The first time he saw her die tore him apart inside. The second time he saw her die he had felt the same. In the same time period he had saw her die exactly 17 times. After continuingly standing by he became too felt numb, dead inside. At one point, he even tried to guess what her death would be that point.
Would she die of illness?
Suicide?
Or perhaps at his own hands?
He continued to feel sick, that his significant other kept perishing because of his foolishness. When will he ever learn from his mistakes and take a different route? This shouldn't have kept happening.
"Inuyasha! Hey, snap out of it! What's wrong"?
He smiled 'I have seen this scene too many times'
"Oi! Nothing, you stupid wench, "He tried to played it off, but could slowly feel his eyes starting to tear up. "I'll be going ahead. Sango. Miroku. Watch Shippo and Kagome."
As he sped away, he could hear Shippo's protests and Kagome's calming voice in the background. Perhaps this time would be different than last time he prayed. He couldn't have this happening again. Eighteenth time is a charm, right? Hopefully, Kagome's life won't void this time.