A/N: I do not own Twilight or any of the characters. The plot, is mine though.
Warning:This story will contain cussing, sex, and other things to be determined that may not be suited for your reading. Proceed with caution.
Preface
I try to avoid looking in the mirror as I step out of the shower. I wrap my towel around myself quickly, going through the motions without paying too much attention. I open the cabinet beside the shower pulling out the leave-in conditioner from the top shelf. The scale on the bottom shelf of the cabinet catches my eye before I have the sense to keep looking. Without meaning to, I take the scale from its shelf and place it gently on the floor. What could it hurt just to look?
I drop my towel on the sink counter, stepping slightly on the corner of the scale until 0.0 pops up in the number section of the scale. I step on, holding my breath, unsure of what numbers will pop up. I watch the digital line go around for longer than seems possible. Just before I'm ready to step off the scale, the numbers pop up. 291.6. It's the most I've ever weighed in.
I step back off the scale, the floor cold against my feet. I move to stand in front of the sink, my eyes roaming over my body. I can't ignore the bulge of my stomach or the way my thighs press so closely together. I can't miss the way my arms are way fatter than they have ever been. I feel the tears running down my face as I scrutinize my body.
I wrap my towel around my body, unable to tear my eyes from the mirror until my body is covered. I run to my room, leaving the mess in the bathroom from my shower until later. I fling myself onto the bed and bury my face in the pillow. I can't help my overreaction. There are so many emotions running through me. Anger that I ever let it get this bad. Sadness that I don't know how to fix it. Unsure of the future if I continue down the path that I'm going.
I think back to the time in my life when I weighed 190, which was still overweight, but not nearly as bad as I am now. But at that time, I thought I was so overweight. I was always so embarrassed and trying to hide my body. I somehow let it get even worse from there.
I let myself cry it out until I couldn't cry anymore. Then I picked myself off the bed. I pulled out my computer and made a decision that I hoped would change my life. I decided that I would get better. That I would lose weight, that I would get healthy, and that I would do the things in life that scared me.
A/N: Really short preface, I know. Chapter one will be posted soon. A huge thanks to anyone who reads!
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