , who was the spitting image of her father.
But Bella's case was the worst , she would stay at The Cullen's staring at the piano Edward played and taught Renesmee how to . She would sit in the chair and face the piano and stay in that position the whole day , not caring about anything ,even Renesmee who , luckily was being taken care of by Rosalie . She would not cry or even blink, just stare at the piano sitting still.
Everyone was worried about her . So , one day , her father and her husband's family who was pretty much her family and Jacob , of course sat around her and started trying to get her to look at at least one of them , but when she showed no sign of interest , Jacob started speaking :
" _Bella ,I know you're devastated and lonely without Edward but as a friend , I'm telling you to let him go ". If looks could kill, Jacob would already be dead by now , by the angry look Bella finally gave him , he knew that she didn't think the same . But he continued anyway . " I know you two had something and shared a love nobody could ever have . Love at first sight is what I would describe the moment you set eyes on each other even thought I wasn't there but I know that It was for sure. I also know that it's very hard for you to accept the fact that he's gone but you can't live like this forever ? Edward , will always love you , he will always look after you from where he is . I know I never stood a chance against him but he wouldn't want you to be like this, he would want you to move on , and sooner or later , you have to no matter how hard it is . He would want you to take care of Renesmee like he would've . Even thought I can't read minds , I know for a fact , that you loved him like nobody ever loved but he's gone now . "After saying that , Jacob stood up , opened the door and d ran away .
Carlisle decided to speak next after that confession , reaching out to Bella througt his words :
" Bella, I am aware , like Jacob and all of us , that Edward is the love of your life vampire or human , now he's your guardian . The only thing I'm certain of is that he wouldn't want you to ruin your vampire life because of him . You are the woman that got Edward to stop believing that he is a monster,you were the light in his dark path and for that he'll forever be grateful to you . Keeping each other in the heart is what you always did no matter how far the distance and it shouldn't be this hard but don't forget to move on"he said calmly looking at Bella who was now fuming with anger .
-"You have no idea what you're talking about , nobody can understand what is happening , do you know why I stay here everyday ? Because every day , I have this hope that maybe , he'll walk through that door and I'm angry at him , I hate him for leaving me here and I know it's not by choice but you have no idea how much it hurts , I lost my soulmate, something any of you have ever experienced . Look at you , you're all safe and you have the one person you love in this hell of a world by your side, well I don't and you can't understand that , you can't understand that so don't you dare talk about him ". For the first time in 30 days, Bella stood up and ran away like Jacob just a few moments ago.
Bella was sitting in the spot where she and Edward spent so many special moments , she staring at the ground and out of the blue, tears started flowing down her cheeks . For the first time in what she felt was forever , she allowed herself to be weak just this once :
" – I love you Edward , you know I do , I made that very clear right here and still you left me . You jerk , I miss you so much , I don't wanna go throught this without you . Do you remember the last time you left me alone like this . I almost died just to be near you . How do you think I'll keep living with the fact that you're gone forever . How? You tell me since you were supposed to stay and live with Renesmee forever after . Why did you have to go so soon . I told you that you are what makes me strong and now that I lost you, I have no strength anymore . Come back , please come back !".She started hitting the ground when she suddenly felt her body being lifted by a strong one , she kept fighting and it was useless against the strength of Emmett .
"No, no ! Don't! Please, if I don't – "She kept moving but it was useless , all her anger came along with her sadness, and all the emotions were coming back and she felt utterly helpless, she felt weak after feeling so numb for a long time.
"Bella , nobody told you but we buried Edward , we didn't burn him like everyone else , we wanted to keep his remains buried so that anyone could visit him" Carlisle explained but seeing the look on Bella's face shut him up .
"Where is he ?" . Grief and anger were battling for dominance inside of her as she waited impatiently to hear the answer.
"I'll take you there , the rest of you stay here , Bella follow me ".Esmee took off with Bella behind her as the others watched them go.