The Last Night.
She has to get to her mom. She has to. She has failed many people before, even her mother, and she doesn't want to fail her anymore. Not her.
Alaska Young had not had a happy life.
Every since her mother died, Alaska had been in a constant state of self-loathing and feeling incredibly guilty, and, the way she saw it, she kept deceiving people—especially her friends. She hadn't been joking when she'd told Pudge that she smoked to die. Dying had always had a strange appeal to her.
And yet she'd never really considered it as a way of freeing herself from the Labyrinth, until it hit her one day, after they'd flooded her room. She'd written it down. Straight and fast.
Alaska knows she is drunk, and that she probably shouldn't be driving, but she doesn't care. She's not going to fail her mother once more.
And then she sees it. The truck, the cops, and two thoughts cross her mind.
Thought number one: If I manage to squeeze the car past the cops, I can get to her.
Thought number two: I've already missed the anniversary anyway. I'm a terrible daughter... That's it. I'm doing it.
Because she's furious, she hates herself, and she doesn't see the point in living anymore. She steps on the accelerator and drives.
And as her last words leave her mouth, she realizes the reason she had really moved forward. But as it all fades away, she realizes that it doesn't really matter. She will be with her mother again.
Whichever the real reason she'd done it, the driving fast towards a cops car, it doesn't really matter, now that she isn't. Now that she's out of the Labyrinth for good. And she hadn't been wrong about that. Straight and fast really was the way out of the Labyrinth, after all.
A/N: I usually put my A/Ns at the beginning but this is an exception, I guess. While writing this I didn't want to take away the ambiguity in the novel, about whether Alaska committed suicide or not, and this technically confirms both of the theories, and leaves both her last words and what she was really thinking when she drove to her death the same way the novel does. I don't know why I did this. Probably because of the aftershock. The book is... Incredible. Hard to describe in one word and even though this drabble probably doesn't make it justice, I wanted to write it anyway, and I did. I did get some help from a friend of mine to make it less... Well, OOC. So, here you go. I hope it wasn't too OOC, and that you liked it, even a little bit. Thanks for reading!