He never saw it coming, the explosion, and the pain. He thought it could never happen, not to his engine.

The last thing he remembered was working in engineering. A plasma coil had gone off line, pretty easy thing to fix. That's when it happened, the deafing noise of the explosion, the piercing pain that went through his body, and the yells of the voices he couldn't remember.

Now there was no more yelling, the noise from the explosion gone, and there was no more pain.

Am I dead?, he wondered. He wanted to open his eyes but he was too afraid. Then he heard voices, voices that he recognized, Archer and Reed.

Finally he opened his eyes and saw Dr. Phlox standing next to him, but looking at something. He looked over to where Archer and Reed were standing.

That's odd, he thought. Why are they standing over by the doors?

Dr. Phlox flashed a light into one of his eyes and then the other.

"So what's the verdict doc?" he asked.

Dr. Phlox didn't answer, but started running a scan over his body.

"Doc, what's going on?" he asked, but still go no answer. He was starting to get nervous. "Doc?"

Dr. Phlox put the scan down and walked away.

Trip finally sat up and saw Dr. Phlox going over to Archer and Reed.

"Hey guys, look I'm okay."

But they didn't hear him. How odd, he thought. He watched as the doctor talked to Archer and Reed.

He couldn't make out what was being said. He finally decided to get up and go over to them.

As he got close he noticed the look of sadness on the faces of Archer and Reed.

What is going on here? He thought. Why do they look like that?

He caught some of what Phlox was saying.

"He will require surgery and there is a chance he will not make it."

"Do everything you can to save him, doc." Archer said.

"I will do my best," Phlox said and walked away.

Who was with him in the accident, he couldn't remember.

"Captain," he said. "Who was in the explosion?" But Archer didn't answer. "John!"

Trip was getting scared. "What the hell is going on here?" he yelled. "Why won't either of you answer me."

Reed and Archer continued to stare at something; the same sad looks on their faces.

"God, just get him through this," Trip heard Archer say.

"Get who thought what?" Trip questioned his fear building.

Dr. Phlox appeared again.

"You'll inform me as soon as he's out of surgery?" Archer asked.

"I will."

Archer and Reed left sickbay, leaving Trip standing at the now closed doors.

"What the hell is going on here?" he said. "Why is the captain so upset? Who else was hurt?"

He was going to find out. He turned around to talk to Dr. Phlox and stopped dead in his tracks.

This can't be happening, he thought.

He couldn't move, fear had taken over his body and kept him in place. From where he was standing he could see his own body on the table he just got up from.

"Oh my god!" he said. "I'm dead!"