Some days, I miss you Alfred.
I think back to the days when everything is fine and nothing had changed. I think back to the days that you weren't gone, dispersed in the wind. I try my hardest to keep on going on, but my heart yearns for you. I find it hard to continue without you. I miss you more then anything.
I remember the lazy days we spent in bed, smiling as if we were children at a candy store. I loved your smile, it was the only thing I woke up for; it was a wonderful thing. Too bad it has gone to the curb. I would have liked to seen that smile one more time before you left, but wishes seldom come true. Hoping has gotten me no where, yet I sit here and wait for you, as if you were coming back.
Alfred, I miss everything about you. I miss your skin, your smell, your smile, the way you kissed my forehead, your personality, and most of all, I miss your love. It was the only thing that kept me from dispersing all of those years ago. It kept me alive when nothing else could. It made me happier than the world to know that I had someone to depend on, after all of these years.
Remember Valentines Day? I loved that day; you would always buy me thousands of roses and I didn't know what to do with them. I loved it, although I didn't exactly like the smell of roses ever again. I can bear it though.
I thought of something this year that you might like; it isn't much, but I bought you something. It is a ring. I promised you all of those years ago that one day I would marry you; well, I'm sorry love; you have to wait a little while longer. Just wait for me dearest and we can marry when we see each other.
Ah, well, I bought you chocolate this year. I thought you would like them; they're milk chocolate. You love that kind. I also bought you a bear this year; its not real, don't worry, but it's like that stuff animal you won me five years ago. I'm going to put them next to each other, so when you visit the house, you can see how happy they are together.
So, if you don't mind, I thought we could spend time together on Valentines day. I have a whole day planned out. We'll have a picnic, talk, eat, spend time with each other, and most importantly, I'll buy you flowers this year. I think it is just enough. You don't mind, do you? I know you really didn't like me spending my money on you, but I just thought it would be nice to repay you for all of the things you have done for me.
Well, my love, I have to go, but I'll be back tomorrow. Don't wait up for me. I'll be here early. I have the day off. I'll bring you some flowers tomorrow. I think the lilies are grown; I'll bring them tomorrow. I'll see you tomorrow; I love you Alfred; I'll see you in only a few hours. I promise I will make your afterlife bearable once I get there, but I have a while before I do; be patient, alright? I'll be back tomorrow; I love you with all of my heart Alfred. Now, I must really be going.
Author's Note: This is a late Valentines day thing. I apologize.