A/N: I don't own them. Sorry for wrong grammars and errors.
Since you've joined Glee and Football, your feelings went stronger, stronger than Rachel's and Quinn's, your feelings for Finn. And after the Ballad assignment, he just can't get out of your head. You've tried to forget him, but you just can't.
"Kurt" He called you. Your instincts told you not to turn around and face him, or just ignore him so you can easily move on. But you still faced him. You even smiled at him. "I've won gift certificates from a clothing store yesterday. Since you're into, you know, fashion… I just… well, I thought maybe I could spend this with you" His words melted your heart. You said yes, but after he walked away, you wanted to get your words back. Why he needs to be so gracious and friendly… and cute?
You're now in the clothing store he mentioned last time, in the dressing room, to be specific. The clothes are great, you want them, but the fact that you're shopping with Finn, alone, with no chaperones or the likes, distracts you a lot. His eyes, his smile, his lips, his body frame—everything in him is perfection.
"Hey Kurt, are you alright? You seem… distracted" Well, he is distracted by you.
"No… it's… it's nothing, nothing, really…" Why you need to be a guy? If you're born a girl, you might already kiss those lips. And before you knew it, your lips are over his. His lips are soft. And it's kinda surreal. But it doesn't feel good, most likely to him. Finn didn't pull back. But he's not moving because he's surprised. You're the one who broke the kiss, your first kiss.
"I'm..." The words follow after it is scarcely hearable. You're crying. And it sucks because you're in front of Finn Hudson. "I'm so sorry…" You said quickly before getting out of the store. You ran as fast as possible and went directly to the comfort room. And there, you continued shedding tears. When you already have enough courage to put your head up, you almost yell to see his reflection on the mirror. He followed you. His face doesn't show any clue on what he's about to say. He's… emotionless.
"Kurt…" But the tone of his voice when he said your name scares you a lot. "I know that you like me. That you have a huge crush on me" You feel like falling at your feet. You burst into tears again.
"I love you Finn…" That's going to be your last words to him, but he grabs your arm before you can even let yourself get out of his sight. "Finn… Please…" You wish with a shaky voice. But he didn't let go. Instead, he pulled you and put you in a hug. However, it still doesn't feel good. He's hugging you as a friend, not more than that. You knew it. Because you don't want to assume anymore, that he will reciprocate your feelings.
"I'm… I'm sorry…" The words made your tears flow faster and heavier. He let go, finally, and you ran as swift as you can, without him waiting for more words to come out of his mouth.
Thank you, Finn, thanks for the memories you've shared with me. You thought while running and crying.
Kurt… He thought. I should've just said it…I'm sorry because I accidentally found out about your secret… I'm sorry… because… I didn't even get to show you how important to me that secret is…