It scares the hell out of me that I actually post it here. I still wonder if there's any point in writing fanfictions by me. But I love Kurtbastian so much that I had to it. I really doubt anyone read it but still I want to say sorry for all the mistakes. I've translated this from Polish and my English sucks.

Now I'm going to my bed and there's no way I ever get up.

I'm sitting on a windowsill in my room and looking carefully through a big window. It happens to me more and more often lately. I can't get rid of memories which come back with a doubled power by night. It would seem that just a couple days ago I was lying in the bed with a tall boy who has beautiful brown eyes. André. I laughed bitterly when I imagined that handsome, so well-know to me face – face of a guy who took my virginity and humiliated me on purpose.

I'll never forget his kind smile, words which he was whispering with this erotic voice directly to my ear, hands which were wandering all over my body or this feeling when his manhood finally was inside me. I was bewitched by gentleness and tenderness. God, what a fucking stupid and naive twat I was! But how could I know that all this was only a joke?

I don't feel anything for you. You're just a pathetic kid thanks to who I won quite a lot money.

I remember that after those words André smiled mockingly and left my house. Two years passed and I still recall that I was just a bet. Sebastian Smythe – a toy for fucking.

I wiped a single tear, stood up and headed for a bed slowly. I thought back to this matters again. So I'm still just a weak idiot who has never revenged on his ''beloved''.

That's why I catch up by using others. I vent my anger on people from public schools, I destroy various people's relationships… I just can't stand somebody's happiness.

I despise myself.

Hovewer, no one knows it, for everyone I'm a very self-confident, sexy asshole who wants to score every hot guy in Ohio. Everybody knows that I've picked myself a new prey not a long time ago. Blaine Anderson. A freak addicted to bowties, with honest smile and innocent heart. I don't know how anyone can think that I'm actually attracted to this guy. I just want to get rid of unnecessary thoughts and the only way to do it I know is to win and break more and more new hearts. The fact that he already has someone excites me even more.

I laughed under my breath and went to the bed. I covered myself with a duvet and closed my eyes.

It's time to start hunting a hobbit.