Chapter 1
P.O.V. Kensi
I stand in front of the mirror looking at my body from every angle, scrutinizing it. No matter what angle I look at I see fat. I see tree trunk legs and thunder thighs. I see a muffin top and love handles. I just disgust myself with the amount of fat on my body. It's funny how everyone sees me as self confident but then again, they don't know about my ritual of standing in front of the mirror and judging my body. I wish I could change my hideous body around and stop being disgusted with myself. Maybe I could lose a bit of weight and like my body better. Ya, that's exactly what I'm going to do. I walk over to my computer and I look up different diets to lose weight fast. One diet that looks like it will work is the ABC diet. I get out a note book and write the allotted calories for each day, then I head to me closet and dig out the scale from the back. While I'm on this diet I'm going to keep track of every calorie I eat/drink, burn off twice the amount of calories I ate, and weigh myself daily. If I plan to stick to this routine then I better figure out what my start weight is. I step on the scale and wait a few seconds for the numbers to stop moving. At 5 feet 9 inches I weigh 127 pounds. Seeing that on the scale makes me want to cry but I refuse to do that. I WILL lose this weight I tell myself. I quickly right down my goal weights for motivation then I head to my room to go on my elliptical. For 2 hours I work away on the elliptical despite how tired I am. Around midnight I finally collapse in bed with one thought in mind. I WILL BE SKINNY.
A/N: Sorry, I know the chapter is short but I promise to try and make the rest a lot longer. Also, I don't support eating disorders and if anyone is struggling is struggling, then please feel free to message me on here. I am always here to listen if someone needs it.