A/N: It sort of contains SPOILERS. I've been snowed in my house for quite a while now. I've been bored now for a while too so I thought I would write something about Akito, so here you go.
Disclaimer: I don't own Fruits Basket.
Silent Suffering
I am all alone here,
In the dark forever lost.
They think I'm harsh and cruel,
But the truth is that I am afraid of rejection.
I am afraid that they will love,
And push me away.
So I hold closer than I should,
And that makes them hate me instead.
All I want is for them to like me,
But I can't show that.
I am forever suffering,
Here in the silence of the night.
The darkness is so comforting,
And it matches my pain.
I let the tears fall down,
Only when no one is watching.
I want to show them kindness,
But the fear of losing them is far too great.
When they came to me only wanting my permission to love,
I end up hurting them and telling them no.
I believed that you can only love one person,
And that person must be me.
I am forever suffering,
Here in the silence of the night.
I locked the cat away,
For he was my first friend and I am afraid he will leave.
I hurt the Honda girl,
I thought she was trying to take them away from me.
I often wondered how they could love her,
Yet they couldn't seem to be able to love me.
It was far too late,
When I finally saw the truth.
I didn't pull them closer,
I only ended up pushing them further away.
Now I am here crying all alone,
I guess my mom won the bet after all.
I am forever suffering,
Here in the silence of the night.
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