Everyone always says love is such a wonderful thing but honestly, it can be a hard thing to put yourself through. If you're in mutual love, then there only few issues. The problem comes when one loves more than another. The one cares more and thinks about the other person more and worries more and it is uneven. The person who doesn't love the other as much may not understand why their lover does what they do. Why they may be constantly checking up on them. Why they may be talking to them so much. Why they may be spending every second possible with them. Loving someone more than they love you makes you feel like you've done something wrong, like you aren't enough, like you shouldn't even try. Severe pain comes from not feeling worthy of love. Self-esteem gets low, confidence disappears, and you become more quiet because you don't want to say or do anything to push the person you love to the edge. I love too much and I care too much, often times in wish I didn't. I should be putting myself through the pain of not being what I want to be for her, but I love her and no matter how bad this hurts, it will not change the fact that I want her to be happy.