It's not my problem :)
Okay so it wasn't my problem, yeah I know that but I can't just stand back and let them thugs break in to Chez Chez can I? See Doug thinks that it's about Brendan but it's not, I mean its Cheryl init, she's my friend and she's been through so much hasn't she? She can do without this. As for Brendan, well he can look after himself can't he? He doesn't need help, especially from me.
Calling Cheryl seemed the best thing to do, plus she still owns a little bit of the club. I didn't call Brendan because he probably wouldn't have answered; I thought that he might have been busy. It wasn't because I didn't want to hear his voice or anything; I mean what reason would I have for that? Things between us are good and I have no problem in speaking to him now, not like before.
I was a witness to a crime, I had to speak to the police and make sure that the club was going to be safe, I had a duty after all. I mean if Brendan or Cheryl saw someone breaking into the Deli, they wouldn't walk away; they would do exactly the same as me, Brendan would probably break their legs actually, but that's just the way he is.
Date night was ruined and it was all my fault, but it didn't matter really, I mean we always had tomorrow, or the next night, or even the next night after that. When did I become so boring? Doug is always moaning at me lately and he is obsessed with Brendan. I've broken his heart and robbed eighty grand off of him and he is convinced I'm still in love with him.
It's normal to think of your ex's isn't it? Brendan was a big part of my life; we have a lot of history together. It's only natural that he would cross my mind most days. I'm sure Doug still thinks of Bex. Of course I feel protective over Chez Chez, I used to work there, that place holds a lot of memories for me. Some of the memories I will never forget and most importantly never want to forget.
We see each more often because our paths cross more now; there is always something with us, you know that brings us together. Like fate. It doesn't mean anything though, does it? I think I just feel bonded to him because he was my first real love and yeah that will never change. I can't lie, it is the way it is.
The fact of the matter is Doug will never be able to accept my past with Brendan and until today I thought everything with him was dead and gone, but I now know it's not. It takes someone breaking in to the club for me to realize that I still have feelings for the man. What is that all about?
What do I do about my unresolved feelings? I know he feels the same. We have so much unfinished business together, but I have just ignored it. Where is he? He's away and I don't even know where he's gone and all of a sudden I want to know and I have to know.
So is it an accident that I always seem to be involved with him and his life? Do we subconsciously make these things happen so that we can just be together and spend some time alone with each other? I know the answer, my heart knows the answer. He is my one true love, which means that it will always be my problem…he will always be my problem…end of.
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