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Chapter 1
"Gone"
People always say you should live life to its fullest, and you know? They are right. But how many of those thousands of people actually do so? I can assure you that out of ten people, nine just talk but never act. Yes, I know it sounds like I know what the bloody hell I'm talking about, and the truth is that I do know, because I'm one in every ten.
I know life is limited. I know life shouldn't be wasted. The hell I know how short life can be.
When I was ten years old, one of my teachers asked me where I saw myself in 10 years from then. I had no idea what that creepy old man was talking about. How would I know that? So I told him I didn't think that much in the future. That same day after class, he asked me to stay for a word. He then asked if my answer was due to my parents' death so early, not only into their lives, but mine; after all, I was months old when they turned into dust.
I never answered that last question. I didn't know back then, and to be honest I still don't. But I guess my way of thinking was affected by my parents' absence.
I still don't like thinking to much into the future. I don't think it's worth it. Why waste time planning your future years? People like planning; they like knowing they have a future, but do they really? I don't believe in the future. I believe in now. The past are just memories, and the future doesn't exist until it happens, and when it does, it's then called present.
So I do live my life second by second. It's not worth it having expectations, getting your hopes up, when they won't become truth.
When I was younger, I used to dream about my parents coming back for me. I used to expect. But they would never come. Once I asked my godfather if he knew if someday I'd see mum and dad. He said that it was possible. He said I shouldn't question that just yet, that I'd understand when I was a little older. Now I do understand. Yes, it is possible for me to see them, when I die of course.
When I first realized what Harry had meant, I wondered when that day would come. But in time I got tired of waiting. I wanted to see 'em bad, really bad. So in my early years at school I went any place that was banned for students or dangerous. Yes, you could say I was suicidal. But back then I wasn't aware of what I was doing, until my best friend opened my eyes. She said I shouldn't look for Death, that she didn't want me to die, that she needed me and that I was not allowed to leave her alone in this world. I was barely thirteen at the time, so to me what she said was nothing more than bloody rubbish.
But in time, seeing my tries never paid off, I tried less hard to get in dangerous situations, until I no longer thought it was worth it.
Now I know better. I know I wasted precious childhood trying to end my own life. And I have promised myself I would not waste one more second of it. That I'd live everyday like there was no tomorrow.
Tomorrow doesn't exist, yesterday is useless now, and all I have left is today, this very second. This is my life. This is my time and I know someday it'd be gone, so I better take the opportunity while it is still right in my nose.
Life is a day that doesn't last for long. It soon will be gone. And so will I, but at the time being, I don't care when that happens.
My name is Teddy Lupin and all I want is to have as much fun, as live as much, as enjoy, laugh, cry, lie as much as I can before I, too, am gone.
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A/N: Yes, new fic. I just wanted to write something so I don't get tired of my present fic and completely ditch it. I'm venting, you know.
"Life is a day that doesn't last for long" and the chapter's title are from Switchfoot's song "Gone"
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