Title: Here With Me
Summary: Lily notices that James has changed and realizes she loves him,
though she won't admit it. Will they get together? Read and find out.
It's been a long, long time since I looked into the mirror
I guess that I was blind
Now my reflection's getting clearer
Now that you're gone things will never be the same again
Lily sat on her bed absently playing with her hair. A large mirror sat across from her. Her green eyes were staring into those of her reflection, but she found was confusion. Recently James Potter, a formerly annoying admirer, had sopped asking for her affections. In fact he hardly seemed to notice her at all. For years she had dreamed of this and now she was dreaming of the way it used to be. A single tear slipped down her cheek and she did not bother to wipe it away.
There's not a minute that goes by every hour of every day
You're such a part of me
But I just pulled away
Well, I'm not the same girl
you used to know
I wish I said the words I never showed
She couldn't understand why he occupied her thoughts this way. She was avoiding the only possible answer with all of her might. Soon she was up and wandering the numerous halls of the castle. Inside of her was a hidden hope to bump into him. Each laugh around the corner belonged to him. Each shadow was his image. The school was large and with every step more hope of finding him was lost. It seemed that he would never appear. Her stepped grew shorter and slower.
I know you had to go away
I died just a little, and I feel it now
You're the one I need
I believe that I would cry just a little
Just to have you back now
Here with me
Here with me
She thought of the first time she had noticed his change. She had been sitting by the lake and James had come walking out of the castle. He had spotted her and jogged over. "Hey," he had said breathlessly. Lily only nodded half-heartedly, she was sure that her peace would soon be interrupted with his constant attempts to woo her. She had prepared to jump up the moment it started, but it never came. He just sat with her staring into the water. Some thing about the way he looked at her had changed that day.
You know that silence is loud When all you hear is your heart
And I wanted so badly Just to be a part Of something strong and true
But I was scared And left it all behind
The quiet of the corridor was getting to her. She wanted to hear his voice. She wanted to hear the way he used to call her name. Even if it did mean going back to the irritation of his obsession with her she couldn't think of anything better. A deep voice laughed somewhere up ahead and suddenly he was there, joking with his friends. He came closer and closer as Lily watched him. He smiled at her when he passed and Lily was once again disappointed. "James." His name echoed in the space. He turned and looked at her curiously. She wished desperately that his eyes would recover their old warmth. "Umm...hi," was her genius reply. He chuckled and continued on his way. Lily was left wanting to cry.
I know you had to go away
I died just a little, and I feel it now
You're the one I need
I believe that I would cry just a little
Just to have you back now
Here with me
Here with me
She blinked back tears and took the long way to the common room. The paintings that hung around her whispered as she moped by. She was used to the whispers though. Her fellow students had been spreading rumors about her sorrowful state. She was under a hex, her family had been hurt, she had gotten a bad grade. None even came close to the answer that was so obvious to Lily.
And I'm asking
And I'm wanting you to come back to me
Please?
I never will forget that look upon
your face
How you turned away and left
without a trace
But I understand that you did what you had to do
And I thank you
By the time she was back in the common room she had decided she needed to do something about it. Talk to him, anything. Solutions ran through her head as she entered the warm empty room. The fireplace was going, but she was nearly shivering. A door above her opened and James came walking down the boy's stairs. She walked up to him, standing in his path. He stopped in front of her and she stepped closer. His hazel eyes were blank. She had never noticed how deep they were before, but she had never really taken the time to notice anything about him. Their bodies moved closer with every step Lily took. They were almost touching when she halted. She hardly knew what she was doing as she pulled his lips down to her's.
I know you had to go away
I died just a little, and I feel it now
You're the one I need
I believe that I would cry just a little
Just to have you back now
Here with me
Here with me
When she pulled away and looked back into his eyes they looked sad, lonely, and resistant. She couldn't make out what might be flowing through his mind. She had thought this had been his wish for years. Them together. Not fighting. He strode out wordlessly and she knew she must have been mistaken. He didn't look back at her as he climbed out of the portrait. It felt to her as if he was leaving forever.
