1000 no kotoba (1000 words)
Songfic: Hitomi/Van
Hello there reading my fic! Sorry if I didn't have or write any fics. Well now I'm back. Gomen for keeping you all waiting for me to wirte some new fics.
Ok so here's an Escaflowne fic with a Final Fantasy X-2 song, "1000 no kotoba" sung by Koda Kumi.
Again the disclaimer, I don't own the song nor the characters.
"Why did you make me believe that you were gonna be with me?" Hitomi asked.
"I just…" Van was trying to look for words to explain. However, he could think of nothing.
"Why Van? Why?" Hitomi started to cry.
Van just looked at her. He felt guilty.
"Hitomi, this is not your fault. This was my choice to leave you."
"If I didn't do anything wrong then why did this happen to us?!"
"I'm sorry."
"Sorry? Do you think 'sorry' will fix everything?"
"No, but I hope it would."
"I HATE YOU VAN!" She screamed and started to hurt Van by trying to slap him.
Van hugged her tightly. Both were melancholic. Both were just confused.
"I know Hitomi that we can't be friends after this but I hope we'll still be."
"I hope so." Hitomi whispered while being in Van's arms.
After eight months….
(Message sent)
Hi! How are you?=)
"I keep sending these stupid SMS but why won't he answer them?" Hitomi asked herself.
On the other side of things…
(Message Received)
"Again…" Van sighed. As soon as he read that the SMS was from Hitomi, he didn't bother to read it and deleted it immediately.
Eight months, that's how long Hitomi tried to get back and forget Van at the same time. Some would call it infatuation but actually it is love. For some you would let go of that person if you truly love him or her. What if you can't let go of that person?
The song begins…
Kimi no kotoba wa
Yume no yasashisa kana
"Dear Diary, it hurts but why do I still love him?" Hitomi writing an entry.
Uso wo zenbu
Oikakushiteru
Zurui yo ne
"What a liar?! Frineds? He doesn't even want to talk"
Tabidatsu kimi ni
Sameta senaka misete
Kiiteita yo
Hitori tatakau no?
Zurui yo ne
At the park, everything seemed cheerful except for Hitomi. She still keeps on thinking about Van all this time.
Kaettekuru kara
Oikoshiteyuku kimi no koe
Iji hatte
"We'll still be friends, right?"
"Sure, Hitomi…"
Hitomi reminiscing the time of their break-up.
Tsuyoi furi
Toki wo modoshite
Sakebeba yokatta?
Ikanai de to namida koboshitara?
Ima wa dekiru
Donna koto mo
"Hitomi, don't blame yourself."
"Then answer me why."
"I can't explain. Sorry."
"Then you shouldn't have loved me instead."
"I really loved you. Please believe in me"
Ienakatta
1000 no kotoba wa
Haruka na
Kimi no senaka ni okuru yo
Tsubasa ni kaete
"I wonder if he's okay." Hitomi worried about Van. "Maybe I should call him. I'm sure it is alright to call."
Ienakatta
1000 no kotoba wa
Kizutsuita
Kimi no senaka ni yorisoi
Dakishimeru
Van rejected the call from Hitomi.
"I'm sorry. I want to forget you."
Van, as if talking to Hitomi.
"I hope that you'll understand why I want to."
Yume no tsuduki wa
Kimi wo omoinagara
Ano hi no koto
Wasureta furishite
Zurui yo ne
Hitomi watches the stars at night to see if there will be a sign.
That sign is, a sign Van will come back. She starts to cry but tries no to.
Tegami wo kaku kara
Shisen sorashita kimi no koe
Iji hatte
Tsuyoi furi
"You don't answer my calls. You don't even bother to reply my SMS." Hitomi getting angrier. "Friends, huh? What the hell?"
Toki wo modoshite
Okoreba yokatta?
Matenai yo to kata yo otoshitara
Ima wa dekiru
Donna koto mo
"I want to know why you left me." Hitomi crying.
"You never explained enough. Just a…a simple sorry, a reason that you just didn't love me no more."
Kikoeteru?
1000 no kotoba wa
Mienai
Kimi no senaka ni okuru yo
Tsubasa ni kaete
"Hey, let's go dance over there." A friend of Hitomi called.
At least she's trying to have fun.
"Ok! Wait! Let's call the others."
Coincidentally, Van was also there. Hitomi didn't notice him wearing a white shirt. She and her friend was in front of him. Both never expected to meet after all these months. But when Hitomi looked back to call her friends, she and Van were stunned to see each other.
Kikoeteru?
Van suddenly hurried to leave. Hitomi tried to regain her senses and then started to sob. Luckily, Hitomi's friends were there to help her. They even wanted to beat the hell out of Van for being such a jerk.
1000 no kotoba wa
Tsukareta
Hitomi tried to follow Van but she failed to reach him.
Kimi no senaka ni yorisoi
Dakishimeru
"You know he's a coward. He can't even try to face you." On of Hitomi's friends cheered her.
You're right. I guess he's trying to hide from me. I'm better than him."
Ienakatta
1000 no kotoba wa
After a few days, Hitomi analyzed the incident.
"I guess he doesn't have a reason at all."
Lalalala….
Kimi no senaka ni okuru yo
Tsubakasa ni kaete
"I wish that he would tell me why. I can't let him go until he tells me everything."
Kikoeteru
1000 no kotoba wa
Lalala…
"I love you, Van. Yet, I also hate you."
Kimi no senaka ni yorisoi
Lalalala….
"Hope you get a good karma for this." Hitomi wished. "I really want to forget you but you won't let me."
THE END
How sad but true. This kind of situation can leave you in a slump. You still have to go on. Your unanswered questions will be answered in words or in signs.