HIII EVERYONE! I alive and up with my...1 sec xD *checks on the story list*

Holy shell...my 5th fic in 2 months! yay me! 8D

this is a sequel to 'Turtle in body, Angel in spirit' where Leo fell in battle against Karai, she lost her life as well and...Well you just have to read the fic or read this first...

you decide what ^_^

Disclaimer: First Kevin Eastman and Peter Laird owned them (Don't know if they still do), Now nickelodeon own them

"I did it because I love our family, don't blame yourself for it"

Leo stood a few feet away, again in the armour and the wings, he was smiling at them and held out his arms. Raph, Donnie and Mikey didn't doubt for a second and hugged Leo, begging him not to leave.

"I may have leaved this world...But I will always love you guys...You...You were the grates little brothers ever! Mikey...It wasn't your fault, you didn't know what Karai was planning, I will always be in your hearts"

Leo looked at them all and smiled one last time before he disappeared.

Raph looked into his big brother's dark brown loving eyes one last time before he was gone.

"LEO!"

Raphael bolted upright in bed and breathed heavily, he looked around and saw that he was in his room...And that he just had had another nightmare about his oldest brother: Leonardo.

He let his head fall to his pillow and let the tears fall, he missed his brother so much...There wasn't a day when he couldn't think about the times he had with Leo before that night when Karai had killed Leo...and Leo in turn and taken Karai with him.

Splinter had named Raph the leader after that and it had drove him crazy...He wasn't fit to be the leader...But he was the only oldest left...He had no other choice but to accept his new place.

"Leo...I miss you bro...Every day I-I think I failed...I...I need you...H-Here...W-Why d-did you...H-Have to...L-Leave...Us...In pain?" Raph whispered and let the tears fall...

He would never hear his brother's words again.

Donnie sended his fist in the sand bag again and growled, he had spent more time in the Dojo then in his lab after his brother had died, he couldn't focus and when he did, it always made him think of Leo...He couldn't stop think about his older brother...

And he couldn't forget the form his brother had left in...How could he not know that his brother was a angel? And he still hadn't figure out why his big brother hadn't left his heart completely yet...There wasn't an empty hole where his brother once had been in...

It was like Leo was still with him...

"Donnie?" Said turtle turned and saw Mikey in the doorway...Eyes empty and lost.

"I-I'm okay Mikey...I was just thinking about..." "...Leo?" Mikey said and sat down, he hadn't got used to that he only had two brother's left now...He loved to have THREE older once that always looked after him...But now... He spent some nights in his bed in nightmares or awake...

The nightmares had got worse after Leo's death...Mikey's innocent heart couldn't handle the pain and grief...He missed his older brother.

Donnie had thought the same, Leo had been his hero and now...His hero was gone...The lair was full of memories of Leo and it almost drove Donnie nuts...He needed his big brother...

"My sons?"

Both turtles flew a mile in the air and found Splinter in the doorway, looking a little older since the battle where Leo had saved his master and father by taking the blade in his own chest...Causing everyone to see his death...But he had taken Karai with him.

"Sorry Master Splinter...We didn't hear you come..."

"Your brother told you that you should not blame your selfs...He forgave you for not being able to help...He understood you better then I do...And I still regret to let him go" Splinter said and led them to the TV area, Raph had already got there and was now looking into the blank screen, he had completely shut down.

No one could get a word out of him no matter what they said, it was like he had switched off the second he relished that his brother and best friend was gone ad he was left alone.

"Ancient One has asked us to visit him in Japan for three months, I think it would be good to leave the city for a while...Michelangelo, perhaps you should inform Silver Sentry and Miss O'Neil that we are leaving the city in their hands for a while?"

Mikey nodded and left to carry out his new task, Raph was still quiet and Donnie hadn't talked for a long time, Splinter sighed and sat in front of them.

"I know why you have shut your selfs out from the world: The death of you brother, has not left your minds like I thou..."

Raph snapped out of his thoughts and flew up "WHAT? YOU WANT US TO FORGET LEO? ARE YOU CRAZY?" He shouted on top of his lungs. " No Raphael...But it got your attention now right?" Splinter said, Raph sat down and crossed his arms.

"Look at each other...You are nothing more then shadows of you former selfs...Your thoughts has been on Leonardo and that has made you forget about the people that is alive...Leonardo would have forced you to start think about those who lives and are still with you"

Donnie looked at Raph his jaw fell "Raph...When did you eat or sleep last time?" His only remaining big brother looked more paler, skinner and tired then before!

"When did you turn from olive green to white?" Raph's ember eyes went to every part of Donnie's body and it made him more worried, he wondered if Donnie had been spending the nights in the lab again.

Mikey shut his green cell phone and let his head fall on the blue soft pillow, he was in Leo's room, he went here everytime he was close to forget his big brother...But he couldn't forget Leo!

He had been the best big brother in the world since they were just toddlers, Mikey missed him and he was glad that Leo had finnich off Karai before he left so the Foot wasn't a problem...

...Or so did they think.

"Mikey! Start pack your bag! We're leaving tonight!" Raph shouted and ran past Leo's room, he heard Raph slid to a stop and walked backwards to the door, "How long have you been in here?" He asked.

"Don't know...And why tonight?" Mikey said and sat up, Raph took a seat beside him and sighed "He thinks that the faster we get out of here the better it is for us...How can he do this? I can't forget about Leo!"

"Y-You think...Leo is...Happy?...Where ever he is..." Mikey asked and felt the tears flow down his sea green cheeks, Raph hugged him and letted Mikey cry in his shoulder. "Don't think so...He seemed to be happier with us when he was...W-With us..."

Raph couldn't hold back his tears anymore and the damn broke on both of them...They missed Leo to much.

After lots of tries and lil sister snatched my computer, I got this done ^_^...olny...

I had to use my mother's laptop xD oh well, the page is up and that all you guys care about right ^_^ I got many reviews from my first death fic which is called 'Turtle in body, Angel in spirit'

oh and did I say that you are so FREE to use what ever you want from both stories? you can make a small comic, skecth anything if you want ^_^ and im a understanding person!

chapter 2 isn't writing it self xD