It's been a long, long time since I looked into the mirror
I guess that I was blind
Now my reflection's getting clearer
Now that you're gone things will never be the same again
Lily sat on her bed absently playing with her hair. A large mirror sat across from her. Her green eyes were staring into those of her reflection, but she found was confusion. Recently James Potter, a formerly annoying admirer, had sopped asking for her affections. In fact he hardly seemed to notice her at all. For years she had dreamed of this and now she was dreaming of the way it used to be. A single tear slipped down her cheek and she did not bother to wipe it away.
There's not a minute that goes by every hour of every day
You're such a part of me
But I just pulled away
Well, I'm not the same girl
you used to know
I wish I said the words I never showed
She couldn't understand why he occupied her thoughts this way. She was avoiding the only possible answer with all of her might. Soon she was up and wandering the numerous halls of the castle. Inside of her was a hidden hope to bump into him. Each laugh around the corner belonged to him. Each shadow was his image. The school was large and with every step more hope of finding him was lost. It seemed that he would never appear. Her stepped grew shorter and slower.
I know you had to go away
I died just a little, and I feel it now
You're the one I need
I believe that I would cry just a little
Just to have you back now
Here with me
Here with me
She thought of the first time she had noticed his change. She had been sitting by the lake and James had come walking out of the castle. He had spotted her and jogged over. "Hey," he had said breathlessly. Lily only nodded half-heartedly, she was sure that her peace would soon be interrupted with his constant attempts to woo her. She had prepared to jump up the moment it started, but it never came. He just sat with her staring into the water. Some thing about the way he looked at her had changed that day.
You know that silence is loud When all you hear is your heart
And I wanted so badly Just to be a part Of something strong and true
But I was scared And left it all behind
The quiet of the corridor was getting to her. She wanted to hear his voice. She wanted to hear the way he used to call her name. Even if it did mean going back to the irritation of his obsession with her she couldn't think of anything better. A deep voice laughed somewhere up ahead and suddenly he was there, joking with his friends. He came closer and closer as Lily watched him. He smiled at her when he passed and Lily was once again disappointed. "James." His name echoed in the space. He turned and looked at her curiously. She wished desperately that his eyes would recover their old warmth. "Umm...hi," was her genius reply. He chuckled and continued on his way. Lily was left wanting to cry.
I know you had to go away
I died just a little, and I feel it now
You're the one I need
I believe that I would cry just a little
Just to have you back now
Here with me
Here with me
She blinked back tears and took the long way to the common room. The paintings that hung around her whispered as she moped by. She was used to the whispers though. Her fellow students had been spreading rumors about her sorrowful state. She was under a hex, her family had been hurt, she had gotten a bad grade. None even came close to the answer that was so obvious to Lily.
And I'm asking
And I'm wanting you to come back to me
Please?
I never will forget that look upon
your face
How you turned away and left
without a trace
But I understand that you did what you had to do
And I thank you
By the time she was back in the common room she had decided she needed to do something about it. Talk to him, anything. Solutions ran through her head as she entered the warm empty room. The fireplace was going, but she was nearly shivering. A door above her opened and James came walking down the boy's stairs. She walked up to him, standing in his path. He stopped in front of her and she stepped closer. His hazel eyes were blank. She had never noticed how deep they were before, but she had never really taken the time to notice anything about him. Their bodies moved closer with every step Lily took. They were almost touching when she halted. She hardly knew what she was doing as she pulled his lips down to her's.
I know you had to go away
I died just a little, and I feel it now
You're the one I need
I believe that I would cry just a little
Just to have you back now
Here with me
Here with me
When she pulled away and looked back into his eyes they looked sad, lonely, and resistant. She couldn't make out what might be flowing through his mind. She had thought this had been his wish for years. Them together. Not fighting. He strode out wordlessly and she knew she must have been mistaken. He didn't look back at her as he climbed out of the portrait. It felt to her as if he was leaving forever.